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me have had what lovers they

desired. For a kiss also is but the shadow of ecstasy. Then they

taught me in the lodge of the initiated how, though death might be

far, yet it was certain, and that at death the ghost of man wanders

stripped of all powers that it has gained in a place of shadows, and

that there remained yet to be found the secret of how man could go

into that place armed with passion and high delight and return to this

world when and as he would. He that has mastered love has mastered the

world, and he that masters death is lord of that other. Also as the

delights of mere bodily love are but shadows beside the rich joys of

the transforming imagination, so this itself is nothing compared to

the revivifying intoxication of the passage from life to death and

from death to life. And I set my purpose on this and laboured to

achieve it. But, while I brooded, the feet of Europe came nearer, and

the blind intelligence of Europe looked into the clear light of the

lodges and said: ‘It is dark, it is dark,’ and smelt wickedness. And

the religion of Europe came, and the learning of Europe. Then we the

adepts knew that, unless we made Africa free, in a little while Europe

would trample over us and we should be gone; and we resolved that

Europe must be stayed.”

 

He paused and looked out over the fields and hedges between which they

were passing. Then he went on more sharply and swiftly:

 

“Not that all the Europeans who came to Africa then had closed

themselves to wisdom. Some of the white officers sat in our lodges and

were initiated and entered into trance, and made themselves strong

men; there have always been some who would do this—Mottreux was one;

I met him in Uganda, and there was a French General in Morocco, and in

the south Simon Rosenberg’s great uncle. And there were others. All of

us set to work to unite Africa. We knew the lodges already in various

parts of the land, and we drew all these into one. And we spoke with

the chiefs and kings; little by little we brought them into our

purpose. The witch-doctors and sorcerers were ours already, though

they were in the outer circle. They gave us a means of ruling the

tribes, and little by little through many years we proposed to

ourselves to show the people of Africa the doctrines of freedom and

sacrifice and ecstasy, and I determined to strike at Europe by panic

and strength.”

 

Roger said abruptly, “Yet you seemed to wish that Mottreux hadn’t

fired.”

 

“Why, for myself,” Considine said, “if men without weapons come

against me I’ll meet them without weapons, heart to heart and strength

to strength. But shall I waste years imposing my will on the

Governments of Europe—and spend my energies so? It shall be a shorter

business. They proclaim guns and they shall have guns. But for the

adepts—If I wish Mottreux had not fired it was for his sake, not

mine.”

 

“Your friends may fire at you one day,” the intolerant voice of the

priest broke in, “when they want something you can’t give them.”

 

“Pieces of silver, for example,” Considine said, not turning his head.

 

The night lay about them; they swept on through it. Roger looked out

on the unseen countryside, and remembered the words that had brought

about his own meeting with the conquistador who sat opposite him. “I

will encounter darkness as a bride”—he was rushing towards that

darkness now. The dark closed them in, but they were speeding towards

the core of the darkness; the words themselves were swallowing them

up. All the miracles of the poets had rent and illumined and charged

that night, but the mingling light and dark which was in all easily

accepted verse lay far behind them now where the wild rapture of the

Africans surged above London. It was as if he had passed from them

from something which was himself, to something which was even more

himself. His very physical body was being carried in towards the

energy which created art. Art…the ancient word so often defiled

and made stupid stood for a greatness only partially explored. His

body felt the energy opposite him—an energy self-restrained, self

shaped. “And hug it in mine arms-” but if the arms could not bear it,

if the awful blasting power of that darkness should destroy him as the

glory of Zeus destroyed Semele? It was too late now for choice; he was

lost and saved at once. Onward and onward, away from the ironic

contemplations of the children of the wise world and from the

shrieking self-immolating abandonments of the more ignorant sons of

rapture; away from young perplexity and young greed; away from Isabel.

High-set, as the moon now rising, he saw her, knowing in her daily

experiences, her generous heart and her profound womanhood, all that

he must compass sea and land to find. This was the separation that had

been between man and woman from the beginning; this was fated, and

this must be willed. It was the everlasting reconciliation of the

everlasting contradiction-to will what was fated, to choose necessity.

Perfect for one moment in his heart, he knew the choice taken. He

willed necessity. All the poets had done this in their own degree—the

very making of their verse was this, their patience and their labour,

their silence till the utterance they so long desired rose into being

within them. This was the secret of royalty—the solemn anointed

figure of government to whom necessary obedience was willed, and so

through all orders of hierarchical life, secular or religious,

vocational in every kind, trade or profession, ceremonial or actual.

Love too was its image, but love and not the beloved was the

necessity; to love, and only to the beloved as the sacred means, the

honourable toil was given.

