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the man who opened the door to ask Mr. Emmet to wait. The man was rather deaf, and did not catch with certainty the name she gave. Mr. Emmet did not appear, and it was late before Sepia returned.
Tom, jealous even to hatred, spent the greater part of his evening in a tavern on the borders of the city-in gloomy solitude, drinking brandy-and-water, and building castles of the most foolish type-for castles are as different as the men that build them. Through all the rooms of them glided the form of Sepia, his evil genius. He grew more and more excited as he built, and as he drank. He rose at last, paid his bill, and, a little suspicious of his equilibrium, stalked into the street. There, almost unconsciously, he turned and walked westward. It was getting late; before long the theatres would be emptying: he might have a peep of Sepia as she came out!-but where was the good when that fellow was with her! "But," thought Tom, growing more and more daring as in an adventurous dream, "why should I not go to the house, and see her after he has left her at the door?"
He went to the house and rang the bell. The man came, and said immediately that Miss Yolland was out, but had desired him to ask Mr. Helmer to wait; whereupon Tom walked in, and up the stair to the drawing-room, thence into a second and a third drawing-room, and from the last into the conservatory. The man went down and finished his second, pint of ale. From the conservatory, Tom, finding himself in danger of havoc among the flower-pots, turned back into the third room, threw himself on a couch, and fell fast asleep.
He woke in the middle of the night in pitch darkness; and it was some time before he could remember where he was. When he did, he recognized that he was in an awkward predicament. But he knew the house well, and would make the attempt to get out undiscovered. It was foolish, but Tom was foolish. Feeling his way, he knocked down a small table with a great crash of china, and, losing his equanimity, rushed for the stair. Happily the hall lamp was still alight, and he found no trouble with bolts or lock: the door was not any way secured.
The first breath of the cold night-air brought with it such a gush of joy as he had rarely experienced; and he trod the silent streets with something of the pleasure of an escaped criminal, until, alas! the wind, at the first turning, let him know that he had left his hat behind him! He felt as if he had committed a murder, and left his card-case with the body. A vague terror grew upon him as he hurried along. Justice seemed following on his track. He had found the door on the latch: if anything was missing, how should he explain the presence of his hat without his own? The devil of the brandy he had drunk was gone out of him, and only the gray ashes of its evil fire were left in his sick brain, but it had helped first to kindle another fire, which was now beginning to glow unsuspected-that of a fever whose fuel had been slowly gathering for some time.
He opened the door with his pass-key, and hurried up the stair, his long legs taking three steps at a time. Never before had he felt as if he were fleeing to a refuge when going home to his wife.
He opened the door of the sitting-room-and there on the floor lay Letty and little Tom, as I have already told.
"Why have I heard nothing of this before?" said Mary.
"I am not aware of any right you have to know what happens in this house."
"Not from you, of course, Miss Yolland-perhaps not from Mrs. Redmain; but the servants talk of most things, and I have not heard a word-"
"How could you," interrupted Sepia, "when you were not in the house?-And, so long as nothing was missed, the thing was of no consequence," she added. "Now it is different."
This confused Mary a little. She stopped to consider. One thing was clear-that, if the ring was not lost till after she left- and of so much she was sure-it could not be Tom that had taken it, for he was then ill in bed. Something to this effect she managed to say.
"I told you already," returned Sepia, "that I had no suspicion of him-at least, I desire to have none, but you may be required to prove all you say; and it is as well to let you understand- though there is no reason why I should take the trouble- that your going to those very people at the time, and their proving to be friends of yours, adds to the difficulty."
"How?" asked Mary.
"I am not on the jury," replied Sepia, with indifference.
The scope of her remarks seemed to Mary intended to show that any suspicion of her would only be natural. For the moment the idea amused her. But Sepia's way of talking about Tom, whatever she meant by it, was disgraceful!
"I am astonished you should seem so indifferent," she said, "if the character of a gentleman with whom you have been so intimate is so seriously threatened as you would imply. I know he has been to see you more than once while Mr. and Mrs. Redmain were not yet returned."
Sepia's countenance changed; an evil fire glowed in her eyes, and she looked at Mary as if she would search her to the bone. The poorer the character, the more precious the repute!
