You Dont Exist, Denise Twice Rendon [highly recommended books txt] 📗

look at him, “It’s just?” I ask, wanting to know what’s on his mind. “I-I can’t tell you, or at least I don’t want to tell you.”
My hands rest on his shoulders holding him there. “I wanna know.”
He sighs, “Your just…um, it’s just that you smell deli-” he suddenly stops. He grabs my hands and pushes me away from him. He took five steps backwards, away from me. “What’s wrong? What did I do?” I ask frantically. His hands grab the sides of his head. His breathing turns heavy and sturdy. His eyes shut close. I slowly tiptoe closer to him. “NO!” he yells. But his mouth is shut. “GO BACK!!” he roars. Ordered by fear, I stumble backwards falling on my back on the rough forest floor. Ow, I flinched at the pain in my back. But ignoring my pain and remembering Romeo I look up. Romeo’s hands are still holding his head, He bit his lip. “I’m sorry Marley.” Romeo’s eyes burst open. Showing fiery red eyes.
He growls angrily and shows his white sharp fangs and his teeth. I freeze. I can’t move, I-I don’t want to provoke Romeo into doing anything to me. “Romeo?” I whisper. A gruesomely howl roars aloud. I shut my eyes.

Chapter 2: School

My eyes open to the sight of my blue pillow. I turn my body around and sit up. I stretch and look out at the window. The sky is blue and gray. The sign of every morning. I grab my purple comforter blanket and throw it off my body. I lazily get up and walk out to the bathroom. I start the straightner and walk back into my room. I stare in front of my opened drawers dumbfounded at what I had nothing to wear. I sigh, I grab my black spaghetti strap tank top and put it on. Then I grab my dirty gray -color- style skinny jeans and slide them on. I grab my black Jordans and put them on, then I walk to my closet and start looking through my jackets and sweaters. I grab my white sleeved but black torso varsity jacket that I got from Wet Seal.
I grab my backpack, stick my phone in my back pocket and grab my silver studs and run down stairs. I throw my backpack on the dining room table and look in the hallway mirror. I put my studs on and grab my backpack. I run into the kitchen to find my mom cooking herself breakfast. I kiss her on the cheek, “Bye ma.”
“Mija, I want you home by at least seven thirty.”
That’s too early! “Ma! That’s too early! I always come home at nine WITH finished homework.”
She sighs, “Fine just be safe and text me every now and then please?” she begs.
I nod and grab a Go-gurt.
I walk out towards the living room and walk outside. I close my door and start walking to school.
At the gate of the school, there were huge crowds of guys yelling and fighting. That isn’t really new or surprising. After all LA High is known for fights anyway. So, as I walk by some guys look over me and smile, some even whistle. I didn’t care though, they always whistle to every girl they find attractive. I’m just one of them. I walk over the group and when I enter I see Kimberly and the rest of the guys.
“Hey.” I said to Kimberly. She hugs me then releases the hug, “Hi, hey have you seen Giovanni?” she asks. I shake my head, “Why? What’s wrong?”
She shrugs, but Angel walks towards us, “I hear he was in a fight with some random guy.” Angel says while resting his arm over Kim’s neck. I hold my arm over my stomach, “When?” I ask Angel since he knows everything about who just got into fights, who won, who was facing, why they were fighting, he’s the guy to go to find out about a upcoming fight. “I don’t really know, the guy just stood in front of Giovanni, and when Giovanni commanded the guy to move the guy didn’t listen. He just started to talk shit to Giovanni. But he didn’t know Giovanni knew how to talk and fight. So, Giovanni hit him and the guy just came at him.” Angel shrugs, “Whatever the reason, the guy hates Giovanni.”
“Is Giovanni okay?” I ask curious of the boy I have feelings for.
Kim answers, “Yeah, he’s fine he left with merely a bruised arm, but the other guy left without ANYTHING. I mean Giovanni told us he had no emotions when he landed a it on the guy. He said the guy healed fast.” she sounds so astonished. But, wait, “Giovanni told you about the fight?” why didn’t he tell me? I mean, we’re close enough to tell each other what we just went through in our lives. Kim shrugs, “Yeah, he said he went over to your house but your brothers friend Shadow said you were asleep. Giovanni told me to tell you that he wants to talk to you really bad.” she smiles thinking the same as I’m thinking. But then again, its Giovanni, he might not ask me out. He might just tell me about the fight instead.
“The only thing is,” Tony buds in, “We don’t know where Giovanni is.”
“How do you guys not know where he is?” I ask frustrated.
The bell rang to start the school day. We all tell each other bye and separate into our classes. I wasn’t really that fixated on Giovanni, I know he’s coming to school today. He told me yesterday he was going to see me today. Besides, I’ll be able to see him in second period.
I walk up the three flight of stairs towards the third floor and room 365. My Chemistry class. I already know I fail this class, who doesn’t? So, I just hide my phone under the desk and text my friends the whole one hour of being in this class.
“Marley, did you get this?” my friend Promise -yes that’s really her name- asks me about the section of chemicals and their properties. I shrug, “Not really.” She eyes me and giggles, “Texting again?” she asks already knowing the obvious answer. I smile, “Yes ma’am.” I confess. She sighs, “Well it don’t matter since you copy off of me anyway. Plus, let’s go to second period or we’ll get screamed out by ms. Miller.” she smiles and gathers her stuff. I nod, grab my phone and leave with Promise by my side. We walk outside to the uncovered hallway and find our JROTC leader, Anthony. He smiles and waves, “Hey Promise, Hi Marley.”
We say hi and continue on down stairs to the first floor. We turn left of the stairway and into the hallway. We continue walking to room 162. When we enter the room Promise sits with her JROTC friends -who are by the way SERIOUSLY way into their program- and hangs with them. While I go to the right and sit in the far back sit of the class.
“Hi Marley.” a girl named Daniela greets me. I throw my backpack on my desk and I smile, “Hi.”
I didn’t really talk to Daniela much, and I still don’t but at times when I’m actually early to class we try to fit a couple of words in our conversation. She gets out her notebook and starts copying the board. See what I mean? I don’t start work until the passing bell rings and that’s when class REALLY starts. Until then I just text.
The bell rings, I scan the door. Giovanni isn’t here. Why? Now I’m sad. There’s something up, I don’t know what. So, I put my phone away and start working.
About thirty minutes into class, someone knocks on the door. Laughing, I hear guys laughing. And I know one of them. Ms. Miller opens the door and Bryan and Giovanni walk in laughing. They got high. “Why are you guys late?” Ms. Miller asks them. She sniffs them and flinches, “You guys come with me.” she grabs both of their hands and walks them outside of the class into the hall. She waves over the security guard to search them.
I get out of my seat, others follow after me. I walk to the door and watch. Bryan laughs as the guy touches him everywhere searching for the marijuana they had. Bryan pushes him once the security guard went down ‘there’ “Ay fagot! Don’t touch me there!” he shouts. Giovanni stays quiet, knowing how much trouble he could be in if he talks. I look at Giovanni, I don’t care about the situation with Bryan. I only care about Giovanni. He looks at me while a female security guard checks him. He doesn’t flinch when she checks him ‘there’ but only looks disappointed. I bit my lip.
“He’s clean.” she lets Giovanni go and he walks towards me. He pushes by me and sits down. I walk towards my seat which is beside him. He doesn’t look at me, “What’s wrong Giovanni?” I ask. There’s something wrong. He looks away. Not answering me.
The bell rang and I quickly got up. “Marley.” he murmurs. I grab my backpack and leave without hesitation. I don’t want to hear it, you want to ignore me? Fine, ignore me, I’ll ignore you.

