Dreams and Reality- Aqua's Version, Tammy [top rated ebook readers .txt] 📗

said, annoyed, flipping hair out of her face.
“Elle it’s not her fault she’s crying. I mean obviously she’s upset so, it’s not like she doesn’t have a reason.” Rye defended me, that’s sweet but he really shouldn’t.
“I’m upset, but you don’t see me crying so everyone will be on my side. I mean that’s what she’s trying to do anyway.” She said angrily.
“Elle just shut up until we get there.” He said sharply and she did, but not for very long.
“No. You are not my mother. I’m saying what I need to say now. I am the one that’s betrayed, she’s just being an attention hogging, lying, spoiled, bitch.” She said raising her voice as we pulled into the coffee shop, and I ran inside, I can‘t believe her, does she just not care about what I feel at all? As I ran in, I had meant to head for the bathroom, but then Jake caught me by the waist.
“What’s wrong?” He was really concerned, and it just made everything that much worse. Josh was there; he almost came up to me to but stopped just a few feet away, also making things harder.
“I just want Elle and Rye to stop fighting, but she, thinks that I’m trying to steal him, I don’t want to, and no one, will believe me.” I said between sobs, he hugged me, and as an afterthought that I didn’t mean to say I said, “And I just want your brother to stop screwing with me.” I didn’t mean to, and I wished I hadn’t said it; they both looked surprised at what I said. Then Elle walked in, still mad at me.
“Wow, you’re just proving my point you big baby.” She said coldly.
“What the hell’s wrong with you?! What did you do to her? Isn’t it obvious she’s hurt, just back off.” Josh roared at her. Why? Why me? I didn’t do anything to deserve this! I just wish everyone would stop and calm down.
“No, you back off.” She said fiercely. “You don’t know the whole story, and I’m supposed to be your little sister, yet you haven’t defended me one time. Why? Because you are too obsessed with my sister, and the insane idea that if you’re nice enough she’ll date you. Well guess what? All you’re doing is screwing her up. She likes you, Rye, and Jake. She’s a whore and doesn’t want to admit it.” She said bitterly.
“Get out.” He said trying not to go in rage.
“Happy to oblige.” She said bitterly and she ran out. This is why I don’t get involved with people, everyone just gets hurt.
“What were you saying before?” Jake said, still stunned at what I had said.
“Nothing, I just, I can’t stand this Jake. Everything that’s happening hurts me.” I told him, as honest as I could be with him, without hurting him.
“It’s going to be ok, ok?” He comforted me, but I still cried, I had been holding it all back since Josh started flirting with me, the things Elle said just added to the problem.
“No, it’s not; nothing’s going to be ok. Every time I turn around, something happens.”
“What happened to Elle?” Rye spoke for the first time since Elle had ran out. Seriously? That’s what he’s concerned about? Elle and where she went? Of course, I forgot that everyone loves Elle and her self-pity. That’s wrong though, she is my sister, and I can’t just let her run away. Then Jake sighed, “Josh, comfort her while I help Rye.” He said, and Josh walked over and wrapped his arms around me. Rye and Jake went to talk about Elle and just left me to be even more confused with Josh.
“You know she doesn’t mean what she said Aqua? She’s just really mad right now.” He told me as I cried.
“I think she does, and as far as I know, I might as well like all three of the guys she listed.” Then without thinking, I babbled and said something I didn’t want to. “I mean I already like two, Jake and his..” Then I stopped, I didn’t want to say more than I had.
“That isn’t true, you know who you are. Just because you’re a little confused doesn’t mean you have to doubt yourself.” He comforted me, and I believed him. The tears had slowed, and now they were only a trickle.
“I really hope that you mean it. I really don’t think I can handle this anymore though.” I told him, and I know he knew what I meant.
“Well, I think you can. Everything is going to be ok.” He told me, and I involuntarily hugged him tighter.
“I wish it would be ok.”
“It will be, you know you’re really pretty even when you cry?” He asked, totally off subject, and then I remembered why I was crying and started to cry harder, just as hard as before. “I’m not joking, I mean it. You’re really pretty.” He told me, he didn’t understand why I was crying, he thought that I thought that he was teasing me and that’s why I was crying. He doesn’t understand, and I can’t just tell him. It would hurt worse to say it as far as I know. “You really are.” He assured, looking into my eyes, and it made it harder to ignore and I just kept crying. He looked around, and then he kissed me on the forehead, then Rye walked in, I was still crying though.
