FlashBacks, Shelby Alexander [the reading list .TXT] 📗

ever found out. If she did not repent for the sins she had been committing for the last year.

Rhonda turned around, face straight with no emotion. She sat next Anna and grabbed her hand. “Are you sure this is what you want?” she asked.

“You just can’t understand what I’m going through.” Anna said.

“And obviously holding your beliefs higher than your feelings is so easy to understand.” She said raising her voice. “You never loved me, not really. All the time we spent together. All the laughs and all the joy.” She cut off. Alice was crying and looking at the ground.

“I’m sorry. I just… I just can’t do this.. Not to my family.. So please.. Before… I change my mind.. Leave.” She said, looking very intently at the ground.

Rhonda stood up and walked over towards the cracked door. “You are a selfish bitch. I can’t believe I ever fell in love with such a…” She cut off, shook her head and then walked out of the door.

Anna stopped looking at the ground and stood up. She looked at the girl sitting on the bed. So stubborn, not giving into the love she felt for Rhonda. She had to change this. She started for the door Rhonda just walked out of, finding that when she opened it there was nothing but a bright white light.

2.
She opened her eyes. Anna had her head against the wall and was looking at the small yellow room. A single bed, a picture of Jesus and a desk with a cross on it. She was trapped at the St. Nicolas Asylum. Her parents had found out about Rhonda from the last argument they had so they sent her to this place to get cured.

Someone knocked on the door and entered. “Hello Anna, Are you ready to see Dr. Carlsten?” the nun asked.

Anna didn’t say anything so the nun walked out of the room and walked back in with a man who then picked her up and walked her down the hallway towards the doctors office. There was a large dark Maple wood desk with papers and a calendar on it. Above the desk was a painting of Mother Mary and to the left of the door there was a book case. They sat her down in one of the chairs. She waited, thinking then the doctor came in with a dangling cross around his neck.
“Hello Anna.” He said sitting at his desk. He put his hands together and looked at her. “We will begin our session praying.” He bowed his head, she sat staring at him. “Now, let start out with talking about how you and Wanda-” he started saying.

“Rhonda.” she said glaring at him.

“Yes. Rhonda. Now lets talk about how you guys first met.” He said.

3.

It was August of 1964, Anna was starting her first day of her junior year. She rolled up in her blue Buick. She walked over to all her friends, they were staring and gossiping about the new girl. She was all alone, sitting and smoking a cigarette. Something about her was appealing. Something in the way she sat there so confident. She was wearing jeans, tan boots and a very colorful shirt. She was definitely in the wrong town. This town was very conservative. Girls wore dresses and didn’t talk to boys unless they were in class. Breaking away from the gabbing girls, she walked over to this new girl.

“Hello, I’m Anna. Are you new here?” Anna said holding out her hand. The girl just looked at her, took another drag of her cigarette and said “You don’t have to be nice to me. I’m not like you.”

Anna didn’t know if she wanted to be offended or say something else so she said “Well, if you’re looking for a friend, I’ll be around.” She turned around and walked away.

“Does it look like I need a friend?” Rhonda said smiling. Instead of just walking away, she threw and attitude. She liked her girls feisty.

Rhonda had been kicked out of every school she has attended. Her and her family had moved around the country trying to find a place to stay. She gave this town three months.

After school was over she got into her Chevy Impala and drove over to the local diner. She got out sat on the hood of her car and lit up another cigarette. She laid down and looked up at the clouds. She didn’t notice Anna walking by shaking her head.

What a freak Anna thought. Yet she couldn’t help but admire her courage. Coming into a new town and being the same person. She wouldn’t be able to do that, not with her family. She put on her apron, tucked in her notepad and went to go take orders. Rhonda walked in with a cocky stride, walked passed Anna and leaned by her. “I might need a friend tonight.” She said flirty then walked away and sat in a booth. She loved flirting with the religious, good two shoes. It never got anywhere but it was fun seeing them squirm.

Anna blushed, shook her head and walked in the back and sighed. What was going on with her. A girl whispered in her ear and she blushed and got butterflies in her stomach. She shook any of those thoughts out of her mind and got back to work. She walked over to Rhonda’s table.

“Can I, Uh, take your, uh, Order.” She asked.

“Are you usually this nervous?” Rhonda said not looking up from the menu.

