Falling Apart, Astrid R [best novels for beginners txt] 📗

always failed, looking at her with shock. She blinked twice and I blinked in hundredth time. “Did you seriously just ask me to let you borrow my porn DVD’s because Marky and you are going to have sex tonight?” My voice was a little bit higher and she tried to lower my voice by hushing me.

A creepy smile spread from her lips and I do a fake puke clutching my stomach. “Eeew… Gross…!” I gurgled and she looked at me with hard gaze.

“It’s been a long time since Marky and I have sex you know.” She explained and I do know about their sex life…in details.

I scrunched up my nose and put up my ugly disgusting look. “Just don’t tell me what you guys do, disgusting.” I said hoarsely and I can see it in Alia’s eyes that she was offended.

“Whatever,” she shrugged, “If you’re virginity would be broken someday, you would feel the need.” I covered my ears but her voice still entered in my eardrums, “Trust me you’ll love it. It feels like you’re in heaven floating in the sky-…”

I held my hand to cut her off, “Stop!” I shouted, “I am happy being a virgin girl than-…” my sentence were cut off when my brother and his friends including Kenneth entered the kitchen and saw me covering me ears and hearing all of the words that I said.

Bradey’s reaction was proud hearing that his sister was still a virgin, whilst Albert and Delvin has the same reaction, smirking at me as well as Kenneth and Blaine snorted at me.

Embarrassment flashed through me and cheeks redden, “Alia…!” I shouted dangerously and Alia was smirking, placing her tongue out towards me and took off running for her life.

Chapter Eleven

Alia was dressed up on her Hawaiian one piece bikini for my brother’s party. Bradey said that the theme of the party is Hawaiian and everyone should dress up.

I was looked through all of my bikinis inside my closet but I really can’t find my pink Hawaiian bikini. I have heaps of bikinis and have a 3 pairs of Hawaiian but I really love my pink one.

 “Are you done yet?” Alia asked angrily, standing in front of my door.

I shook my head, “Nah, I can’t find my pink one.” I said throwing my other bikinis on the floor frustratingly.

“For fuck sake, woman! Can’t you just wear your another Hawaiian bikini? The party downstairs already started.” She complained and I was getting more frustrated of her big mouth.

I throw her the bikini that was on my hand and it landed it on her face. “Go ahead big mouth. I’ll join the party as soon as I found my-…”

I stopped talking when I recognised the bikini that I throw on Alia’s face. “Hey! That’s my pink Hawaiian bikini!” I said happily.

At last I found it!

Alia rolled her eyes and kicked some of my bikinis that scattered on the floor. “Hurry up! I’ll wait you downstairs.” She waved her hands and closed the door behind her.

I quickly pulled out my shirt off and put my favourite pink Hawaiian bikini on and hurriedly fixed my hair. I never like to put heavy make-up so I just mascara on my thick lashes and splash some face powder on my face.

I walked downstairs and saw heaps of people were already having drinks. All of the guys don’t have shirt on and the girls wore bikinis that exposed their different butt’s sizes.

I looked around the pool area and realised that there were heaps of people as well. In fact, it was more crowded than the hall inside the house. I found out that majority of the people in the party were same age as my brother and some of them were strangers in my eyes.

It took me a couple of minutes before I found Alia and Marky sucking faces at each other and I walked towards them. “Hey guys! Did you enjoy the party?” I asked and I can see Alia’s face turning bright red from annoyance of me for interrupting their little ‘fun’.

“Oh hey, Christine, I do enjoy the party especially when I see my beautiful baby.” Marky said looking at Alia lovingly. I shuddered and I immediately regretted for interrupting their ‘fun’ moment.

I don’t want to offend Marky for saying that it was gross, instead I excuse myself and poured myself a drink in the kitchen. I decided to walk back to the pool and have a swim when the two bitches that I really hate blocked my way.

“Well, well, well… Isn’t it the foster bitch?” Rhea said folding her arms in front of her fake boobs.

I snorted, “Wow! Look who’s talking?” I open widely both of my arms and then pointed a finger on her, “Look it here hoe don’t you ruin my fucking night or I will make yours hell got that bitch?” I stared at her furiously but the bitch has a thick skull and pushes me even more.

“Oh, bitch please what you going to call your boyfriend?” Cindy said wiggling her index finger, “Awww… I just remembered you don’t have boyfriend anymore right?” Rhea’s bestfriend continued and they both burst out laughing.

