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pursue our investigations. We found that a steamer for

Hamburg was likely to suit our purpose best, and we directed our

thoughts chiefly to that vessel. But we noted down what other

foreign steamers would leave London with the same tide, and we

satisfied ourselves that we knew the build and color of each. We

then separated for a few hours: I, to get at once such passports as

were necessary; Herbert, to see Startop at his lodgings. We both

did what we had to do without any hindrance, and when we met again

at one o’clock reported it done. I, for my part, was prepared with

passports; Herbert had seen Startop, and he was more than ready to

join.

Those two should pull a pair of oars, we settled, and I would

steer; our charge would be sitter, and keep quiet; as speed was not

our object, we should make way enough. We arranged that Herbert

should not come home to dinner before going to Mill Pond Bank that

evening; that he should not go there at all tomorrow evening,

Tuesday; that he should prepare Provis to come down to some stairs

hard by the house, on Wednesday, when he saw us approach, and not

sooner; that all the arrangements with him should be concluded that

Monday night; and that he should be communicated with no more in

any way, until we took him on board.

These precautions well understood by both of us, I went home.

On opening the outer door of our chambers with my key, I found a

letter in the box, directed to me; a very dirty letter, though not

ill-written. It had been delivered by hand (of course, since I left

home), and its contents were these:—

“If you are not afraid to come to the old marshes tonight or

tomorrow night at nine, and to come to the little sluice-house by

the limekiln, you had better come. If you want information

regarding your uncle Provis, you had much better come and tell no

one, and lose no time. You must come alone. Bring this with you.”

I had had load enough upon my mind before the receipt of this

strange letter. What to do now, I could not tell. And the worst

was, that I must decide quickly, or I should miss the afternoon

coach, which would take me down in time for tonight. Tomorrow

night I could not think of going, for it would be too close upon

the time of the flight. And again, for anything I knew, the

proffered information might have some important bearing on the

flight itself.

If I had had ample time for consideration, I believe I should still

have gone. Having hardly any time for consideration,—my watch

showing me that the coach started within half an hour,—I resolved

to go. I should certainly not have gone, but for the reference to

my Uncle Provis. That, coming on Wemmick’s letter and the morning’s

busy preparation, turned the scale.

It is so difficult to become clearly possessed of the contents of

almost any letter, in a violent hurry, that I had to read this

mysterious epistle again twice, before its injunction to me to be

secret got mechanically into my mind. Yielding to it in the same

mechanical kind of way, I left a note in pencil for Herbert,

telling him that as I should be so soon going away, I knew not for

how long, I had decided to hurry down and back, to ascertain for

myself how Miss Havisham was faring. I had then barely time to get

my great-coat, lock up the chambers, and make for the coach-office

by the short by-ways. If I had taken a hackney-chariot and gone by

the streets, I should have missed my aim; going as I did, I caught

the coach just as it came out of the yard. I was the only inside

passenger, jolting away knee-deep in straw, when I came to myself.

For I really had not been myself since the receipt of the letter;

it had so bewildered me, ensuing on the hurry of the morning. The

morning hurry and flutter had been great; for, long and anxiously

as I had waited for Wemmick, his hint had come like a surprise at

last. And now I began to wonder at myself for being in the coach,

and to doubt whether I had sufficient reason for being there, and

to consider whether I should get out presently and go back, and to

argue against ever heeding an anonymous communication, and, in

short, to pass through all those phases of contradiction and

indecision to which I suppose very few hurried people are

strangers. Still, the reference to Provis by name mastered

everything. I reasoned as I had reasoned already without knowing it,

—if that be reasoning,—in case any harm should befall him through

my not going, how could I ever forgive myself!

It was dark before we got down, and the journey seemed long and

dreary to me, who could see little of it inside, and who could not

go outside in my disabled state. Avoiding the Blue Boar, I put up

at an inn of minor reputation down the town, and ordered some

dinner. While it was preparing, I went to Satis House and inquired

for Miss Havisham; she was still very ill, though considered

something better.

My inn had once been a part of an ancient ecclesiastical house, and

I dined in a little octagonal common-room, like a font. As I was

not able to cut my dinner, the old landlord with a shining bald

head did it for me. This bringing us into conversation, he was so

good as to entertain me with my own story,—of course with the

popular feature that Pumblechook was my earliest benefactor and the

founder of my fortunes.

“Do you know the young man?” said I.

“Know him!” repeated the landlord. “Ever since he was—no height

at all.”

“Does he ever come back to this neighborhood?”