“No, sorry. Our special today is chowder.” she said looking at the notepad.

“What do you recommend beautiful?” she asked looking at Anna. Anna turned a rather red shade and said something about a breakfast food. “Well, order what you think I’ll like.” Rhonda said and looked away from Anna. Oh god she blushed she thought.

Anna came out with Rhonda’s food, handed it to her and that was the last thing they said to each other for a couple of weeks.

4.
When Anna opened her eyes the doctor looked at her. They had been sitting there in silence for forty-five minutes. The doctor got up and knelt down beside her. “We will cure you little girl.” he said through clenched teeth and then picked her up by her arm.
He hadn’t failed yet at curing a homosexual. He made sure she was locked in her room and then went down to the main office to see her parents. He never understood why anyone would go against the Lord and sin like these people sin but as his Lords servant he us going to cure every last one of them.

He walked over to them and said “She still didn’t open up today. Now we’ve had a lot of sessions and nothing is getting to her so I think we should take it to the next level.”

“And what would that be?” her father asked.

“We have a procedure called Electroshock Therapy. Now it might sound bad but with cases like her, I think it’s best. You see it rewires their brain to think differently and if we can get her to do that so she can stop sinning.” He explained.

“Anything to make our daughter normal.” her mother said looking at her husband.

“What do we have to do?” her father asked.

“Follow me and sign these papers.” the doctor said walking over towards his office.

5.
The pain of the electrocution was unbearable, awake. When she closed her eyes she was able to visualize them through their relationship and the pain seemed to go away. So that was exactly what she did.

For two weeks the two girls didn’t even glance at each other. Yet, neither of them could not keep the other of their minds. Rhonda was wondering how a church loving person like Anna would be blushing at a girl like her. Anna was wondering what were all these new feelings she felt for this new girl and where they came from and why it was happening to her.

That weekend they happened to see each other at the drive inn. Anna was alone in her car and Rhonda pulled up next to her. They watched half of the movie and then Anna called her over. Rhonda got out of her car and opened her passenger side door.

“Are you sure you want me to come sit with you?” Rhonda asked.

“Yes, I’m sure. I would like to get to know you more. Considering you don’t have a lot of friends here.” Anna said not looking at Rhonda.

“Well what do you want to know about me?” she asked.

“Whatever you want to tell me.” Anna replied.

They sat in silence for a good couple of minutes then Rhonda burst out and told Anna about everything she has been through for the past three years. Moving in and out of school, not having anyone really to trust. Everything that night was laid on the table. Anna shared about her life and her religion.

“I have something to tell you.” Rhonda said.

“Shoot.” Anna said taking a drink of her soda.

“I haven’t trust anyone with any of this stuff.” Rhonda said looking out of the window.

“Really? That’s.. interesting..” Anna said looking at her. A feeling came across her like she had never felt before. She grabbed Rhonda’s hand and Rhonda looked up at her. “You can always trust me.” Anna squeezed her hand and let go.

6.

Everyday after they got out of their last class and Anna got off of work they were with each other. Anna lived on a ranch type place. Her family owned horses and chickens and sold babies and eggs for some extra cash. Their place was her off red part a mile away from her house.

This was the place Anna went to get away. She loved to pastel things, but her parents hated it. They were never into the free mind. You served the Lord or you were Satan’s Spawn. You worked for your parents or you were kicked out. She never had free time but when she did this was the place she would go.

Now that she was really great friends with Rhonda this place was more like home than her actual home. Some days Rhonda would just watch Anna pastel the grass and trees around the area, the sunsets and stars. Other days they would just mess around with all the stuff in the place. Building stuff that was never going to work. As each day went by their friendship got closer.

“Hey, Why don’t you pose differently.” Anna said sketching Rhonda.

“Why? Don’t you like it?” Rhonda said putting her head above her head trying to look sexy.
“Oh yeah, I love it. I can’t get enough of it. Now doing something natural.” She said.

“And me being sexy isn’t natural.” She said frowning sitting beside Anna.

“Oh it is.” she said and then paused. “I mean, uh..” She started.

“You have a crush on me.” Rhonda said smiling and then she winked at her.

“I… well… just sit over there so I can draw you.” Anna said hiding her face.

“Fine.” Rhonda said sitting on a pile of hay. The entire time Rhonda sat there smiling and Anna and giving her this “I want