poems of the heart, shalyse perez [web ebook reader txt] 📗

to tell you this but i didnt want to break your small human heart so i just tell you no thanks
and i feel bad when i read you my poems i no u love them even though there sad but most
of them are about a person i care about alot,so what am i to do,should i leave you alone,
stop talking to you,or break your heart and feel depressed forever, i dont know what
to do i tryed to pretend to love you but when you said it to me i did not anwser because
you ment it for real you said it with love but i can not give you the same anwser because
to me this isnt love,because my heart belongs to another but as long as you love me there still might be hope...
shalyse perez
March 09, 2010
If only he new
Daydreaming of things of the past all the good memories ive beening trying to forget just keeping coming back
to haunt me,i want to get rid of all these memories of a unforgiving preson that some how im still in love with but,at the same
time i cant let them go,tears run down my face if only he new how much i cared how much i would do anything for him,i lay
in my bed at night restless trying to sleep but i cant,i go for a walk at midnight hoping the fresh air would clear my mind
but all it dose is make me think more and more of my biggest mistake,if people could see my dreams all they would find is
a waste land of old memories not yet forgoten on fire and a tormented soul crying as i star at the moon crying to my hearts
content...if only he new...
-shalyse perez
My poem
Even if i was drop dead gorgeuos and perfect and i could have any guy i wanted in the world..i would still pick you
-jeyemi


January 01, 2011
i miss you
to zachary adkins-
baby im sorry for not loving u enough,im sorry for cheating,nd lying,im sorry for not being there to hold you when you were sad,crying,or just when you needed me,i wish i could have spent your last hours with you,thank you for loving me so much and for never giving up on me,thank you for being with me when i needed you,thank you for just being all that you could be and for trying so hard to make me happy,baby you have no idea how much i loved and still love you,i think about you everyday,i cry almost every day because i miss u so bad and i wish i could have told you all this when you were alive,and every day i pray that your ok and happy and i wish it could have been me instead of you dead cuz i cant take it anymore i feel so lost,lonely,scared,horrible,angry,and very very very depressed,baby i just want you to no your loved and very missed and i promise to never forget you,in the little time we spent together u made me so happy,taught me so much i wish we could have got married and yes have kids i wanted to make you so happy and im so sorry for not being able to but i promise where ever you are if i end up in the same place i want to be with you then and forever,baby i love you so much and i wish i could hold u,i miss you...........<3 <3 <3
In loving memory of,
zachary adkins
04.28.1993 ~ 12.23.2010
i love you..........

The cutters lullaby
Go to sleep and close your eyes,
And dream of broken butterflys,
That torn there wings against a thorn,
You know the pain they have borne,
Silver metal shine so bright,
Scarlet blood that feels so right,
Dream of blood tirckling down,
Wake up just before you drown,
The moon light shine of your tears,
As you bleed out your worst fears,
And tonight when you start to,
cry,
Whisper the cutters lullaby,
Hush-a-bye baby your almost dead,
You dont have a pluse,
And your pillow is red,
Your family hates you,
You friends let you bleed,
sleep tight with a knife,
Cuz thats all youll need,
Rock-a-bye baby all broken and scarred,
You didnt know life would be this hard,
Time to end the pain that you hide so well,
And down with come baby staright back to,
hell.....

February 20, 2011
Shalyse's lullaby
Hush little baby when you start to cry,
Think of shalyse's lullaby,
Roses are red,
Scars turn blue,
I cant stop cutting because of you,
The marks on my arms you never realize,
But what would you say in my demise,
You never heard me cry,
but i did almost everyday,
You never took the time to find out why,
I feel this way,
You never saw the pain in my face,
You never heard the sadness in my voice,
You just never saw or heard any of it,
I feel broken inside,
Like i have no place to run and hide,
I sit and cut on my arms bleeding just to rid myself of this feeling,
Just one more cut i tell myself and then ill stop,
But i cant,
Its my additicion,
To feel happy...just for a moment,
But soon it will get even worse and worse,
Until one day ill just end it all,
And whos to blame when i fall,
And slip into a golden slummber,
But ill just end up in a different hell,
But just like hansel and girlet who didnt listen,
It would be your fault but still you would never understand why..... Imprint

Publication Date: 02-25-2011

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