New Life, H.N. S [ebook offline .txt] 📗

a really hot and sexy and caring boyfriend”

“He’s not that sexy you know…” we both laughed then he picked me up and flung me over his shoulder and slapped me on my arse.

“Ahh!” I yelped in pain.. but yet all I felt was pleasure!

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We burst through Ian’s front door, in each other’s arms, kissing intensely. Ian shut the door then pushed me up against it.

I ran my fingers through his soft hair, fisting some and pushing his head closer to mine so that his lips went rougher on mine! He was so irresistible, I needed to taste him more and more!

*ring ring* The house phone rang, echoing throughout the castle like mansion.

“I need to get that..” Ian whispered disappointed between breaths. He pulled away slowly, my eyes still closed trying to savour the feel of him close to my body, the feel of his lips on mine! and moaned from his absence.

He grabbed my hand and guided me to his study in one of the many rooms off the long hall way.

As he picked up the phone to take the call, I looked around this magnificent room. The huge, dominant wooden desk at the far side of the room with floor to floor windows behind it, demanding the attention of the room. To both the side of the room there were book shelves filled with every book you could imagine.

I walked over to the book shelf and ran my finger across the immaculately kept books, flicking my eyes across the titles as I made my way over to the desk.

He stood there like a model posing for a business magazine. One hand on his hip and the phone in his other hand, gazing off out the window as he concentrated on the phone call… so professional! I could imagine him in here working as our children ran around him and I stood like this, just admiring my family.. our family!

I shook my head, bringing myself from my hopeful dreams and walked closer to Ian. I sat on the desk and tapped him on the shoulder, turning his attention to me.

He looked down at me, a little confused at first until I placed my hands on his cheeks and brought him down to my lips. He moved in between my legs and I wrapped my legs around his waist.

He put the phone to his chest, “I really need to take this” He smiled… oh there was no way I was going to leave it like this… let’s have a little fun!

I trailed kisses from the corner of his mouth, grazing my teeth over his jaw and down his neck. When I got to the nape of his neck I bit and sucked hard and he let out a little moan. A moan that had me wanting to moan... making me almost dripping wet from lust! I looked up at him through my eye lashes and smiled in triumph!

“oh, sorry.. no.. I have a cough” Ian tried to explain himself to the man on the other side of the phone. He looked down at me, lust and anger boiling in his gaze… oh this is fun!

“I’m sorry but I’m going to have to call you back” Ian hung up and now put all his attention on me, fire burning in his eyes… “that was mean!” I burst out into uncontrollable laughter.

“what was..” I looked away, pretending to acting dumb. Ian placed his hand under my chin, directing my gaze to his… but it wasn’t him that caught my eye, but instead the papers on his desk! I pulled my head from his grasp and picked up one of the documents on the desk…

“no.. wait!” Ian tried to take the paper from my hand but I jumped off the desk and put distance between us. In the top corner of the page there was the hames&landlords inc logo… why…

“why do you have these…?” my smile faded. He didn’t answer, instead he just stared at me “you own Homes&Landlords inc!?! so you…”

“yes… I know.. about you…” He closed the space between us, grabbing my hands, but I pulled away from his caress and stepped back. I was so embarrassed and hurt,

“I can handle myself! I DON’T NEED YOUR CHARITY!” I shouted, I know he was only trying to help… but I hate it when people think me and my mum are too weak and defenceless to fend for ourselves! I hate having to owe someone! I threw the paper on the floor and ran out the door and into the main hall.

“wait Mia! WAIT!” Ian shouted behind me. When I didn’t stop I heard him run after me until he grabbed my wrist, spinning me around to face him… but I was too angry!

“DON’T TOUCH ME!” I tugged my hand way from his grasp.

I looked up to his face, his eyebrows were pushed together and his eyes were glazed with fear and sadness… he was so hurt! I wanted to stop, to hug him close and apologise for saying and doing what I did.. for what I was about to do, but I need to get myself away from him!

