2.Trust - The Plan, Summer Blue [book club recommendations TXT] 📗

fine but then-'
'You fell in love?' Sam finished me off. I nodded. But Sam wasn't finished. I can tell from his face that he wanted to say a lot. 'Look Ruby, are you telling me that you have no feelings for Conor?'
I paused and then said 'No.' So much feelings were in my head. Some were good but some where bad. The feelings that I was afraid of sneaked into my brain and now it hurts.
'Thats not true.' Sam said shaking his head.
'It is.'
'Really?'
'Really.'
'Then why did you pause?'
'I didn't, I just thought it was a obvious question.'
'Wrong.'
'Right.'
'Wrong.'
'Rig-'
'Stop it.' Mum said.
'Sorry.' Me and Sam mumbled.
'Right, are you sure Ruby?' Mum said putting my hair behind my ear.
'I guess I am.' I said. But I couldn't hide the feeling that there was something there. Something that I couldn't stop feeling.
Chapter 5

'Have you got your pens?' Mum said for the 12th time.
'Yes Mum.' I said too tired to complain about her worrying. We were in the kitchen and Mum was getting worried about my tutoring job with Conor. Why is she acting like I'm going to an important business trip? She was telling me how to act and what to wear and what not to say. I guess when you tutor people, there are rules but when you tutor someone who is rich, there is other rules. It annoys me so much.
'Okay darling, Sam is going to drop you off and don't be mean to anyone.' Mum said sorting out my hair.
'I don't be mean to anyone.' I said. She smiled. 'Unless their mean to me.' I finished off. Mum looked at me uncertain.
'Mum, I'll be fine.' I said hugging her.
'I know you will be.' She said hugging me back.
'Ready to go?' Sam said yawning. Mum told him to wake up an hour eary so he could check the car. Can Mum get anymore worried?
'Yeah I think- Oops I forgot my phone.' I said running upstairs. I got my phone that was charging. There were 2 messages from Cam and Josh. I'll read them later. I looked into the mirror at what I was wearing. I changed the colour of my hair. It was still red but a different shade. I liked it. I thought that if I was going to have a new start, I'd rather change how I look. Cam and Josh couldn't recognise me first because the red hair was the only thing that made me different. But its still red as always. I have a long sigh before walking towards the car. Im actually going to do this. I am actually going to this. Am I? Am I actually going to do this. Sam takes out his keys and looks at me curiously. I quickly put my hands on his shoulders and look straight at him. 'Sam, Am I actually going to do this?' I said, still unsure about this.
'Yes Ruby. And you can do this. Not for anyone but your mum, remember?' Sam said. For some reason, Sam didn't look worried about this at all. I looked at him curiously before sitting into the car. I can do this. I can do this.
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Heyy!! Thanks for reading.
I will update Next friday so hope you have time to read it.
Heres a little hint in the next chapter.
- 'Conor's P.O.V'
Yep, its going to be his first point of view after his

