Depression sucks.......live with it, B.B. [free e books to read .TXT] 📗
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History repeats itself...or does it?!
I went up to a room with a stereo and plugged in my Ipod. I switched it to the song by Three Days Grace "Pain"
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
I had sung along to the whole song, and had not know I had an audience other than Razor. I heard clapping. I guess I did have a good voice. I felt my cheeks go cherry red. I pulled the hood of the my pitch black hoodie over my head. Wait! Did I have this on before?! Ah who cares. I felt a soft hand slip under the hood (which covered my whole face) and pull it back. I had recently learned, before the song, that my hair can change color too. "You are beautiful, you know that right?" He asked softly as he held my cheek in his hand. "How can I be? I'm a freak of nature....I don't belong.." I felt my grip on the razor in my hand tighten and a drop of blood fell to the floor and shattered into a million pieces, just as my heart had so many times. The razor then dropped from my hand. I had someone who loved me now. I didn't need that thing. He slowly reached down and pulled up the sleeves of my hoodie to find nothing but a minor cut on my hand. "I don't need those things anymore...I have someone, and a dog that loves me, finally someone who cares." As the cut healed, something else dropped to the floor. Something I have never seen. A single tear escaped my eye for the first time. It shattered on the wooden floor. My parents were always surprised, because I never cried. No matter what. Vampires can cry. That's just another stupid legend to make us look hard and cold and uncaring. I had a surprised look on my face, as I said stupidly, for I have never seen anyone cry, "What the hell is that?!" I mean sure I had read books about it, but I had never seen someone cry. "A tear" "why have you never cried?" It wasn't a snide remark, it was an honest to god question. "Because I shut myself off as soon as I was born, I shut my tear ducts off vowing to never cry, never show a weakness, yet you've turned them back on and I don't know how....." "Love is the key to everything..." "Or is it?" I asked breaking the love scene with a laugh. He started laughing too. I was a bit stronger than the usual supernatural, so I had no problem pulling him in for a big hug, which made him laugh harder. I hadn't noticed this before, but he smelt better than my brother, blueberry muffins! * hmm that was a bit awkward...* "What are you thinking?" He asked lifting my chin. I giggled and said stupidly "That you smell like blueberry muffins......" I started to laugh uncontrollably when his eyebrow arched. "I-i-it's-s-s t-t-thhheee t-t-tr-r-uth!" I got out while still laughing. I finally finished I said "Hmmm...Now i want blueberry muffins." He sighed and started to walk downstairs to the kitchen, when I clung to his leg. He sighed louder and continued to walk. I started to laugh again. He continued to make me my muffins homemade with me clinging to him the whole time! He set the plate on the counter and I was at my seat in seconds with a bite in my mouth. "yummmmm." I said as I finished my first one (they were really good!). That got him laughing. Razor managed to jump on a chair and sit on it. "wow you would do anything for food...." I mumbled, through a mouthful of muffiny goodness. "Another fat joke?! What is up with you people!?!?!" I was laughing so hard now that the muffin fell and he ate it. That stopped my laughing dead in it's tracks. "You ate my muffin!" "So?" I huffed and crossed my arms. "Well that was the last one!" "And it was good!" I put a pouty face on and went upstairs, closing the door softly. Somehow I was popped back into the kitchen. "No fair!" Mark snorted and started to walk away, when I saw he had a muffin in his hand. "MINE!" I yelled and tackled him grabbing the muffin and running. I now had a very mad mate and a dog chasing after me. I ended up in a corner. Crap. "One move and the muffin gets it!" Mark snorted and moved a step closer. That muffin was gone without them even getting a chance! "Heyyyyy!" They wined. Before I knew it I was slung over Mark's shoulder and headed upstairs. "I will use my master ninja skills if you don't let me down!" I warned. He didn't so as soon as we were near the bed, I wrapped my foot around his neck and jerked it so he fell on the bed. With me underneath him. Damm, not how I planed it to go. I slowly wiggled out from under him and crept towards the door, looking back every cupple of seconds only to run into a mango and orange smelling chest. "Crap! I said and ran behind Mark who had his body protectively in front of me, hands across chest, this was gunna get ugly. "WERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?????????!!!!!!!" my brother asked. "Here." I said, like the smart ass I was. I tried to go by Mark's side but he literally slid me back behind him. "You are coming home now!" my brother yelled. Again like the smart ass I was I jumped up to look over Mark's shoulder and said with each jump "I...Am...Home..!" "No I mean our house!" I poked my head out from the side of him saying "Why?! 'Cause mom and dad left me all the money in my bank accounts little brother?!" "Just because you turn 19 today does not make me your little brother!" "I turn 19 today?!" "Wow! You forgot your own birthday!" "Well it's not like I ever got a cake or anything!" Mark sighed and pushed my head behind him too. "You are coming home now!" my brother growled. "No..I...will..NOT! get that through your thick skull! I have found my mate and I love him! That place is filled with sorrow and death!I am not going to that place where you call home!" I growled now standing of the top of a post on the canopy of the bed. I was the lightest thing in the world. My brother lifted an eyebrow as he smelled. "You two aren't fully mated yet!" and he roared with laughter. "At least I don't sleep with whore's every night!" I mumbled. He stopped dead in his tracks and crouched, pointed at me. "WHAT DID YOU SAY?!?!?!" He yelled and pounced. Crap.
I quickly dogged, but he changed course mid air by swinging on the
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