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break her heart? Or does she think I am strange for kissing her out of nowhere and mean nothing by it? I begin walking back inside up to Damon's room, I want nothing more than to cuddle up with Damon and try to forget the previous events ever happened.

April's POV

I slam the bedroom door behind me and sink down to the floor, the kiss was a mistake like I figured it was, just a misunderstanding no big deal, and yet why do I feel so empty inside from her words? Why has my vision become blurry from my tears that are trickling down my face, why do I feel so angry and betrayed, yet so embarrassed for even a moment thinking we were more than friends for that brief second that our lips touched, her words echo in my mind "it was a mistake" like a stab to my heart, "I hope you didn’t think it meant anything" how dare I think she liked me even for a moment, "I'm with Damon" how could I ever compete with my brother?

What does this all mean? What happened has affected me so much that I must be gay, all this time and I never knew, I never had boyfriends or spent time thinking of guys I like but I just figured those feeling would come with time, I walk over to my bed and lie on my stomach, I scream into my pillow letting all my emotions seep out, I just let my tears soak the pillow until I have no more emotion left inside me, at some point I fall asleep, I dream of being left alone by my loved ones, stuck in a vast never ending forest with no hope of escape.

I wake the next morning and don’t want to leave my bed, I curl up under the blanket and decide to stay put despite it being 10am, I soon realise Colonel never came to take me for training, he must be giving me a pass given the circumstances which I appreciate.

I lie under the covers for some time, a light knock rips me from my thoughts, I do not answer and hope whoever it is just leaves, but the knock comes again "April?" Damon's voice asks, and the guilt of kissing his girlfriend hits me, "I'm not feeling good" I reply hoping that’s enough to drive him away, I hear the door creak open and I sigh in annoyance, the bed creaks as he sits at the end of it, "what's up?" He asks, "I just don’t feel like leaving my bed today" I reply "did something happen?" He asks and I cringe at his question, "no I'm just not feeling myself, like I miss mum and I didn’t sleep well" I try and come up with as many excuses as possible.

"I'll be right back" he says suddenly and his feet creak quickly out of my room, he’s gone for a while and I start to relax hoping he decided to leave me be, my hope is short lived when his feet creak back in my room again, he pulls my cover over my head "me and you are going to spend the day together, I told everyone including Sam to leave us be, we're going to watch movies and have a chill family day where we can cry about mum or just remember her together" despite wanting to be left alone I like his idea better and move over so we can both lie under the cover, he produced a wireless DVD player and a movie we all used to watch together starts playing on the screen.

Chapter 9

Sam's POV

I sit in my room staring into the mirror back at Amaya, "why did you kiss her? She’s my best friend and now she’s going got be so confused!" I yell at my reflection Finnian stares between my reflection and myself as we argue back and forth, "I was just following my impulses, at first I wanted your life as mine but after being with her, I want her" she says I roll my eyes, "so you're gay? You're not even real just a mental illness" I scoff, "well either I'm real and gay, or you are" she points out, I have no response to that, I’m definitely not gay so in some way she must be real or at least in my mind she’s real.

"Whatever just know you've just fucked everything up, April will never want to speak to me again" I huff, "and who's fault is that?" She retorts, Finnian meows “see even the cat agrees, you're the one that couldn’t come up with anything better than 'it was a mistake' the truth would have been much kinder than that, of course she’s upset, what if Damon turned around and told you your kiss was a mistake" what she says made real sense, although it was my sense she was using against me.

“Well I’m not letting you take over again, this is my body and my life not yours and-“ I try to argue and start coughing uncontrollably, I look down at my hands and find blood, I gasp in shock and look back up to the mirror, “what’s happening?” I ask her, she wears an empathetic expression “you’re dying sweetie, well we’re dying because of that zombie attack” she explains.

“But that was days ago shouldn’t I be a zombie already?” I ask, she shakes her head “the zombie barely touched us so it’s taking longer for its disease to spread, or that’s what it seems to be I’m no expert” I sigh feeling weaker than before, what am I supposed to do, I will be leaving my best friend and my boyfriend to be alone, they’ve already lost their mother, they can’t lose me too.

“Dinner!” Sarah’s voice echoes pulling me from my spiralling thoughts, “I guess I’ll have to figure this out later”,