Bridge of Time by Missy (Volume 2), Presented by SAGE [notion reading list txt] 📗

will keep continue doubting because it has been given a very valid reason to and when that same trust keeps being broken the same person towards the same woman in a relationship, it creates havoc, a woman’s heart learns quickly to be on guard, to be alert, worse part is, when a woman no longer trust the person she is with, no amount of excuses or apologies can regain the lost trust therefore relationship fails in turn, not only it makes it hard for any woman to trust again but they also tend to lose trust in themselves. When a man wins a woman’s heart it comes with a package, Trust, Understanding, Devotion, Loyalty, Compassion, Caring, Empathy, Love, Faith and all the God given virtues to complete the man’s heart desire. But it only takes ONE disrespect towards these God given virtues to taint it all, to destroy it all. A woman’s Trust is her strength to offer, to share, to give all these virtues to the man she is with. When that Trust has been breaches or violated, it takes away the courage from a woman’s heart to continuously give or share the rest of her heart’s virtues. It’s just the way a Woman’s heart is and most men are not aware of these little things about their woman. Guys thinks differently, feels differently than women are but little things like this should be taken into serious consideration especially if relationship is intended to blossom or work out with pure, good intentions at heart. Respect to each other’s differences makes a big difference; meeting half way, being on the same page for the benefit of the union both people chose to be with makes a long lasting relationship. Some people finds these things out the hard way, some gets a good practice with it, some regrets not being able to do it from their previous relationship. I myself had been through that years ago and I learned the hard way. These things are what we humans go through in life or love… The lesson we learn from it is a wisdom we’ll always have to remember and apply to prevent finding ourselves in the very same shoes or we’ll just keep creating and re-creating the same path in turn we only find ourselves facing the very same thing we despise about ourselves and others.


THE EMAIL (By Missy)

There you are again as if you can hear my thoughts, as if you can read my mind. You always remind me of how things were so beautiful, of how I made you feel and you always head my way in times I needed that sense of belonging, that sense of passion, of being loved. Fate always leads you back to me to remind me to hold on, to keep believing. You always come my way in so many forms, either on emails, on text messages, on letters. Even running into a mutual friend of ours, I hear them say you always asked about me, checking if I’m okay. It is funny and kind of weird how things turn out sometimes. You have your life out there, I have mine. There are other people in our lives now since we were together last yet for some mysterious ways, situation and people in your life doesn’t work out so well and so is mine. When we find ourselves lost in the midst of our life’s limbo then both our worlds always meet. As if it’s always there reminding us, there is something and someone out there worth the entire wait.

We are always reminded of how things were so beautiful and meaningful when it was you and me. At times, when new faces, new love comes our way, we put each other at that special corner of our Hearts, giving others who offers us love and compassion a chance to fill the emptiness of our lost love, some may even seem to succeed, they sweep our feet’s away, they make us fall in love with them… And when we thought this is it, they are it! The odds come our way and things falls apart with someone we are with. Then there we are! Fate always has its way of bringing us in each other’s lives. There is always that special place where we keep each other in the corner of our Hearts. Love is very mysterious indeed… Always when you thought you were over someone, always when you thought you found someone new, something, anything always puts a reason for that same old familiar feeling, that same old familiar face to come our way… Always reminding us…. There is that someone out there, there is that love out there, so real, so pure… A love, worth the wait….. I just know deep inside my Heart you will always be there, you may not be within reach… I may not be within reach… But our Hearts always remembers… Our path will always meet… No matter how long or what it takes… Hope is what gives us courage. The moments we’ve share and all the beautiful moments will always give me the strength… Because I know.. Until our path cross again….. There will always be YOU… A Love…… Worth the wait…


THE LONGING

A song reminded me of you tonight. It’s been a while since I thought of you. I tried my best to put forth the effort to not think of you lately, but tonight I guess I failed. I found myself remembering you again. Funny how little things can be a reminder of something so significantly profound. A simple song playing on a radio can bring back so many memories of you. I know I don’t come across your mind but tonight I miss hearing your voice again, I miss the way we used to talk, I miss the way we used to laugh, the feeling of nearness you used to make me feel, the comfort I used to get when I knew you were just there… You were just there for me. You’re gone and I don’t think you’ll ever come back again and just when I thought I was getting over you.. Something reminded me of you bringing you back into my life and the funniest thing of it all is the reality, that you’ll never know how you made me feel tonight. This feeling of longing for you.