Chapter 3: Gio’s Bad Side Revealed

Sixth period, the last period of the day starts. I sit behind Kimberly and in front of a guy named Sean. He’s pretty cute too. Anyway, as Kim turns her chair around to stare at me, we start talking to each other and laughing. Not caring about whether the teacher is mad or not at us.
“Giovanni ignored me during second period..” I tell Kim. She looks at me and sighs, “Why what happened?”
I shrug, “That’s just it, I don’t know. He got high with Bryan and when he was done getting checked by the security girl he just walks by me and I asked him what was wrong and he just ignores me. He looked away.” Kimberly shook her head, “What a shame, I hope you guys are still okay with each other for my party…” she murmurs. My eyes narrow at her, “I might be loosing the one guy that matters to me and your worried about YOUR party?!” I slam my head on my desk and sigh. I don’t want to loose Giovanni, I like him. Ugh.
I hear Kim sigh and continue playing her Angry Birds game on her Android phone. My eyes close and I soon felt weightless.


I sit on the rough forest floor, and I cross my arms around my chest. “Romeo? You here?” I call out for him. No answer. Greaaaat, now your ignoring me? Do you hear my mind!? Well good. I’m loosing the guy I care about, and I’m gonna loose you? My animal friend? Do I not matter to either of you? Or am I just a girl you guys want and when