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tempted them to come night after night, when prudence should have
induced them to stay away.
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The association between Reginald Eversleigh and Paulina Durski was no
new alliance.
Immediately after the death of Sir Oswald Eversleigh, Reginald turned
his back upon London, disgusted with the scene of his poverty and
humiliation, eager to find forgetfulness of his bitter disappointments
in the fever and excitement of a more brilliant city than any to be
found in Great Britain. He went to Paris, that capital which he had
shunned since the death of Mary Goodwin, but whither he returned
eagerly now, thirsting for riot and excitement—any opiate by which he
might lull to rest the bitter memories of the past month.
He was familiar with the wildest haunts of that city of dissipation,
and he was speedily engulphed in the vortex of vice and folly. If he
had been a rich man, this life might have gone on for ever; but without
money a man counts for very little in such a circle as that wherein
Reginald alone could find delight, and to the inhabitants of that
region five hundred a year would seem a kind of pauperism.
Sir Reginald contrived to keep the actual amount of his income a secret
locked in his own breast. His acquaintances and associates knew that he
was not rich; but they knew no more.
At the French opera-house he saw Paulina Durski for the first time. She
was seated in one of the smaller boxes, dressed in pure white, with
white camellias in her hair. Her faithful companion, Matilda Brewer,
was seated in the shadow of the curtains, and formed a foil for the
beautiful Austrian.
Reginald Eversleigh entered the house with a dissipated and fashionable
young Parisian—a man who, like his companion, had wasted youth,
character, and fortune in the tainted atmosphere of disreputable haunts
and midnight assemblies. The two young men took their places in the
stalls, and amused themselves between the acts by a scrutiny of the
occupants of the house.
Hector Leonce, the Parisian, was familiar with the inmates of every
box.
“Do you see that beautiful, fair-haired woman, with the white camellias
in her hair?” he said, after he had drawn the attention of the
Englishman to several distinguished people. “That is Madame Durski, the
young and wealthy widow of an Austrian officer, and one of the most
celebrated beauties in Paris.”
“She is very handsome,” answered Reginald, carelessly; “but hers is a
cold style of loveliness—too much like a face moulded out of wax.”
“Wait till you see her animated,” replied Hector Leonce. “We will go to
her box presently.”
When the curtain fell on the close of the following act the two men
left the stalls, and made their way to Madame Durski’s box.
She received them courteously, and Reginald Eversleigh speedily
perceived that her beauty, fair and wax-like as it was, did not lack
intellectual grace. She talked well, and her manner had the tone of
good society. Reginald was surprised to see her attended only by the
little Englishwoman, in her dress of threadbare black velvet.
After the opera Sir Reginald and Hector Leonce accompanied Madame
Durski to her apartments in the Rue du Faubourg, St. Honor�; and there
the baronet beheld higher play than he had ever seen before in a
private house presided over by a woman. On this occasion the beautiful
widow herself occupied a place at the rouge et noir table, and
Reginald beheld enough to enlighten him as to her real character. He
saw that with this woman the love of play was a passion: a profound and
soul-absorbing delight. He saw the eyes which, in repose, seemed of so
cold a brightness, emit vivid flashes of feverish light; he saw the
fair blush-rose tinted cheek glow with a hectic crimson—he beheld the
woman with her mask thrown aside, abandoned to the influence of her
master-passion.
After this night, Reginald Eversleigh was a frequent visitor at the
apartments of the Austrian widow. For him, as for her, the fierce
excitement of the gaming-table was an irresistible temptation. In her
elegantly appointed drawing-rooms he met rich men who were desperate
players; but he met few men who were likely to be dupes. Here neither
skill nor bribery availed him, and he was dependent on the caprices of
chance. The balance was tolerably even, and he left Paris neither
richer nor poorer for his acquaintance with Paulina Durski.
But that acquaintance exercised a very powerful influence over his
destiny, nevertheless. There was a strange fascination in the society
of the Austrian widow—a nameless, indefinable charm, which few were
able to resist. A bitter experience of vice and folly had robbed
Reginald Eversleigh’s heart and mind of all youth’s freshness and
confidence, and for him this woman seemed only what she was, an
adventuress, dangerous to all who approached her.
He knew this, and yet he yielded to the fascination of her presence.
Night after night he haunted the rooms in the Rue du Faubourg, St.
Honor�. He went there even when he was too poor to play, and could only
stand behind Paulina’s chair, a patient and devoted cavalier.
For a long time she seemed to be scarcely aware of his devotion. She
received him as she received her other guests. She met him always with
the same cold smile; the same studied courtesy. But one evening, when
he went to her apartments earlier than usual, he found her alone, and
in a melancholy mood.