“Aww… poor girl, you should see her face when she saw us on the toilet fucking each other.” Rhea said and they laugh again.

I can’t help it anymore, I punched Rhea’s laughing face really hard and Cindy’s laughing face turned it into a shock. Rhea’s right eye started to get red but I didn’t feel sorry about it. It makes me feel happy and satisfied.

I should’ve done that before.

I ran upstairs to my room and decided to lie down to my bed. I didn’t feel enjoying the party anymore after that bitches ruin my mood. I looked up to my beeping phone and saw Roddrick’s face.

The images of him with that bitch Rhea in the school toilet made my heart tightened and before I could try to block those images, tears rolled down from my eyes. I was sobbing really hard, my heart was beating slowly and my body felt really cold like a dead person.

I was broken, falling from heaven down to the earth. No one was rescuing me from the pain that I suffered, the betrayal and the lies that I live for almost a year. I trusted him for my whole life and he just ruin it and played my feelings.

I cried sobbed even more hugging my pillow tightly. I heard my door clicked open and I know that it was Alia, “Go away, Alia.” I said through my dry throat.

“I saw and heard what happen in the kitchen,” I turned around and saw Kenneth sat behind me with just in his swimming Hawaiian short.

As long as I wanted to glue my eyes on his sexy looking abs, I looked away and quickly wipe my tears with my hand. “So you heard it then,” it’s not a question but he answered it anyway.

“Yes, and that was really a good punch.” He laughed and I smiled a little.

He walked around my bed and sat next to me. “Are you okay?” he asked, I looked him in the eye and his emerald eyes are full with sadness.

I looked down to my hands, “I don’t know… I-It’s hard to trust and love someone when they just-…” I stopped and broke down crying, whilst hugging my pillow tightly.

Kenneth held his arms to my small body and hushing me while patting my hair tenderly. More tears rolled down on my cheeks, remembering the way Roddrick did this to me when I am sad. The way his hands rubbed up and down at my back.

“It’s going to be okay.” Kenneth assures me hugging me tightly in his arms. “I won’t let that bastard or anyone hurt you again.”

He separated a little and looked me in the eyes. He wipes my tears off of his thumb and kissed my forehead. I let out a deep breath to calm myself.

We stayed that for like an hour though in reality it’s just a couple of minutes. He tugged my hair behind my ear and looked at me in the eyes. “Do you want me to stay?” he asked and I instantly turned pale. I don’t know why.

“I…I-I don’t know. If you want?” I asked and I was praying that he would stay and hold me in his arms all night like he did to me earlier.

He shrugged, “Fine by me. The party downstairs is quite boring actually.” He smiled and I smiled back melting from his presence.

I looked down at my legs and remembered that I am only wearing my bikini. I looked up to him and saw him checking me up and down. When our eyes met, my cheeks redden and I quickly looked away. “I-I’ll just change my clothes…i-in..the..” I stuttered pointing my thumb to my bathroom door.

He rubbed the back of his neck, “Oh… yea, sure. I-I’ll just wait here.” He said and I hurriedly walked into my bathroom.

 

 

Chapter Twelve

Oh God…Oh God! Is he really staying with me in my room? In my room? Jesus, I can’t handle this anymore. What if I snore? What if I accidentally push him out of my bed while I’m sleeping? What if he doesn’t like my night gown?

I was thinking, worried that Kenneth would think that I am disgusting because I snore when I sleep – which is I really don’t know if I do snore, but excited as well because he’s going to stay with me tonight.

My heart was beating like a crazy drum and I can feel my face become paler, goose bumps where everywhere on my skin and I feel like I’m going to be sick.

I heard noises inside my room and I know that Kenneth will be soon become impatient because I take forever in the bathroom.

Relax, Christine. Just take a deep breath and look in the mirror. Check yourself first before stepping in front of Kenneth.

No, calm yourself and take of your undies and leave your shirt. Just in case you it’s your lucky night tonight.

What?! No, you’re crazy!

Me? Are you saying that I am not sexy?

No… I was just-…

My crazy battle with my perverted thoughts was cut off when I heard Kenneth softly knocks on my bathroom door. “Iris, I’m going back to the party. You’re brother needs me. Do you mind if I just come back later?”

My heart sank in to the deepest water and was eaten by a shark, as soon as I heard his excuse. I thought that