 

Something different was in the air; his nostrils felt, far off, the

smell of the sea.

Chapter Ten - LONDON AFTER THE RAID

The wild figures that danced on the outskirts of London that night

were but few and scattered representations of the more monstrous forms

that filled it within. The serpent skins that clothed some of the

leaders of the dance were poor vestments if compared to the mad

dragons of escaping multitudes. Considine had indeed loosed but few of

his meinie on the hills of the north and the south; he had not cared,

it was afterwards discovered, even to justify the announcements of

burning villages and destroyed troops which he had caused to be

broadcast. A few bombs had been dropped but more for noise and mental

horror than to destroy. He had even reassured London, speaking from

its centre. But there were many whom the reassurance did not solace,

and there were many, many more, who did not hear it, for they were

already in flight. It was known in the small streets and the slums of

the extremer suburbs that the Africans had landed, and of those who in

those crowded buildings heard the news there were few who did not rush

out to seek safety. The north fled southwards; the south fled

northwards; the west broke away towards the east. Over the east alone

no hostile airfleet manoeuvred and fought the English planes while its

laden airships sank earthward to landing places prepared long since.

Many a house with wide grounds had waited for this night; flares

summoned the enemy and they came. At most they numbered few enough in

comparison with the defenders, and they were not meant for attack. But

on all convenient heights their fires blazed, and sacred revels were

begun which till now had been hidden in the black night of African

swamps. As there the wild animals fled from the drums, the conches,

and the screams, so now the terrified population rushed away to what

it hoped was safety. The slums poured out their people, and not the

slums alone. From many a fine house, lying happily on the outer rim of

London, cars issued bearing huddled women and children, while men,

both young and old, drove them furiously away. A brother coming back

home would bear the news, or a father peering from a window would be

aware, dreadfully near him, of the awful barbarian tumult breaking

out, and household after household sought by their mechanical

inventions to escape from the strange gospel which called to their

uncomprehending minds. Considine’s voice had hardly ceased its

proclamation when opposite Charing Cross a laden car from near the

Heath crashed into another similarly laden from the Terrace at

Richmond. This was but the first of many similar catastrophes. London

became the enemy of London; civil war, chaotic and bloody, surged

through the streets. Ealing and Highgate and Streatham, listening to

the guns, heard instead the riot roaring through them, hesitated and

feared and shrank, and then, as the rumours grew louder, and the panic

in the streets spread into the houses, themselves swept out to swell

the flood. The spray of the approaching waves of humanity mingled; the

first fugitives passed each other and soon began to call out, and

heard how they fled not towards safety but towards new danger. And

behind those earliest and most timorous souls came the main hurrying

processions. They came up towards the centre; stations and tubes were

choked, and yet tubes and stations offered no certain refuge from an

enemy pursuing on foot. It was not merely death dropped from the skies

that threatened but death hastening along on earth. Round about

Piccadilly and Pall Mall, clambering over the railings of the parks,

trying to rest in Trafalgar Square, surging over the bridges and even

running on and falling from their parapets, surging also from the

thoroughfares of the north, the mob converged on the central lines of

Oxford Street and Holborn and Cheapside, of the Strand and Fleet

Street and Ludgate Hill and Cannon Street. There it sought to pause,

but still the continual presence thrust it from behind, and now it was

driven on not merely to escape death that pursued from afar but death

that threatened close at hand. The mere necessity of breath oppressed

it, the desire of escape not from Africa but from itself. Ignorant and

at odds with itself it swayed and exuded itself, and was magnetized by

some slight movement and rushed after in blind despair or even blinder

hope. A woman with a baby would take a few steps down a partly

deserted turning, and others would follow, and a small eddy would be

set up which a mile away was reflected in another insane and

multitudinous onrush. A young man would pull his girl into an arch or

doorway for rest, and others would see and follow, and a little tumult

would break out in that greater tumult, and the first couple were

fortunate indeed if they both emerged from that tiny crush alive into

the ever-moving surges that poured by them. Yet, terrible as the fear

was, fear was not present alone; desire and loathing and the cruel

darkness of abandoned souls walked in the mist of the crowds and took

their pleasure as they could. Abominable things were done, which none

saw or seeing stopped to prevent. Shrieks went up in hidden corners,

and laughter and sudden silences answered them, silences hardly

discernible in the general roar and themselves filled with the

never-ceasing sound of the guns. How many devotees of Considine’s

choosing rode through the air to death that night was never rightly

known, but not till the late November dawn was high did the movement

of his planes or the efforts of the English gunners cease. There was

therefore, for the elements

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