Once before some rich man tried to ‘help’ us with his money by marrying my mother.. but when he didn’t get what he wanted he took all his money away and more! Leaving us in more debt!! His name was Alex and he was the reason we left England… and there was no way I could do that to my mother, not again!

I turned myself away from Ian… unable to cope with the pain in his face.

“please.. don’t go!” he whispered, begging me!

“don’t Ian… just please, just leave me alone!” I couldn’t take it anymore.. I know if I stay any longer, I will cave and take him back, but I can’t… not while he acts like he does, using money to solve everything! I pulled away from him and headed for the front door.

He grabbed my hand again, but I didn’t turn to face him.

“please… please! I only did what I did to help you! It killed me seeing you not eat… not sleep! I wanted you to be safe, to be happy… and the only way I know of doing that is with money, its all I’ve ever known, all I’ve ever been taught!!” I tugged on his hand to walk way, but I got pulled back because he never let go.

Instead my arm was tugged downwards. I turned to find Ian on his knees! “Please… don’t go… I need you!” A tear fell down Ian cheek, something I never thought I would see Ian do! And I had to hold back my tears, I had to stay strong, I had to leave!

“let me go Ian…” I whispered as tears threatened to spill from my eyes. I pulled hard from Ian’s grasp and ran for the door. I risked a glance back to find Ian on his knees and hands, his head down… I had never seen Ian so low.. so vulnerable! I did this! I had broken and hurt him!

I ran out the driveway and down the road, I didn’t stop running until I knew I was a far distance from Ian I let myself go! I clutched my knees, catching my breath and crying with every little bit of energy I had left!

Why did this have to happen!?! UGHHHHH! why do I have to love this stupid prick! Chapter 16- I love you!

It had gotten dark by the time I had made my way home. My eyes were sore from the many tears I had cried, my legs were aching form the many, god knows how long, hours I had ran.

I stumbled to the bathroom and turned on the ice cold shower. I didn’t bother getting undressed because I would be warmer with more layers on and I sat under the heavy fall of ice droplets falling hard on my head and shoulders. I hugged my knees to my chest for more comfort and warmth then closed my eyes to try and blank out the image of Ian that kept appearing in my head…

The water mixed with the fresh tears I cried… I didn’t know how much I loved Ian until I left him! I don’t think I’ll be able to face Ian without bursting into tears ever again.

But I have to stay strong because I can’t go down that road again! and no love I feel for Ian could outweigh the love and care I feel for my mother! I told myself that I would never let my mother breakdown again like she did after Alex divorced her and ruined our lives!

After my eyes dried up and I could officially not cry a single more tear I turned the tap off and struggled to my feet. The cold air instantly hit me and I began to shiver… seriously, when are we going to get hot water!! I miss hot showers!

I completely stripped all item of clothing off and wrapped a thick fluffy towel around my shivering body, seeking its warmth. I quickly dashed to my bedroom, changed into my black PJ bottoms and slipped on a white vest top and a two sizes too big hoodie, immediately returning me back to a normal body temperature.

My bed had never looked so irresistible so I dove under the covers and curled up into the fatuous position, my eyes began to get heavy and I almost fell asleep until,

*buzzzz buzzzzz*

My phone vibrated on the night stand next to my bed… there could only be one person who would be calling me!

I picked up the phone, squinting my eyes to get adjusted to the light and saw a goofy picture I had taken of Ian.. it was so cute and I remember Ian begging me to change it, but that only made me was it more!

Remembering the good times we had shared made my eyes cloud over with tears and the picture on my phone went. Only seconds later the picture appeared again as he tried to call me again, but I can’t do this to myself! I can’t put myself through the pain!

I hung up and opened up a new message,

‘Stop calling me!’

Ian replied instantly,

‘Please Mia, please just let me talk to you! Let me explain myself!
I can’t live without you, my heart is breaking without you!
I love you!! ’

His words broke my heart more! Why was I doing this to him, to us!?! I didn’t reply, I couldn’t! I turned off my