Bloodlust, Stephanie Scarff [freda ebook reader .TXT] 📗

vampire. This is so typical of were-wolves!" Ryan said. I sighed and said, "Lets go and find Matt. I`ll drive." Ryan was going to protest but I stared at him until he stopped. "Very well," he grumbled. I laughed and ran to my blue Ferrari F430 and jumped in the drivers seat. Sitting on the passenger seat, was a yellow note, and it almost blended in with my bright yellow bag. I opened it and I gasped aloud. It was from Matt, and I re-read it until Ryan came. He looked over my shoulder and said, "What you got the..." He read the note from his brother and got in the car, and I could see he was nearly in tears. The thing I re-read over and over again, was, 'They say if you love someone, let them go. And that`s what I`m doing. I`ll hold you in my heart forever, and I won`t forget you, but hopefully you`ll forget me, and not save me. Because at least I`ll know I died trying to save you. Love from, Matt.' I hadn`t realised I had been crying until I saw the wet patches on the paper. It couldn`t be over, could it?
Chapter 18
I drove home, my eyes blurry, needing sleep. I nearly fell asleep while driving, but the thought of Matt always woke me up. I groaned and Ryan said, "What?" but I just ignored him. He left the subject alone. I couldn`t leave the subject alone so I just said, "I need blood!" No walking human would hear or see us at the speed I was driving at. Ryan lifted something up to me and I realised it was blood. I took it gladly and drove with one hand on the steering wheel, and the other hand tightly squeezing the blood bag. I finally got home and got all the weapons I kept in my room after the transformation. I gave Ryan some and I turned to look out the window to see if Em`s was alright in the car. She was drinking blood, so she would probably be fine. I went to the door and Ryan followed me from behind. I walked away, probably leaving him hurt and went into the kitchen. "Right, Tan, wait," Ryan said. I turned around and gasped. He hugged me. I hugged him back, and I couldn`t stop until I remembered what it said in the vampire laws - If you mate, in anyway, with someone else, it would be lost, and you`ll be bound to the other person! I was bound to Ryan! I pulled away from the hug. "What`s wrong?" Ryan whispered. I shook my head but replied, "The connection!" Ryan looked at me, puzzling over what I said, and I truthfully replied, "We did the connection." I heard the door open and there was...Matt.
Chapter 19
Matt blinked, stood there without speaking, and worried me completely. I felt like I couldn`t breathe as Ryan stood away from me. "Matt," I whispered. He stood motionless at the front of the door, staring into space. He didn`t answer, and I whispered his name again. Ryan tried as well. "Matt, I thought you were gon-" "And that gives you the permission to hug my girlfriend?! I can`t feel the imprint - why? Was it you, or her," he asked, pointing his finger at me. "Matt - I`m sorry! I don`t know what happened! One minute I was running down the stairs and then I was hugging-" "My brother," he finished off for me. Matt launched for his brother but I pushed them both back when I saw a fight was about to brew. "Stop!" I shouted as Em`s walked in. Em`s looked confused while she said, "Matt? Good to have you back, man!" "Em`s, go outside please. While I sort these-" I looked at them and continued, "Brothers...out!" She sighed and walked out, putting her earplugs in. "What is with you`s?! You are brothers! And your fighting over me!" I whispered. "Fine. We`ll stop...but only if you choose," Matt replied, anxious to get a fight going, knowing I wouldn`t want to. "No, don`t make her choose!" Ryan shouted. "Why? You afraid she`s going to chose me?" "No!" he roared at Matt. "Just stop!" I screamed. Both boys looked at me and stopped fighting. "Leave," I shouted,confusing them both. "Okay. Wait,...who?" they both said together - brother, vampire stuff I`m guessing. "Matt,...leave," I whispered, my eyes on the floor. "What?" he answered back with a frown. "Leave...I hate it that you`s fight...especially over me," I said. Matt stormed out the house but turned back to his brother and said "You will regret this." He picked up a chair and flung it in our direction. We ducked out the way and it hit the window with a crack. The window fell apart and I could see the anger and hurt in his eyes. He walked out and Ryan whispered, "Why did you choose me? Why didn`t you choose him?" I sighed. He didn`t know. "I chose you because I don`t love him - I love you. When the imprint was lost, I knew that I loved you more," I said, trailing off. He sighed and said, "Well, thank you. That`s really thoughtful, and amazing." I looked up in his sky blue eyes. Matt was my past...Ryan, was my future.