“The guys and I have decided to go looking for Elle, Jake is going to stay here with Aqua and help her through what she’s crying about.” He told Josh, who nodded, and looked down at me. “Will that be ok? Will you be ok with Jake?” He asked, and I just nodded, so he gave me to Jake and the guys left to look for Elle. Jake looked down at me and told me the same thing that Josh had just told me.
“You know you’re pretty, even when you’re crying?” He asked, and I cried really hard, because I enjoyed that both of them had told me that. “What happened with Elle anyway?”
“I just talked, to, Rye and, she got really mad because, I guess we didn’t include her enough. I don’t know. She just got really mad, and I couldn’t help it I started crying, I mean Rye, wouldn’t let me leave and I was insulted the whole way here. I had been holding in tears all week, but the stuff she said didn’t, help.” I tried to explain through sobs, and he just handed me a tissue and studied me and hugged me while I cried. I can’t tell him, it will hurt him, and I still like him so much, I don’t think I can stand him to leave me. I wish that everything would just fix itself, and problems would stop revolving around me.
“Hey, you know what I think will cheer you up?” I really didn’t know, so I just shook my head. “Singing, you love music.” He told me, but I didn’t want to so I shook my head. After about ten minutes of crying, I got up.
“Help me set up the karaoke machine.” I told him, and he stood up smiling that he had provided the idea and he went to set it up. He put it on a mix cd, and hit pause.
“Just hit play when you’re ready.” He told me, handing me the microphone, and I just nodded, I had a message to send through the song I was singing, because I felt like it was true, no matter how guilty I felt about it. “Are you ok; because you can cry some more if you want?” He asked, concerned.
“No, that’s ok.” I told him, and I wiped the last tear from my eye, and I hit play, luckily it told me that the song I wanted to sing was in, which was Break Your Heart by Taio Cruz. I started singing, and Jake sat and listened. When I was done, he applauded me. “You do understand the lyrics right?” I asked him, and this time it was his turn to just nod.
“I hope they don’t come true, but I can see what you mean.” He struggled through telling me that, he really didn’t like being to open, but he knew he had to tell me if he understood what I was telling him.
“I hope they don’t either, but I just wanted you to know, I’ve broken a lot of hearts you know.” I told him, I didn’t want to, but I knew we would have to have a deep conversation about this sooner or later.
“It won’t happen soon will it?” He asked but his eyes were closed.
“No, not as far as I can see.” I told him, and his eyes opened and he smiled. Then he picked me up and put me down on the table. “You know, I really do love you right?” He asked, and I felt guilty, even after telling him about what a heart breaker I was and that it was possibly going to happen with us.
“Yes, and you know that as far as I know, I love you to?” I asked, and he nodded. “Good,” I told him, and I kissed him, as strong as I could with our weak connection, it took him by surprise, and his hands went in my hair, and I wrapped myself around him, I was weak from the day’s events, but then he pulled back, and put me down. I looked down, and I felt stupid, but then he lifted my face and kissed me gently again, but it was gentle and small. I was disappointed because all I had felt were a few butterflies and not many at that.
“Maybe when you don’t doubt everything going on in your life.” He told me, and I didn’t understand what he meant, and then I realized what he was talking about and tried not to laugh, that’s so sweet, but that’s not where that was going.
“Ok, you want to sing with me?” I asked, looking at the small stage that the coffee shop had.
“Sure.” He picked me up and I was startled.
“Jake! Put me down!” I shouted out of reflex.
“No, what if you hurt yourself, no more tears for today.” He told me as he sat me down on the stage. We sang a few of Taylor Swift’s old songs and then sat down and drank some coffee. Jake left to catch up with the guys and help find Elle. Eventually I got up and started pacing, where were they? They should have been back with Elle by now. A few minutes later she came in with Rye and the guys, and then walked over to me.
“I’m sorry.” She said to me. “I didn’t mean what I said I was just mad, and felt like nobody cared.” Then Josh walked over to my side, and it must have reminded her who she was mad at. “You on the other hand aren’t off the hook.” She growled.
“Why what did I do?” Josh asked bored, don’t be stupid, please. I tried to will him with my thoughts.
“You’re supposed to be my brother and want to protect me, but what were you doing while I was upset? Flirting with my sister, and yelling at me like I wasn’t hurt too! You are supposed to care about me and if you can’t handle that then I don’t want you as my sibling.” She said angrily.
“You made it quite clear when you decided to attack Aqua for no reason that you didn’t want help.” He said shrugging it off.
“I made it quite clear did I? Well