Chapter 6 - Conor's P.O.V

Days went. Days went slower and slower. Like time wanted me to suffer. Suffer for what I have done. It hurts. It hurts so much that I can't sleep, I can't eat and I can't think without remembering that moment. Remembering what I have done. Remembering her. Ruby. Her name that used to bring a smile to my face, has now made me hate myself. I was writing on my laptop in my room. What was I writing? Feelings. All the feelings I have felt. Hurt, disapointed, sad, lonely, angry ...
'AAAAAAHHH!!' I screamed to no one in particular. My head. Its hurting so much. I lost someone and now everything looks so dull. Like, I have lost something that kept me alive, and now that its gone, I'm dead.
There was a knock on the door. I really wasn't in the mood. I know I have been sitting in my room for a long time. I dont even know what day it is. All I know is that shes gone.
'Conor can I come in?' The voice was my sisters. I love her but shes never left my side at all. Always talking and making me feel great eventhough it was all an act. 'Yeah, you can come in.' I said trying not to sound annoyed. 'Hes in such a bad mood', I over heard a servant saying. 'How can one girl make him so different.' they said. Well how do they know? Ruby isn't just a girl, shes more. Shes everything to me. 'Doesn't he notice that he can get any girl he wants.' I over heard another servant saying. 'All this for a girl, who knew when this day would come,' the said. And then they all laughed. Laughed at me. Conor Riches. They have no sense at all. Fired.
'How you feeling?' Cassie snapped me back to reality.
'Great. I'm feeling better.' I lied smiling to her. She smiled back and sat on my bed.
'You know, we have this tutor-'
'Cas, what did I say?' I said trying not to sound mad. 'I don't want any tutors or teachers or helpers. I'll be going school.'
'When, Conor?' Cassie said, angrily. 'When are you going school? When exams have finished? When everyone is graduated? When Conor?' She got up from my bed and walked to my window. In this house, whenever someone was mad, they would stand near the window and breath in and out like Cassie is doing right now. I know Cassie is mad. But how do I explain to her that I really want to go but I just... I just...
'Can't you face her?' Cassie said, not looking at me. My hands tightened.
'Of course I can. I just-'
'What Conor? You know what, I've got a tutor in today and you WILL like her.' She ordered me. When I looked at her, her eyes was happy. Like she was relieved. She wasn't mad at all, but more excited. Has this got anything got to do with the tutor?
'Cassie, why are you-' The door bell interrupted me. Who can that be? It must be the tutor that Cassie was talking about. Before I could ask the question again, Cassie screamed with delight. I had to put my hands to my ears. Why is Cassie screaming and being soo excited? I looked at her like she was crazy. She said with a big smile on her face, 'Be on your best behaviour.' My eyes opened wide since ages. Did she just tell me to behave myself? Is she crazy? I wanted to tell her what is up but she ran out the room screaming with delight. I shook my head. This girl has something wrong with her, I murmered. I wonder how this tutor is going to be like. I shut my laptop with anger. I've had millions of tutors, how is this going to make a difference. I love Cassie but sometimes shes gets in my head. I've had millions of tutors. I just don't want to learn. I don't want to learn!
I walked to the window and breathed in and out. There was a knock on the door. I wasn't bothered. I don't care who this tutor is. Cassie shouldn't even be here. I wasn't a total mess. Okay, I didn't get out of the room for days and I refused a lot of food. And I didn't take my medicines but I'm still fine. Aren't I? I tried to remember what Cassie said. 'I've got a tutor in today and you will like her.' So it was a girl then. I could hear her sigh with nervousness. So she was nervous, she is so going to be easy to get rid of. Then I heard Cassie shouting a few feet away. 'Hey, Is he not letting you in? Wait, I'll sort him out.' I could hear her stumping to the ground. I sighed, too annoyed.
I heard the door bang open. For some reason, my heart started beating fast. So fast.
'Conor, you have a guest.' Cassie said nicely but with a tone saying 'oi, stop acting like an idiot.'
'No Cassie, you have a guest.' I said putting pressure on the word 'you'.
'Conor, just turn around and see who-'
'Look Cassie, I put up with all these tutors you have hired, but why do you think she will make a difference.' I said angrily. I was getting tired of this.
'You know what, Conor. Suit yourself. I was going to introduce her to you but your choice. Whatever.' And with that she left the room leaving me and the tutor behind. I sighed. And looked through the window at the trees far ahead. The sun shone so bright. Wonder what Ruby must be doing right now. Going school I guess. Does she ever think about me? Well, I guess I should get rid of this tutor.
'How come you haven't been going school?' she said. I froze. That voice. That voice that was so fimiliar. I turned around amazed. My eyes were wide opened.
'R-Ruby' I stuttered. And there she was. Standing there. Her beautiful face, looking awkwardly on the floor. She was here. She was here in my room. Am I dreaming? I pinched myself.
'Ouch.' I whispered. I had to do it double hard to make sure.
'Are you okay?' She looked at me concerned. I can't believe this. She was standing here. In my bedroom! Asking if I was okay! Wow.
'I...I..I' I was speechless. She looked at me for a second. Her eyes were filled with all kind of emotions. But one of them that caught my eyes was that she was happy. Happy to see me.
'Well, I'm your tutor for your exams that are coming up.' She said normally. Like it was just a normal day, in a normal time at a normal place. But it wasn't.
She put her red heavy bag onto the sofa near the door. She looked at me. There was something different about her.
'You-You're... well you look...' I stuttered. I have to stop this insane behavior. Yes, I know shes here. But