"The foolish fellow," she returned, with a smile of contempt, "chose to fall in love with me!-A married man, too!"
"If you understood that, how did he come to be here so often?" asked Mary, looking her in the face.
But Sepia knew better than declare war a moment before it was unavoidable.
"Have I not just told you," she said, in a haughty tone, "that the man was in love with me?"
"And have you not just told me he was a married man? Could he have come to the house so often without at least your permission?"
Mary was actually taking the upper hand with her! Sepia felt it with scarcely repressive rage.
"He deserved the punishment," she replied, with calmness.
"You do not seem to have thought of his wife!"
"Certainly not. She never gave me offense."
"Is offense the only ground for casting a regard on a fellow- creature?"
"Why should I think of her?"
"Because she was your neighbor, and you were doing her a wrong."
"Once for all, Marston," cried Sepia, overcome at last, "this kind of thing will not do with me. I may not be a saint, but I have honesty enough to know the genuine thing from humbug. You have thrown dust in a good many eyes in this house, but
none in mine."
By this time Mary had got her temper quite in hand, taking a lesson from the serpent, who will often keep his when the dove loses hers. She hardly knew what fear was, for she had in her something a little stronger than what generally goes by the name of faith. She was therefore able to see that she ought, if possible, to learn Sepia's object in talking thus to her.
"Why do you say all this to me?" she asked, quietly. "I can not flatter myself it is from friendship."
"Certainly not. But the motive may be worthy, for all that. You are not the only one involved. People who would pass for better than their neighbors will never believe any good purpose in one who does not choose to talk their slang."
Sepia had repressed her rage, and through it looked aggrieved. "She confesses to a purpose," said Mary to herself, and waited.
"They are not all villains who are not saints," Sepia went on. "- -This man's wife is your friend?"
"She is."
"Well, the man himself is my friend-in a sort of a sense." A strange shiver went through Mary, and seemed to make her angry. Sepia went on:
"I confess I allowed the poor boy-he is little more-to talk foolishly to me. I was amused at first, but perhaps I have not quite escaped unhurt; and, as a woman, you must understand that, when a woman has once felt in that way, if but for a moment, she would at least be-sorry-" Here her voice faltered, and she did not finish the sentence, but began afresh: "What I want of you is, through his wife, or any way you think best, to let the poor fellow know he had better slip away-to France, say-and stop there till the thing blow over."
"But why should you imagine he has had anything to do with the matter? The ring will be found, and then the hat will not signify."
"Well," replied Sepia, putting on an air of openness, and for that sake an air of familiarity, "I see I must tell you the whole truth. I never did for a moment believe Mr. Helmer had anything to do with the business, though, when you put me out of temper, I pretended to believe it, and that you were in it as well: that was mere irritation. But there is sure to be trouble; for my cousin is miserable about her sapphire, which she values more than anything she has; and, if it is not found, the affair will be put into the hands of the police, and then what will become of poor Mr. Helmer, be he as innocent as you and I believe him! Even if the judge should declare that he leaves the court without a blot on his character, Newgate mud is sure to stick, and he will be half looked upon as a thief for the rest of his days: the world is so unjust. Nor is that all; for they will put you in the witness-box, and make you confess the man an old friend of yours from the same part of the country; whereupon the counsel for the prosecution will not fail to hint that you ought to be standing beside the accused. Believe me, Mary, that, if Mr. Helmer is taken up for this, you will not come out of it clean."
"Still you explain nothing," said Mary. "You would not have me believe it is for my sake you are giving yourself all this trouble?"
"No. But I thought you would see where I was leading you. For- and now for the whole truth-although nothing can touch the character of one in my position, it would be worse than awkward for me to be spoken of in connection with the poor fellow's visits to the house: my honesty would not be called in question as yours would, but what is dear to me as my honesty might-nay, it certainly would. You see now why I came to you!-You must go to his wife, or, better still, to Mr. Helmer himself, and tell him what I have been saying to you. He will at once see the necessity of disappearing for a while."
