Scorpions, fraz [top inspirational books txt] 📗

the fuck are you doing what’s you god damn problem it 3 in the fucking morning!” it’s my wife. I’m at home in my house I know where everything is now. A sigh of relief sneaks out and my wife tells me to get back in bed and not to wake her again.
I think to myself you’re such a bitch if you weren’t 6 months pregnant I would leave your dumb ass! I start asking myself why she doesn’t understand. Why do I still have these nightmares? Will they ever stop? Is my daughter going to know what I have done? Can I even be a good husband and day? Only time will tell.

chapter 3

As the plane lands a grip my bible tight in my left hand and my right hand rest on the pistol grip of my m-4 my ruck sack siting by my feet the plane slows to a stop. The ramp lowers and the hot dry air rushes in we all stand to exit. I throw my ruck on my back the weight is heavy on my knees I buckle my helmet and start walking towards the ramp bible still in hand I drop it in my left cargo pocket my grip tightens on my rifle as I take my first steps in this furan country. Hearing the screaming of commands but not listening to the words all I hear is noise I continue to walk I turn to face my troops I take in the looks on the young men’s faces barely old enough to shave the look of fear and wonder lays on the faces of them all. My troops form up without a word the small unit stands tall waiting for their orders and I have none. I call them to attention and walk my unit inspecting every one of my troops. They stand tall and proud trying to hide their fear they look straight threw me. I start to speak but words are few I put them at ease and walk to get my orders for my unit.
I salute my commander and tell him my unit is all present and accounted for he puts me at ease but turns his back to me as he speaks in a gruff voice he speaks not so much to me but to himself as he looks out at the deserted desert saying “you pukes have taken to many lives I have a surprise for you!” he turns back to me and says “Sargent I have your orders your unit will be looking for the pukes that have been hitting us hard this is operation viper.” I get all the details from the lt's I thank and salute them and turn to walk out as the commander says “Sargent you’re going to face a lot of resistance” with an ill look on his face I turn and walk back to my unit with every step I feel the sand shift under my feet.
As I approach my unit the go to attention without an order being spoke I says trying to hold back the fear with the commanders last words echoing in my ears “scorpions were heading out our mission is to find the pukes that keep hitting these troops hard day in and out we are to find them and bring them back dead or alive” not even a twitch as my words soak in I tell them to mount up and prepare to head out.
I reach down and put my hand on the sand the days heat still keeping the sand warm I pick up a handful and stand and slowly let it fall between my fingers after a few seconds I dump the rest of the sand from my hand and walk to my Humvee I open the door and put my head set on I tell my driver to roll out. We leave the base and I key the microphone saying “lock and load “
The only light we can see is our own headlights there has been no radio traffic yet and it’s been about an hour I key the mic “boys is this how you played army man growing up?” a few chuckles came over the radio and the gunner in truck two said “sarg when I played army man I made my brother play the Indians. I think I was a little off on my enemies” the small talk continued tell we got close to our destination we shut off all lights and used night vision we pulled into the city and small fires started in front of some of the houses it was quiet the motors stopped and I got out I could hear my heart beating in my chest I gave the order to de mount my gunners stayed just like they were trained along with the drivers. My gunner came over the radio saying “sarg we’ve got movement on top of the buildings all around us” I cut him off and said “stay steady keep an eye on em”
We form up and start to walk the streets my gunners on a swivel when the first shots ring out were being shot at from all around us the gunners rain rounds at the tops of the building and my troops started taking shots trying to get to cover. Explosions start rocking us from every direction.
We’ve been had they were ready for us with a well-planned ambush we fight back and clear out the closest buildings and the fire fight dies down to few and far between shots that my gunners take care of fast and it stops altogether. I check my troops and account for all of them none have been hit and all were accounted for. My gunner says “hey sarg I’ve been in bar fights more intense then that” trying to lighten the mood of the younger troops. We still have 6 blocks to go before we get to the building were going to. I form my unit back up and order them to move out again from the front of the formation.
As we approached the cross roads shots started ringing out as my unit came under attack and an un goddly pain hit me like a ton of bricks I screamed in pain! I opened my eyes I was still screaming but I wasn’t in Iraq where am I? laying on my chest is my 4 month old daughter starting to cry. I realize it was another nightmare. Getting my grip on me my wife ran into to living room and starting bitching at me for waking our daughter up. She reached out and took her away from me. All I could think about was how I must be a bad dad and feeling terrible for waking her up. My chest is still in pain and im sweating and a little short of breath.
I decided to take a shower to cool off and calm down. There was no hot water as the water ran down my body it felt like hundreds of knifes jabbing all over me. I look at my shoulders seeing the tops of my tattoos reading and remembering why I got them. On my left shoulder I have a grim reaper and the words “feel the fear face the fear follow the order” I run my hand over the top of it and can feel the raised skin. My right shoulder I see the tops of the wings of the gargoyle perched on top of a building. I close my eyes again remembering the pain that each one had. I reach around and feel the skin that’s raised on my back from the wolverine tattoo that takes up the left side of my back. I think to myself if only I could have healed like Logan does in the comics. I turn off the water and drip dry with my hands on the wall thinking to myself what the hell am I doing I’m not a family man what the hell do I know about raising a daughter. Im heating up again just thinking about it just going back to Iraq would give me what I know what im good at.
I step out of the shower and dry off wrapping a towel around me I open the door and hear my wife bitching about me waking up Sara. I walk into the living room and her sisters standing there and looks at me with a look that could kill and says “you’re such an ass hole why would you scream when Sara was sleeping on your chest? You’re a dick!” I nodded and said sorry I had a night mare then I looked at my wife and said im going to get dressed and go to work. Her sister said “that’s just like you wake her up and make her cry and leave I hope you get stabbed tonight” I rolled my eyes and walked off.
I left for work an hour early but I didn’t mind I am a prison guard and enjoy my job. After working 8 hours thinking about what had happened the day before I felt like having a beer so I went to Larry’s a local bar that I spent a lot of time at before I got married. Mechellial was working a few years older than me with a smoking hot body long wavy brown hair with green eyes. She sees me walk in and before I had even sat down she had sat a bud light down for me. It went down fast and smooth and she brought me another one. It was only 0730 so there were very few people at the bar. I drank 3 more and paid then gave mechellial a 10 dollar tip and told her I would see her soon.
When I got home it was 1030 and my wife and daughter were still asleep. I changed and sat down in bed when my wife said you need to change and feed Sara I need to sleep longer. I changed and feed Sara and laid back in the recliner. Sara didn’t want to sleep so I put her in her play pin and sat back down.
My unit was heading into a building knowing that we were going to run into a small force it was 0213 as we approached the main stair case preparing to ascend the stairs the power goes out. We turn on our night vision and continue. I was the first one to hit the top I wait for my unit to cover me and I kicked in the door placing my foot just below the knob and in about an inch. The door shattered and shot rang out I rolled to my right for cover. My unit fired back when the shooting stopped I looked in and didn’t see anyone and went in a hand grabbed my arm. I grabbed the persons arm on mine and twisted breaking it away from mine I hear female screams.
My eyes shoot open and the screams I heard are coming from my wife.