thoughts of the teen mind, resika [read book .TXT] 📗

Together

Since we were young
we were always together
We were born together
we played together
We cried together when our parents die together
they always said we would stay together
We denied this together
knowing nothing last forever

Since we were teen
we drifted apart
I liked music, you liked art
i dreamed of boys, You like high tech toys
You were in the shadow I created
your jealousy heightened as mine faded
We knew nothing lasts forever

Since we were adults
we were separated
I moved to Mississippi
you moved to Miami
I got a husband and had henry
you worked and became a widow
You never notice I was missing
we knew nothing lasts forever

Since you were elderly
you came to find me
But found out you were to late
and Id pasted away
But in your search you found henry
who delivered the letter
That reassured you I loved you and that
we always knew nothing lasts forever

Darkness Around Me

Darkness around me
wishing to bound me
Hissing and curling
shifting between me
Hoping to beat me
breaking my skin
Letting it's self in
making me dark
And Leaving no mark

creek

Creep
Here he comes
Creek
I see his feet
Creep
He's coming near
Creek
He's whispering in my ear
Creep
I smell your fear
Creek
I wish he would disappear
Creep
my end is near
creek

in cars with boys

I'm a Stanger in this car
I Never know how far
I hardly know this guy
But yet he's unzipping his fly
I don’t know who he is or why he's licking his lips
I try to say no but he holds down my throat
I reach my hands up high hoping to scratch out an eye
But instead he smacked my in the face,
It swells as he take away my safe place

Leaving me in the street like road kill,
He engine roars as my heart breaks in to fours,
I stager to my feet hoping my heart will stop its beats
I make my way to the concrete and lie my self down
I play my last melody before falling in to a deep and sweet sleep

rain clouds

I let my wall down and I let you in,
But you left me in the rain once again,
Now there clouds over my head,
People step away hoping they don’t catch the same thing,
It like I'm a leper in a cage with a sign that says don’t feed,
But you did it again like once wasn’t good enough,
You told your stupid friends
how it when down just for fun ,

Now people look at me like a whore,
you broke my heart twice,
I never even broke yours,
And I cry every day just because of the pain,
You hurt me now
But in their eye I'm the one to blame some how

,

friends?

You said you'd be there for me throw thick and thin
You said we'd be the best of friends until the end
You said you would never talk about the secrets we shared
You said you would always be a shoulder to cry on no matter how unfair

You lied and spread rumors of what I said
You lied and broke my heart when I need a friend
You lied and left me in the thick as I cried on my bed
You lied and we never made it until the end

I don’t need you any more because you left me at the door
I don’t need you any more because I deserve a lot more
I don’t need you any more because you stabbed me in the back once more
I don’t need you any more because I'm not longer your trophy you decide to leave on the floor

I'm a better person now that I don’t have you around
I'm a better person now I no longer feel your lying mouth
I'm a better person now because I realized you’re are the problem now
I'm a better person now and I finally know I can be happy somehow

What Is Love?

What is love?
Something that screams inside
Makes you cringe, cry and want to die over a guy
Something that sinks it claws in to your skin
Tearing each lairs away leaving this bloody mess of flesh
Dripping venom that foams at the mouth like rabies of a deserted dog that only wants to belong
Laughing at the disaster you’ve become for the pitiful thing called love
Trust me your better of by yourself anyways

hatred

Every time I see you stride through the door my pride drops to the floor
What once had been is now the opposite what once was kind is now all dried
I once loved you like a sister but now your voice make me want to hit you
Am I paranoid because every time you come around I cant help thinking your hoping to make me frown
I sit in silence as you talk to my friends because I was told not to take part in your drama again
Yet everyday when I think its safe to get carried away in my old ways you come along and ruin my day
You treated me like trash and expected me to be ok with it

I can wait until people see past your lies caused ill be the one smiling on the sidelines this time