Dream Spinner (Dream Team Book 3), Kristen Ashley [reading eggs books txt] 📗

Sylvester,” I shared, throwing a hand Sylvester’s way.

Ian’s eyes moved to Sylvester then back to me as behind me I heard Ryn say, “Sorry?” Lottie say, “Say what?” and Pepper say, “Oh man.”

I turned to face them. “Axl found out I called Brett before him and he was kinda mad.”

This time it was Pepper looking at her feet.

Ryn was smiling.

Lottie hitched a hip, put her hand to it and glared at me.

“I know!” I said to Lottie. “I blew it! I’m going to fix it. Promise.”

Though I shouldn’t promise.

Axl still had not texted me so I had no idea how to go about fixing it.

Though I knew I had to try.

“Hattie, attention to me,” Ian demanded.

I whirled back to him.

“How bad did you blow it? Meaning, is this going to delay Delgado and his boys wading in by half an hour or half a day?” he asked.

There was low laughter behind me when I said, “Probably half an hour, seeing as Brett is going to rope them in. But I suspect, even if Axl probably hadn’t calmed down, he was on the phone to the office while he drove away from my house.”

Ian nodded curtly, said, “God forbid there’s a next time … ” and when I nodded that I got his message, he strolled away.

I took in a big breath, turned again, and looked right at Lottie.

“I hate it I missed the kickoff to the wedding festivities. I hate it. And I’m so sorry I hurt your feelings when I didn’t show.”

She hesitated not one second before she came to me and pulled me in her arms.

She kissed the side of my head and then said in my ear, “You don’t have to let us in, but you do have to let us know. You need space, we can give that to you. You need to talk, we’re there for you. You need someone to listen, you got ears who will be happy to hear. Just don’t pull away. Because we love you and we want to be there for you, however you need that to be.”

Oh no.

I was going to cry.

Oh no!

I was crying.

Holding on to her and not crying.

Sobbing.

I wasn’t really a crier. I could get teary, but I’d learned to get a lock on it real quick, because Dad hated crying.

But all that had gone on …all that was going on was a lot.

So I was crying.

Then Ryn and Pepper pushed in, held on, and I started crying more.

When I semi got a handle on it, I pulled a little bit away, looked to Lottie and vowed, “I’m not going to miss your shower or your bachelorette party or your wedding.”

“I hope not, seeing as you’re a bridesmaid,” she said.

“I have a fitting to get to,” I mumbled.

“No shit?” she asked.

“I’ll schedule that this week,” I promised.

“Babe, listen to me,” she said, not letting me or the other girls go.

And standing in this huddle with my friends, I listened to her.

“You had big shit happening in your head and you dealt with it how you knew how. You didn’t fuck up. Not with me. You did what you had to do to protect yourself. Now that I know what’s going on, I’m not hurt. I get it. I sort of got it before. So don’t be down on yourself. It is what it is and now it’s something different. And if a friend is any friend at all, they’ll get what it is, and be by your side when you move on to something different.”

The tears started welling; I even felt my lip tremble.

“Oh shit, she’s gonna blow again,” Ryn muttered.

“No, I can get a lock on it,” I said shakily.

“Cry, who cares?” Pepper asked.

“I care, I have to rehearse and you’re already rehearsing. We have jobs to do,” I told her.

“ ‘What a Feeling’ is tonight,” Ryn declared.

I looked to her. “Pardon?”

“Black leotard, black leg warmers, I’m kicking out and pointing to everyone in the crowd with some twirls. It’s gonna be sick.”

“Ohmigod, your ‘What a Feeling’ is gonna rock,” I breathed.

I knew this because I’d seen her rehearse it, standing back in the shadows, where I’d been for ages while I avoided my friends as we all polished our varied routines to start the Revue.

“I know. I’ve been waiting for her to pull out ‘What a Feeling’ since we started,” Pepper said.

“That’s my first dance tonight,” Ryn said, eyes on me. “Ian’s putting me on first. I hope that’s okay with you.”

“Of course it is! You’ll knock their socks off. Tips will be primed for all of us,” I replied.

“Totes,” Pepper agreed.

“Okay, important shit, Axl kissed you?” Lottie asked.

I gave her big eyes.

“Was it hot?” Ryn asked.

I gave her bigger eyes.

“Right on,” Pepper whispered.

“He was really, really mad when Brett showed in the middle of it,” I shared. “Or, at all,” I added.

“I bet,” Ryn muttered.

“I don’t think that’s good. I’ve been, uh … messing with his head for a while,” I admitted.

“Not to give the impression I think messing with a man’s head is okay, but you have your reasons, and they’re not about intentionally jacking him around,” Lottie put in. “And these boys crook a finger and bitches fall at their feet. You don’t appreciate something if you don’t have to work for it. It’s not a bad thing he has to work for it.”

Well then.

That was sure something to think on.

“You fell at Mo’s feet,” Ryn said to Lottie.

“I didn’t. I stalked him across my living room,” Lottie corrected. “But Mo’s different. He’d been jacked around by chicks. It was me that had to do the fixing.”

“Oh, right.” Ryn grinned.

“Is this what bitches do? Stand around in a huddle and talk forfuckin’-ever?” Sylvester called impatiently from behind me.

We broke it off and I turned to him.

“We have stuff to sort, Sly,” I said.

“You also have work to do,” he reminded me.

“You just want to watch us dance,” I accused.

“Well … yeah,” he agreed.

“Right. I got another run-through to do. Then Ryn’s