The feeling the emptiness, the regrets of no longer being a part of your life. You just vanished as if you never existed, you never explained why, I never asked. Just when I thought we were getting somewhere, just when I thought you were opening up to me, just when I thought you were starting to feel something, just when I thought you knew how I was feeling, you vanished as if I had never existed, you disappeared leaving no tracks, leaving no sign and leaving a hole in my heart. You’re always mysterious that way. I used to think this was the game you play, I used to think you’ll always bounce back to me knowing I am always here, within your reach, waiting, anticipating. Lately I think you just decided to keep away, to stay away without even saying why? Leaving me with so many questions unanswered endlessly without ever knowing if I will ever know why you did what you did. I tried to move on, I tried to forget you ever existed, I tried to forget you were once a part of me, I tried to distract myself, divert my thoughts, I tried to just let you go, thinking maybe, just maybe.. You’ll soon still remember me. But I was wrong. It has been too long, I waited too long..


And just when I thought I was getting closer to forgetting, to moving on.. to admitting you will never be mine….. There you are again, flashing through my head… I just wish I could still talk to you, at least for the last time… Because I’d really like to know if you could tell me how will I ever forget you? It’s always when I thought I was getting close… It’s when your memories bring you closer to me. Some stupid silly song tonight just brought your memories back to me and here I am once again….. Longing for you.


GUESSING GAME (By Missy)

“Are you mad?” She asked over the phone. “A little yeah…” there’s a sadness in his voice, the tone of confusion “Just that, I didn’t know you’re dating now, since when?” He asked. “Uh hmnn, it’s really not serious, we’re just hanging out.” She responded. “Are you mad?” She asked again. “No not mad, just kind of upset” his voice was breaking yet remained soft. She told him, she doesn’t understand why he would be upset. He asked her how come she never dated him and reminded her they’ve been very close and in fact has been intimate on and off for years. “I don’t understand, what do you mean?” She asked over the phone wondering in confusion and he said, “Well, I just don’t want you to get hurt, see you date someone, then you fall in love, then it doesn’t work, you get hurt and when you get hurt it makes me feel like I want to put my fist in someone’s face. “ “I didn’t know that’s how you feel? You never speak to me about it” she said and more confusion of her part start stirring, somehow she felt a sharp pain in her chest hearing the sound of sadness in his voice, she sense he is aching. “I gotta get off the phone” He suddenly uttered. “Hey wait, do you want to talk about it?” She asked and he said. “Nah, it’s all good. I’ll catch yah later” he then hung up the phone.


Ah the Guessing Game! It’s very sad when two people who are supposedly mature and grown up plays this little trick of Guessing Game. Grown up tend to get emotionally or physically attached to one another, share moments together, build memories together, sometimes even fell in love and care for each other, but they never find the time to actually sit down and talk about the situation they are both in. Assuming the other would already know, while the other one waits thinking he or she will just wait until the other one starts talking or opening up about his or her emotions. Sometimes both find themselves in situations where they would rather not talk about the most important thing, a clarification or reassurance of each other’s place in each other’s life. Leaving everything to assumption, to waiting, thinking emotions or affection will actually speak for itself on its own. Until someone else comes along, sweep the other’s feet away; Until a third party comes in the picture, then the pain stirs, the sadness begins, the confusion rises, someone’s heart gets broken while the other has no clue as to why the other person reacts the way he or she does.


When two people who built good memories together (fun times as others may call it) or when two people who find attraction to one another and shared emotional or physical attachment does NOT speak of how they feel for each other one of them if not both will always be left in the dark, wondering if the moments shared even meant a thing to the other? It creates emotional turmoil, confusion, pain and sadness. And worse part, when the third party is already involved to the other person, it leaves them hanging always wondering, why it seems