Mary had listened attentively. She could not help fearing that something worse than unpleasant might be at hand; but she did not believe in Sepia, and in no case could consent that Tom should compromise himself. Danger of
Tom, jealous even to hatred, spent the greater part of his evening in a tavern on the borders of the city-in gloomy solitude, drinking brandy-and-water, and building castles of the most foolish type-for castles are as different as the men that build them. Through all the rooms of them glided the form of Sepia, his evil genius. He grew more and more excited as he built, and as he drank. He rose at last, paid his bill, and, a little suspicious of his equilibrium, stalked into the street. There, almost unconsciously, he turned and walked westward. It was getting late; before long the theatres would be emptying: he might have a peep of Sepia as she came out!-but where was the good when that fellow was with her! "But," thought Tom, growing more and more daring as in an adventurous dream, "why should I not go to the house, and see her after he has left her at the door?"
He went to the house and rang the bell. The man came, and said immediately that Miss Yolland was out, but had desired him to ask Mr. Helmer to wait; whereupon Tom walked in, and up the stair to the drawing-room, thence into a second and a third drawing-room, and from the last into the conservatory. The man went down and finished his second, pint of ale. From the conservatory, Tom, finding himself in danger of havoc among the flower-pots, turned back into the third room, threw himself on a couch, and fell fast asleep.
He woke in the middle of the night in pitch darkness; and it was some time before he could remember where he was. When he did, he recognized that he was in an awkward predicament. But he knew the house well, and would make the attempt to get out undiscovered. It was foolish, but Tom was foolish. Feeling his way, he knocked down a small table with a great crash of china, and, losing his equanimity, rushed for the stair. Happily the hall lamp was still alight, and he found no trouble with bolts or lock: the door was not any way secured.
The first breath of the cold night-air brought with it such a gush of joy as he had rarely experienced; and he trod the silent streets with something of the pleasure of an escaped criminal, until, alas! the wind, at the first turning, let him know that he had left his hat behind him! He felt as if he had committed a murder, and left his card-case with the body. A vague terror grew upon him as he hurried along. Justice seemed following on his track. He had found the door on the latch: if anything was missing, how should he explain the presence of his hat without his own? The devil of the brandy he had drunk was gone out of him, and only the gray ashes of its evil fire were left in his sick brain, but it had helped first to kindle another fire, which was now beginning to glow unsuspected-that of a fever whose fuel had been slowly gathering for some time.
He opened the door with his pass-key, and hurried up the stair, his long legs taking three steps at a time. Never before had he felt as if he were fleeing to a refuge when going home to his wife.
He opened the door of the sitting-room-and there on the floor lay Letty and little Tom, as I have already told.
"Why have I heard nothing of this before?" said Mary.
"I am not aware of any right you have to know what happens in this house."
"Not from you, of course, Miss Yolland-perhaps not from Mrs. Redmain; but the servants talk of most things, and I have not heard a word-"
"How could you," interrupted Sepia, "when you were not in the house?-And, so long as nothing was missed, the thing was of no consequence," she added. "Now it is different."
This confused Mary a little. She stopped to consider. One thing was clear-that, if the ring was not lost till after she left- and of so much she was sure-it could not be Tom that had taken it, for he was then ill in bed. Something to this effect she managed to say.
"I told you already," returned Sepia, "that I had no suspicion of him-at least, I desire to have none, but you may be required to prove all you say; and it is as well to let you understand- though there is no reason why I should take the trouble- that your going to those very people at the time, and their proving to be friends of yours, adds to the difficulty."
"How?" asked Mary.
"I am not on the jury," replied Sepia, with indifference.
The scope of her remarks seemed to Mary intended to show that any suspicion of her would only be natural. For the moment the idea amused her. But Sepia's way of talking about Tom, whatever she meant by it, was disgraceful!
"I am astonished you should seem so indifferent," she said, "if the character of a gentleman with whom you have been so intimate is so seriously threatened as you would imply. I know he has been to see you more than once while Mr. and Mrs. Redmain were not yet returned."
Sepia's countenance changed; an evil fire glowed in her eyes, and she looked at Mary as if she would search her to the bone. The poorer the character, the more precious the repute!