Then, for the first time, he became aware that the life she led was
odious to her; that she loathed the hateful vice of which she was the
slave. She was wont to be very silent about herself and her own
feelings; but that night she cast aside all reserve, and spoke with a
passionate earnestness, which made her seem doubly charming to Reginald
Eversleigh.
“I am so degraded a creature that, perhaps, you have never troubled
yourself to wonder how I became the thing I am,” she said; “and yet you
must surely have marvelled to see a woman of high birth fallen to the
depths in which you find me; fallen so low as to be the companion of
gamesters, a gamester myself. I will tell you the secret of my life.”
Reginald Eversleigh lifted his hand with a deprecating gesture.
“Dear madame, tell me nothing, I implore you. I admire and respect
you,” he said. “To me, you must always appear the most beautiful of
women, whatever may be the nature of your surroundings.”
“Yes, the most beautiful!” echoed Paulina, with passionate scorn. “You
men think that to praise a woman’s beauty is to console her for every
humiliation. I have long held that which you call my beauty as the
poorest thing on earth, so little, happiness has its possession won for
me. I will tell you the story of my life. It is the only justification
I have.”
“I am ready to listen. So long as you speak of yourself, your words
must have the deepest interest for me.”
“I was reared amongst gamesters, Reginald Eversleigh,” continued
Paulina Durski, with the same passionate intensity of manner, “My
father was an incorrigible gambler; and before I had emerged from
childhood to girlhood, the handsome fortune which should have been mine
had been squandered. As a girl the rattle of the dice, the clamour of
the rouge et noir table were the most familiar sounds to my ears.
Night after night, night after night, I have kept watch at my own
window, and have seen the lighted windows of my father’s rooms, and
have known that grim poverty was drawing nearer and nearer as the long
hours of those sleepless nights went by.”
“My poor Paulina!”
“My mother died young, exhausted by the perpetual fever of anxiety
which the gambler’s wife is doomed to suffer. She died, and I was left
alone—a woman; beautiful if you will, and, as the world supposed,
heiress to a large fortune; for none knew how entirely the wealth which
should have been mine had melted away in those nights of dissipation
and folly. People knew that my father played, and played desperately;
but few knew the extent of his losses. After my mother’s death, my
father insisted on my doing the honours of his house. I received his
friends; I stood by his chair as he played �cart�, or sat by his side
and noted the progress of the game at the rouge et noir table. Then
first I felt the fatal passion which I can but believe to be a taint in
my very blood. Slowly and gradually the fascinating vice assumed its
horrible mastery. I watched the progress of the play. I learned to
understand that science which was the one all-absorbing pursuit of
those around me. Then I played myself, first taking a hand at �cart�
with some of the younger guests, half in sport, and then venturing a
small golden coin at the rouge et noir table, while my admirers
praised my daring, as if I had been some capricious child. In those
assemblies I was always the only woman, except Matilda Brewer, who was
then my governess. My father would have no female guests at these
nightly orgies. The presence of women would have been a hindrance to
the delights of the gaming-table. At first I felt all the bitterness of
my position. I looked forward with unspeakable dread to the dreary
future in which I should find destitution staring me in the face. But
when once the gamester’s madness had seized upon me, I thought no more
of that dreary future; I became as reckless as my father and his
guests; I forgot everything in the excitement of the moment. To be
lucky at the gaming-table was to be happy; to lose was despair. Thus my
youth went by, till the day when my father told me that Colonel Durski
had offered me his hand and fortune, and that I had no alternative but
to accept him.”
“Oh, then, your first marriage was no love-match?” cried Reginald,
eagerly.
“A love-match!” exclaimed Paulina, contemptuously. “No; it was a
marriage of convenience, dictated by a father who set less value on his
daughter’s happiness than on a good hand of cards. My father told me I
must choose between Leopold Durski and ruin. ‘This house cannot shelter
you much longer,’ he said. ‘For myself there is flight. I can go to
America, and lose my identity in strange cities. I cannot remain in
Vienna, to be pointed at as the beggared Count Veschi. But with you for
my companion I should be tied hand and foot. As a wanderer and an
adventurer, I may prosper alone; but as a wanderer, burdened with a
helpless woman, failure would be certain. It is not a question of
choice, Paulina,’ he said, resolutely; ‘there is no alternative. You
must become the wife of Leopold Durski.’”
“And you consented?”
“I ask you, Reginald Eversleigh, could I refuse? For me, love was a
word which had no meaning. Leopold Durski was more than double my age;
but in outward seeming he was a gentleman. He was reported to be
wealthy; he had a high position at the Austrian Court. I was so utterly
helpless, so desolate, so despairing, that it is scarcely strange if I
accepted the fate my father pressed upon me, careless as to a future
which held no joy for me, beyond the pleasure of the gaming-table. I
left the house of one gambler to ally myself to the fortunes of
another, for Leopold Durski was my father’s companion and friend, and
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