When We're Thirty, Casey Dembowski [best reads of all time txt] 📗

is, I don’t know why you didn’t tell me. I would’ve married you anyway. I could’ve helped you deal with the fallout instead of—”

“Jon knows,” he said, cutting her off. He motioned to the bruise on his face. Hannah’s eyes widened, but she didn’t say anything. He kissed her cheek, the first time his lips came in contact with her since before Madison’s confession. “I’m sorry I hurt you. It was the last thing I wanted.”

“I know,” she said, her eyes open and questioning.

He kissed her then on the lips, hesitantly, afraid she might reject him. But she deepened the kiss, parting his lips with her own. He pulled her onto his lap, his hands sliding up the back of her top. She leaned into him before pulling his shirt off. With each caress, he felt himself heal. Hannah’s tears flavored their kisses, and he knew she was healing too. And in the final moments, with his name on Hannah’s lips, his heart sewed itself back together.

Chapter 46Hannah

Hannah sat down on the couch with a steaming cup of coffee and her laptop. Will had gone out to pick up breakfast. She’d asked to stay behind to do some work. The thought of being alone in this apartment that showed the reality of Madison and Will’s past wasn’t one she relished, but she needed a Will-free moment. Hannah wasn’t naïve enough to think that one argument and make-up sex was going to fix their relationship. That would take time, which was a luxury they didn’t currently have. She was due back in Boston the next morning to cover a show the following night. Regardless, Hannah couldn’t deny the tug on her heart—she wanted to be with Will. They needed to adjust to their new normal, to rediscover exactly who they were—in general and to each other—starting by getting through the next few weeks apart. It pained her to think about leaving Will again, but she wouldn’t ask him to come. He needed to stay in New York to put his life back together.

She couldn’t regret her rash decision to relocate—she was interviewing Leonard Nulty after all. But shit—it messed everything up. The assignment would most likely be shorter than expected with the Nulty exclusive since they wouldn’t need as much padding. Even so, she wasn’t enjoying the experience as much as she expected to. She had taken for granted sharing the ups and downs of her life with Kate every day, of Will waiting up no matter what time she rolled in. Hannah had her dream job, but at what cost?

Boston wasn’t pressing pause on a relationship. Madison’s revelation had threatened more than a break-up. Divorce. She repeated it in her head. Divorce. That’s what they were facing if this didn’t work out. And not because of a fight or a misunderstanding or because the year on their pact was up. It would be because they didn’t put in the effort to make things right. There would be no coming back from that.

For the first time, Hannah appreciated what it was Riley did every day for the last five years—how she balanced everything, never letting any of the responsibilities she juggled fall. Hannah could do this. She would channel Riley and learn how to do it all—fix her marriage and kick ass at managing this launch. She would live the dream and keep her life in New York. Somehow.

A ding from her computer brought her attention back to her task. Journalists didn’t get weekends, and her inbox was brimming with messages.

The message was from Riley. Subject: Boston Things.

Well, then.

Hannah scrolled through the large email chain Riley had forwarded—because it wasn’t awkward reading through other people’s emails. Hannah scrolled through the information about her schedule with Leonard. He had his photo shoot in the morning, and they would do their interview after lunch. She made a mental note to bring wine. At least it was a short rider. She continued scanning the email. Boring, boring, amusing, boring, bor—

Hannah reread the next line: Everything should be charged to the Boston account. Use code 5479-JT.

She stared at the words on the screen. No charge code she’d ever used had had “JT” attached to it. NYC, BK, QN, SI, LI, and BX sure, but those were obviously the boroughs. JT. Her heart hammered as her mind wrapped itself around those initials. Jonathan Thorne? It made perfect sense. There’d been a large anonymous donation right after she and Will had wowed all of Jonathan’s party guests. They had convinced everyone they were in love, and Jonathan had needed to make a move. She closed her eyes, willing away the knowledge that Jonathan Thorne had funded the Boston edition.

Riley, her mentor and friend, hadn’t told her. Had that been why she’d gotten the call? Hannah was the most senior person at Deafening under Riley, not in title or responsibility but in time on staff. She’d been there since day twenty-three. But Riley had never mentioned growth like this before. Hannah had never considered that she was being groomed to run another edition of the magazine. She was always going to be a step under Riley. When she’d been offered the position, it had made staying at Deafening worth it. It had been the big payoff. What if it hadn’t been about her at all? Hannah couldn’t believe that. Riley wouldn’t do that—not to her. But what if she had?

Hannah picked up her phone. She had no idea if she planned to call Will, Riley, or Jonathan himself, but she needed to do something with this information. Maybe she shouldn’t start with Will. Things were so tenuous between them, and the fact that his father was still meddling in his life would break him. At the same time, she couldn’t keep it from him. The lies were getting them nowhere.

A key sounded in the door. Hannah looked over her shoulder to see if Will needed help with the bags. He always over-bought when on his