Chapter 20
Em`s walked in, looking at the window, listening to loud music. "Wha...?" she said, raising an eyebrow. "Oh, umm, sorry, I accidentally threw,...a chair to the window?" I said with an innocent expression on my face. She nodded and replied, "Wheres Matt?" I looked at Ryan, beckoning for him to speak, and he stood for a minute, dazed - smiling - something Matt hardly did now. "Oh, sorry, just thinking about stuff.Matt, eh, had to leave, and do something," Ryan said with a shrug of his shoulders. Em`s nodded and said, "Well, he`ll be back soon though! Why the sad faces?" I frowned, and whispered,"Matt`s not coming back." It was her turn to frown, and moan, "What this time?!" I laughed, the tears blurring my vision as I smiled, only a weak smile from wanting to burst out crying. "He,uh, just left, ha, and there was, um, nothing I could...do, to stop...him," I lied weakly. "Awww, I was looking forward to talk to him!"she whispered, and quickly rethought her words as me and Ryan`s eyebrows went up, and said, "I didn`t, like, mean it like that...What I meant was, I had to ask him something! Yeah, I do." She smiled and said,"We better get going." She sighed and put her headphones in. She started singing 'My Love' by Sia. "So...what just happe-" "We cannot talk about," I cut him off, nodding to Emily, as she turned back and waved for us to come forward. "I think we should go on holiday, where no one else will go : with Emily, of course," he whispered in my ear,making me go dizzy. I nodded and tapped Em`s on the shoulder. She spun around with a grin on her face and said, "Why I`d love to come!" I nodded and looked at Ryan. He was wearing the same expression as me and I asked Ryan where and when. "Well, obviously, where theres no sun, no people, and, right about...now?" he asked. I nodded and walked out to my blue Ferrari and stopped. I laughed and said, "I need to go get packed!" Ryan laughed and said, "No, I`ve got that covered. Your stuff is already there." I laughed even harder this time, and answered back a little too angry, saying, "Aha, magician Matt to the rescue!" I stopped laughing and froze. Ryan had stopped too. "I meant, magician Ryan!" Oh damn! I got in the passenger seat and I sat there, not breathing, thinking about Matt - what I`d done.I hadn`t mean to cause him pain. I hadn`t meant to destroy his life, and the silenter the car ride had gotten, the more I realised Matt would probably be right - I was going to regret this. Ryan, reading my thoughts, grunted and sped he car along faster. I blinked as silent, unwanted tears ran down my face. Was life over? Or was this just the beginning?
Chapter 21
Ryan didn`t talk to me, not even after I apologised. "How could he blame me?" I asked Em`s when Ryan was away out, who knows where? "Don`t worry, hes just going through a phase of missing his brother, thats all!" she replied back with a worried smile - her eyes told me she didn`t believe herself, either. I nodded and sat back, enjoying the sun. I walked into the massive cabin, breathing in the deep scent of human blood from the fridge. I was living the life here, but Ryan was bringing my mood down. "Em`s?" I shouted. She appeared with a creepy grin on her face. I stopped drinking the blood and smiled back at her. "What is it?" I asked, getting a little creeped out by her smile. "I just saw Ryan...without a shirt!" she squealed. I copied her enthusiasm for a joke. "OMG! Where?" I shouted. "Seriously?" I asked. She nodded, obviously thinking I meant by the shirt, just as Ryan walked in, his hair dripping with water - and yes, she was right - he was shirtless. I turned away and concentrated on the blood - it was kind of hard when Ryan leaned right in front of me! I could smell the shampoo and conditioner he had used, it was an apple smell. I smiled at him as he gazed at me, eyes wide, mouth up in a grin. "So...what do you want to do?" he asked.I turned to Em`s and nodded to her. "Oh, right, I was thinking about going for a swim?" Ryan nodded, took the towel off - he was already in his swimming trunks - and jumped in the pool. I looked at Em`s and laughed - she was gawping over to him like a lifeless fish! I smiled secretly to myself. Em`s saw me, and pushed me in the pool. Thinking about Matt and not realising the encounter, I fell right into Ryan`s open arms. I looked up, wondering if he knew and he gazed at me. I slipped out of his arms and pulled Em`s in. I tried to play and laugh about in the water, but I couldn`t stay away from Ryan`s gaze, drifting back to me every so often. What was I going to do about Matt? Also, what was I going to do about Ryan? For him to back off?
Chapter 22
I reached for a towel to dry off and shook my head. I felt Ryan`s gaze on me. Wondering what my next reaction to hurt his feelings could be - slipping out of his arms when he caught me, not meeting his gaze - what more was there? And then I thought it - telling him that Matt was right all along - I would regret it. All of my thoughts directed to Matt, how I had hurt his feelings, took away any love, I`ll regret it forever. I ran to the bathroom, ignoring the calls of, 'Tanya! Wait up!', and just running in and locking the door, even though they could barge in at any moment. But they didn`t. A tear streamed down my face, followed by a waterfall. I brung out a pad and paper, the ones to write letters and postcards. I got out a pad and wrote to Matt, the letter a paragraph long, saying :
Matt, I think about you everyday, and I wish you were here. After that day, I know that you were right - I would regret it forever, unless you came. Please, forget about me or come back, I picked Ryan because the spark was gone, and I realised it was because he hugged me - he