Infection Z, Beswick, L. [best ereader for manga txt] 📗

everyone is starting to wake up and head to breakfast I’m about to do the same when I remember what Noah said yesterday, I sigh and settle back on my bed and decide to get some more sleep, just as I’m falling into a deep sleep I’m interrupted by a knocking at my door and groan thinking Colonel has changed his mind and wants to do more training, I answer the door to find Sam smiling back at me not as beaming as usual but still friendly, “hi" I greet her trying to avoid her eyes the guilt from yesterday’s events creeping back in, “hi I thought I’d bring you breakfast” she replies, I let her come into my room and she places the food at my desk, “how’s Damon?” I ask unsure how else I could of asked other than directly, I think I see a flicker of anger on her face but it’s gone as quickly as it was there, “he’s doing okay he’s mostly been sleeping" she replies her voice colder than I’m used to, “how are you?” she asks slightly more compassion in her voice, “I didn’t really sleep but I’m okay" I reply unsure what else to say, “I’m really sorry for what happened, I don’t know what’s wrong with me or why it happened, I just hope Damon knows I’d never hurt him on purpose, and I get why you want me separate for a while" I blurt out fumbling over my words in a panic, she smiles a genuine smile, “of course no one thinks you’d ever hurt anyone intentionally, I just wish we’d noticed something earlier, everything with your mum, and your dad coming back must have been a lot for your mind to process" she replies, “I guess but you could say the same about Damon and he’s not gone around trying to cut people" I laugh nervously.

“Everyone takes loss differently, I think you took it a lot harder than he did so it’s affected you differently, he wants to see you, you know" she says and sits on my bed, “he does, why?” I ask confused why my brother would even want anything to do with me after everything that happened.

Although Sam seems to be acting friendly and understanding I can sense the anger inside her ready to burst but she’s such an expert at controlling her emotions from the outside she seems perfectly calm, “he’s in his room if you want to see him, I’ll be there since I’m taking care of him but I’ll leave the room if you want some alone time with him" she states her eyes still cold looking, I nod “thanks I’ll think about it" I reply but I don’t know if I’ll go, I’m not sure why he’d ever want to see me again after what I did, I’m feeling guilty as it is seeing him in that state will just make me feel worse.

“I guess I’ll leave you for now” Sam smiles and walks to the door “you know you could think about someone else for a change, he’s wanting to see you after what you did and if you deny him that you’re more selfish than I thought" she closes the door behind her with a slam and I’m left in shock, she’s never spoke to me that way before, she’s never shown anger or coldness the way she is now, I know I did something awful but I wasn’t in my right mind, she has to know that.

Sam’s POV

I sigh and relax my muscles after leaving April’s room my anger deflating, I feel a pang of guilt for what I’ve said to her but I know she needed me to be truthful, after all she hurt Damon and can’t just shrug that off with no repercussions, I open the door to Damon’s room to find him sat up reading, he smiles when I enter making all the anger I felt more moments ago disappear, “did you speak to April?” he asks placing the book down, “I did, you’re reading that’s an unusual sight" I joke, I can read you know!” he exclaims, I try to hide my laughter with a cough until his face becomes serious, “what did she say?” he asks, “she doesn’t want to see you, she’s trying to make it all about herself" I sigh, Damon’s face falls “oh right, I mean it must have been hard on her she’s probably feeling guilty" he mumbles trying to play off the hurt he’s feeling, “and so she should she has a lot to make up for and avoiding you won’t help anything" I reply crossing my arms in annoyance, “she wasn’t in her right mind” Damon says his voice sounding angry, “did you ever stop to think it was intentional, she doesn’t like us together and she’s trying to separate us, I think she wanted to hurt me and you just got in the way!” the room goes quiet as Damon processes my words, “you’re insane" he laughs humourlessly, “no she is!” I shout.

“Look if you want to take her side fine, but what kind of sister doesn’t check on her brother when he’s hurt, especially when she’s the one behind the hurt" I shout and leave his room, he calls after me but I ignore him, “hopefully he’ll see her for who she is, a monster that wants to rip us apart" I huff to myself as I walk back to my room.

Damon’s POV

I sit in bed thinking over what Sam said, she doesn’t really think April is so cold hearted she would try and rip us apart would she? I hear a timid knock at the door expecting it to be Sam to apologise for her outburst, “hey can I come in?” asks April stood in front of the partially open door, “of course please do" I smile, she complies but avoids my eyes “how have you been?”