Not Just An Old LOVE Story, Marissa Romero, Nicole Valle, David Smith [free children's online books TXT] 📗

When it came to Valentine's Day Lulu would've stayed home rather then go to school. When Lulu got up that morning she got dressed in a black long-sleeve tee-shirt and black leggings. Lulu put on some earrings, her glove, her headband, and her boots. When Lulu got on the bus she sat down and David sat with her. She was having fun poking David again. As each one of her friends got on the bus Lulu handed them a little bag with stuff in it. When they got off the bus they exchanged gifts. David pulled a bag out of his backpack and handed it to Lulu. Lulu said,”Thank you and your not getting yours until we get to class.” David smiled and they walked over to the table. When they got to class David sat next to Lulu and kept telling her to open it. Lulu kept saying "I will when you go sit down." Eventually David went and sat down. Lulu got into her bag and got David's things out and looked up to see David holding out a picture to give her. Lulu took the picture and then handed David the bag of things she bought him. The whole day was actually really good. All Lulu could think was that she didn't hate it this year. Lulu had fun with David. On the 16th Lulu decided that she was going to start writing letters again. The first letter said,

“Sunday, February 16,2014, 9:25 pm

Dear Friend,

Sorry I haven't written in a while, but everything is better now. I got a new boyfriend, his name is David. And don't worry I told him everything, well technically I didn't tell him cause I was scared so I just wrote him a letter. I think you'd like David a lot. He's different from the other guys I've dated. I'm doing a lot better now. David has been a huge help. He kinda helped me forget about all the pain I've been feeling. I still feel the pain, but it hasn't been as bad since I started to date him. I haven't cut in almost a year. I still get tempted to cut, but I snap a rubber band on my wrist to help with the wanting, I'm also finding all kinds of different ways to detract myself, like I started to write again, and I'm playing softball and I'm spending time with David when I can. Sometimes it gets bad, but all I gotta think about is how much I can't wait to see David the next day. I'll write soon again.

Love,

Your Old Friend “

The day before their one month Lulu wrote a letter to her dear friend. I can't remember, but I believe that David wasn't at school. Which made Lulu very sad. The letter said,

“ Tuesday, February 18, 2014, 6:30 pm

Dear Friend,

Things are getting bad. I guess it wasn't so smart to go through my old things. I mean it was fine until I found everything that reminds me of the pain. It hurt to remember the pain that all of them brought me. I tried to ignore it, but then I found pictures and drawings that they gave me, and I almost broke down in tears. The only thing that kept me from actually breaking down again was the fact that I get to see David tomorrow. Right now he's the only thing that's keeping me from hurting myself again. I'm glad I can still write to you, it keeps me distracted when David isn't around so I can talk to. You and David are the only people I have, I mean that sorta understand what I'm going through. Tomorrow I'm gonna give David the letter that says everything. I just hope he's more understanding than the others were.

Love,

Your Forgotten Friend”

The next day David was at school. Lulu was having a good morning cause all she could think about was the fact that her and David have been together for a month. She wrote a to her friend again . The letter said,

“Wednesday, February 19,2014, 10:45 am

Dear Friend,

Today I gave David the letter that says everything. It was a good thing because he was so much more understanding than the others ever were. He didn't yell at me or think I was lying. He was the first guy that actually understood what I was saying. It means a lot to me that he understood what I was trying to say. He's a really good guy, way better than the other guys I was dating before him. I feel like I can trust him now that he knows. I didn't tell him everything, I was scared to, but I told him the important stuff and I think that's all that matters in this situation. Things are slightly good today, except that I brought my kn*** with me and I'm so tempted to cut. I want to cut so bad that it hurts, but I'm not gonna let the temptations get to me. I just gotta remember that I'm stronger now than I was back then. I don't have to cut, I don't need to cut. The fact that I'm at school it just makes it worse, but the good thing is that David is here so I have a distraction. Today just isn't my day...........i feel like I'm suffocating. I feel like I have no one to talk to. I just want this stupid day to be over. I just want to forget the pain, but no matter what I do I just can't stop feeling the pain and it hurts. I think I'm gonna be smart today and just give David my kn*** because I can't handle having it without wanting to cut. I just wish you were here to help me. You always knew how to help. Sometimes I just miss you and it causes more pain but I can't help it you knew how to help. And right now I need your help. Sorry for being me again today, but I just hope your doing better than I am today.

Love,

Your Lost Friend”

Lulu was having a bad day after all. She was writing when David went and sat next to her at break. For the first time she let someone read the letters. The only person she trusted to read and understand what she was saying. So Lulu let David read the letters. David was kinda surprised about what it said, but David knew that Lulu was being honest. The next day Lulu wrote another letter. This time it said,

“Thursday, February 20,2014, 8:05 am

Dear Friend,

Today is a little better, but not much. It's starting to getting bad again. I can feel myself starting to just let go. I'm scared that if I let go that I'll start to cut again. I just wanna feel better. Right now your the only person that understands what I'm going through, I just wish you were here and not in Duncan. I hate that I can't talk to you in person, you'd know what to do right now. I hate feeling this way, but today David's voice sounds a little different so it kinda helps. He said he was yelling a lot yesterday so he's loosing his voice. His voice is a mix of someone playing with helium and someone who has a deep voice. It's really funny cause it makes me laugh and he just helps me forget everything from the past. When I'm with him all I can think about is him. Most of the time when I'm at school he's all I think about. Like for reals I think about him that much. The best part is that if I think about him when I'm at school that I don't think about everything else. Then there's after school when I'm alone.........that I just can't help but think about the past. I try to think about David, but for some reason I just can't. The only thing that helps me at home is when I can talk to David on Face-book or when I write to you. Since your not here I think I should try to putting all my trust in David. That doesn't mean that I won't write anymore it just means that I'm gonna try and let someone else in. I thinks it'll be good it I have you and David to talk to about this. Especially since you can't be here physically to help me. It's just that I really really like David and I don't wanna hide what's wrong with me from him anymore. I always tell him that I'm fine when I'm really not. I tell him that I'm fine when I'm sad, when I'm angry and I tell him that I'm fine when I feel lost or forgotten. I tell him that I'm fine, I act happy and put on a smile when I feel hurt and when the pain comes back. I just wanna be able to talk to him about this like I talk to you. I hate hiding things from him, and I don't want to hid anything from him anymore, but I'm scared to talk to him about this cause I don't want to be judge by him and because I'm scared that he's not gonna understand. I'm scared that he's gonna hurt me like all the others did. I don't think I could handle if that happened again, I think that I'd actually break down if he hurt me, too. I just don't......wanna go back to the way I was before......I'm just barley starting to get better again. I don't wanna be the way I was before, I hated myself when I was like that. I was always hurting when I was like that and I don't wanna go through that again. And the fact that David might graduate this year doesn't help in the pain department. It honestly makes this worse because I thought I had another year to be with him, but now I might not. I mean part of me is happy for him, but the the other part of me is just hurting because of it. I don't know what's gonna happen if he graduates this year, I mean I’ll probably hurt some more than I already do just thinking about it. I don't know.....I....I....I just don't know about this anymore. I'm so scared to get hurt again that I might let it ruin my relationship with David. I don't wanna let it ruin Our relationship, but I also don't wanna get hurt again. I don't know what to do. I hate being scared of guys and relationships. I mean I've dated a lot of guys