"The foolish fellow," she returned, with a smile of contempt, "chose to fall in love with me!-A married man, too!"
"If you understood that, how did he come to be here so often?" asked Mary, looking her in the face.
But Sepia knew better than declare war a moment before it was unavoidable.
"Have I not just told you," she said, in a haughty tone, "that the man was in love with me?"
"And have you not just told me he was a married man? Could he have come to the house so often without at least your permission?"
Mary was actually taking the upper hand with her! Sepia felt it with scarcely repressive rage.
"He deserved the punishment," she replied, with calmness.
"You do not seem to have thought of his wife!"
"Certainly not. She never gave me offense."
"Is offense the only ground for casting a regard on a fellow- creature?"
"Why should I think of her?"
"Because she was your neighbor, and you were doing her a wrong."
"Once for all, Marston," cried Sepia, overcome at last, "this kind of thing will not do with me. I may not be a saint, but I have honesty enough to know the genuine thing from humbug. You have thrown dust in a good many eyes in this house, but
none in mine."
By this time Mary had got her temper quite in hand, taking a lesson from the serpent, who will often keep his when the dove loses hers. She hardly knew what fear was, for she had in her something a little stronger than what generally goes by the name of faith. She was therefore able to see that she ought, if possible, to learn Sepia's object in talking thus to her.
"Why do you say all this to me?" she asked, quietly. "I can not flatter myself it is from friendship."
"Certainly not. But the motive may be worthy, for all that. You are not the only one involved. People who would pass for better than their neighbors will never believe any good purpose in one who does not choose to talk their slang."
Sepia had repressed her rage, and through it looked aggrieved. "She confesses to a purpose," said Mary to herself, and waited.
"They are not all villains who are not saints," Sepia went on. "- -This man's wife is your friend?"
"She is."
"Well, the man himself is my friend-in a sort of a sense." A strange shiver went through Mary, and seemed to make her angry. Sepia went on:
"I confess I allowed the poor boy-he is little more-to talk foolishly to me. I was amused at first, but perhaps I have not quite escaped unhurt; and, as a woman, you must understand that, when a woman has once felt in that way, if but for a moment, she would at least be-sorry-" Here her voice faltered, and she did not finish the sentence, but began afresh: "What I want of you is, through his wife, or any way you think best, to let the poor fellow know he had better slip away-to France, say-and stop there till the thing blow over."
"But why should you imagine he has had anything to do with the matter? The ring will be found, and then the hat will not signify."
"Well," replied Sepia, putting on an air of openness, and for that sake an air of familiarity, "I see I must tell you the whole truth. I never did for a moment believe Mr. Helmer had anything to do with the business, though, when you put me out of temper, I pretended to believe it, and that you were in it as well: that was mere irritation. But there is sure to be trouble; for my cousin is miserable about her sapphire, which she values more than anything she has; and, if it is not found, the affair will be put into the hands of the police, and then what will become of poor Mr. Helmer, be he as innocent as you and I believe him! Even if the judge should declare that he leaves the court without a blot on his character, Newgate mud is sure to stick, and he will be half looked upon as a thief for the rest of his days: the world is so unjust. Nor is that all; for they will put you in the witness-box, and make you confess the man an old friend of yours from the same part of the country; whereupon the counsel for the prosecution will not fail to hint that you ought to be standing beside the accused. Believe me, Mary, that, if Mr. Helmer is taken up for this, you will not come out of it clean."
"Still you explain nothing," said Mary. "You would not have me believe it is for my sake you are giving yourself all this trouble?"
"No. But I thought you would see where I was leading you. For- and now for the whole truth-although nothing can touch the character of one in my position, it would be worse than awkward for me to be spoken of in connection with the poor fellow's visits to the house: my honesty would not be called in question as yours would, but what is dear to me as my honesty might-nay, it certainly would. You see now why I came to you!-You must go to his wife, or, better still, to Mr. Helmer himself, and tell him what I have been saying to you. He will at once see the necessity of disappearing for a while."
Mary had listened attentively. She could not help fearing that something worse than unpleasant might be at hand; but she did not believe in Sepia, and in no case could consent that Tom should compromise himself. Danger of
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