“Ay, he comes back,” said the landlord, “to his great friends, now

and again, and gives the cold shoulder to the man that made him.”

“What man is that?”

“Him that I speak of,” said the landlord. “Mr. Pumblechook.”

“Is he ungrateful to no one else?”

“No doubt he would be, if he could,” returned the landlord, “but he

can’t. And why? Because Pumblechook done everything for him.”

“Does Pumblechook say so?”

“Say so!” replied the landlord. “He han’t no call to say so.”

“But does he say so?”

“It would turn a man’s blood to white wine winegar to hear him tell

of it, sir,” said the landlord.

I thought, “Yet Joe, dear Joe, you never tell of it. Long-suffering

and loving Joe, you never complain. Nor you, sweet-tempered Biddy!”

“Your appetite’s been touched like by your accident,” said the

landlord, glancing at the bandaged arm under my coat. “Try a

tenderer bit.”

“No, thank you,” I replied, turning from the table to brood over the

fire. “I can eat no more. Please take it away.”

I had never been struck at so keenly, for my thanklessness to Joe,

as through the brazen impostor Pumblechook. The falser he, the

truer Joe; the meaner he, the nobler Joe.

My heart was deeply and most deservedly humbled as I mused over the

fire for an hour or more. The striking of the clock aroused me, but

not from my dejection or remorse, and I got up and had my coat

fastened round my neck, and went out. I had previously sought in my

pockets for the letter, that I might refer to it again; but I could

not find it, and was uneasy to think that it must have been dropped

in the straw of the coach. I knew very well, however, that the

appointed place was the little sluice-house by the limekiln on the

marshes, and the hour nine. Towards the marshes I now went

straight, having no time to spare.

Chapter LIII

It was a dark night, though the full moon rose as I left the

enclosed lands, and passed out upon the marshes. Beyond their dark

line there was a ribbon of clear sky, hardly broad enough to hold

the red large moon. In a few minutes she had ascended out of that

clear field, in among the piled mountains of cloud.

There was a melancholy wind, and the marshes were very dismal. A

stranger would have found them insupportable, and even to me they

were so oppressive that I hesitated, half inclined to go back. But

I knew them well, and could have found my way on a far darker

night, and had no excuse for returning, being there. So, having

come there against my inclination, I went on against it.

The direction that I took was not that in which my old home lay,

nor that in which we had pursued the convicts. My back was turned

towards the distant Hulks as I walked on, and, though I could see

the old lights away on the spits of sand, I saw them over my

shoulder. I knew the limekiln as well as I knew the old Battery,

but they were miles apart; so that, if a light had been burning at

each point that night, there would have been a long strip of the

blank horizon between the two bright specks.

At first, I had to shut some gates after me, and now and then to

stand still while the cattle that were lying in the banked-up

pathway arose and blundered down among the grass and reeds. But

after a little while I seemed to have the whole flats to myself.

It was another half-hour before I drew near to the kiln. The lime

was burning with a sluggish stifling smell, but the fires were made

up and left, and no workmen were visible. Hard by was a small

stone-quarry. It lay directly in my way, and had been worked that

day, as I saw by the tools and barrows that were lying about.

Coming up again to the marsh level out of this excavation,—for the

rude path lay through it,—I saw a light in the old sluice-house. I

quickened my pace, and knocked at the door with my hand. Waiting

for some reply, I looked about me, noticing how the sluice was

abandoned and broken, and how the house—of wood with a tiled roof

—would not be proof against the weather much longer, if it were so

even now, and how the mud and ooze were coated with lime, and how

the choking vapor of the kiln crept in a ghostly way towards me.

Still there was no answer, and I knocked again. No answer still,

and I tried the latch.

It rose under my hand, and the door yielded. Looking in, I saw a

lighted candle on a table, a bench, and a mattress on a truckle

bedstead. As there was a loft above, I called, “Is there any one

here?” but no voice answered. Then I looked at my watch, and,

finding that it was past nine, called again, “Is there any one

here?” There being still no answer, I went out at the door,

irresolute what to do.

It was beginning to rain fast. Seeing nothing save what I had seen

already, I turned back into the house, and stood just within the

shelter of the doorway, looking out into the night. While I was

considering that some one must have been there lately and must soon

be coming back, or the candle would not be burning, it came into my

head to look if the wick were long. I turned round to do so, and

had taken up the candle in my hand, when it was extinguished by

some violent shock; and the next thing I comprehended was, that I

had been caught in a strong running noose, thrown over my

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