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Not A Commentary, And I Miss The Sifting, Examining, Scrutinizing,
Discussing Intercourse That Compels One To The Analysis Of One's
Own Ideas And Sentiments, And Makes The Society Of Any One With
Whom One Communicates Unreservedly So Much More Profitable, As Well
As Pleasurable, Than This Everlasting Self-Communion. I Miss My
Wholesome Bitters, My Daily Dose Of Contradiction; And You Need Not
Be Jealous Of My Book, For It Is A Miserable _Pis Aller_ For Our
Interminable Talks.
I Had A Visit From J---- F---- The Other Day, And She Stayed An
Volume 1 Chapter 19 Pg 129Hour, Talking Very Pleasantly, And A Little After Your Fashion; For
She Propounded The Influence Of Matter Over Mind And The
Impossibility Of Preserving A Sound And Vigorous Spirit In A Weak
And Suffering Body. I Am Blessed With Such Robust Health That My
Moral Shortcomings, However Anxious I May Be To Refer Them To
Side-Ache, Toothache, Or Any Other Ache, I Am Afraid Deserve Small
Mercy On The Score Of Physical Infirmity; But She, Poor Thing, I Am
Sorry To Say, Suffers Much And Often From Ill Health, And
Complained, With Evident Experience, Of The Difficulty Of
Preserving A Cheerful Spirit And An Even Temper In The Dreary
Atmosphere Of A Sick-Room.
When She Was Gone I Set To Work With "Francis I.," And Corrected
All The Errors In The Meter Which Mr. Milman Had Had The Kindness
To Point Out To Me. I Then Went Over Beatrice With My Mother, Who
Takes Infinite Pains With Me And Seems To Think I Profit. She Went
To The Play With Mrs. Fitzgerald And Mrs. Edward Romilly, Who Is A
Daughter Of Mrs. Marcet, And, Owing To A----'S Detestation Of That
Learned Lady's Elementary Book On Natural Philosophy, I Was Very
Desirous They Should Not Meet One Another, Though Certainly, If Any
Of Mrs. Marcet's Works Are Dry And Dull, It Is Not This Charming
Daughter Of Hers.
But A---- Was Rabid Against "Nat. Phil.," As She Ignominiously
Nick-Named Mrs. Marcet's Work On Natural Philosophy, And So I
Brought Her To The Theater With Me; And She Stayed In My
Dressing-Room When I Was There, And In My Aunt Siddons's Little Box
When I Was Acting, As You Used To Do; But She Sang All The While
She Was With Me, And Though I Made No Sign, It Gave Me The Nervous
Fidgets To Such A Degree That I Almost Forgot My Part. In Spite Of
Which I Acted Better, For My Mother Said So; And There Is Some Hope
That By The Time The Play Is Withdrawn I Shall Not Play Beatrice
"Like The Chief Mourner At A Funeral," Which Is What She Benignly
Compares My Performance Of The Part To.
The Alteration In My Gowns Met With Her Entire Approbation--I Mean
The Taking Away Of The Plaits From Round The Waist--And My Aunt
Dall Pronounced It An Immense Improvement And Wished You Could See
It.
Lady Dacre And Her Daughter, Mrs. Sullivan, And Mr. James Wortley
Were In The Orchestra, And Came After The Play To Supper With Us,
As Did Mr. And Mrs. Fitzgerald, Mrs. Edward Romilly, And Mr.
Harness: A Very Pleasant Party, For The Ladies Are All Clever And
Charming, And Got On Admirably Together.
It Is Right, As You Are A Shareholder In That Valuable Property Of
Ours, Covent Garden, You Should Know That There Was A Very Fine
House, Though I Cannot Exactly Tell You The Amount Of The Receipts.
I Miss You Dreadfully, My Dear H----, And I Do Wish You Could Come
Back To Us When Dorothy Has Left You; But I Know That Cannot Be,
And So I Look Forward To The Summer Time, The Sunny Time, The Rosy
Time, When I Shall Be With You Again At Ardgillan.
Volume 1 Chapter 19 Pg 130
Yesterday, I Read For The First Time Joanna Baillie's "Count
Basil." I Am Not Sure That The Love She Describes Does Not Affect
Me More Even Than Shakespeare's Delineation Of The Passion In
"Romeo And Juliet." There Is A Nerveless Despondency About It That
Seems To Me More Intolerable Than All The Vivid Palpitating Anguish
Of The Tragedy Of Verona; It Is Like Dying Of Slow Poison, Or
Malarial Fever, Compared With Being Shot Or Stabbed Or Even
Bleeding To Death, Which Is Life Pouring Out From One, Instead Of
Drying Up In One's Brains. I Think The Lines Beginning--
"I Have Seen The Last Look Of Her Heavenly Eyes,"
Some Of The Most Poignantly Pathetic I Know. I Afterward Read Over
Again Mr. Procter's Play; It Is Extremely Well Written, But I Am
Afraid It Would Not Act As Well As It Reads. I Believe I Told You
That "Iñez De Castro" Was Finally Given Up.
Sally And Lizzy Siddons Came And Sat With Me For Some Time; They
Seem Well And Cheerful. Their Mother, They Said, Was Not Very Well;
How Should She Be! Though, Indeed, Regret Would Be Selfish. Her Son
Is Gone To Fulfill His Own Wishes In Pursuing The Career For Which
He Was Most Fit; He Will Find In His Uncle George Siddons's House
In Calcutta Almost A Second Home. Sally, Whom You Know I Respect
Almost As Much As Love, Said It Was Surprising How Soon They Had
Learned To Accept And Become Reconciled To Their Brother's
Departure. Besides All Our Self-Invoked Aids Of Reason And
Religion, Nature's Own Provision For The Need Of Our Sorrows Is
More Bountiful And Beneficent Than We Always Perceive Or
Acknowledge. No One Can Go On Living Upon Agony; We Cannot Grieve
For Ever If We Would, And Our Most Strenuous Efforts Of
Self-Control Derive Help From The Inevitable Law Of Change, Against
Which We Sometimes Murmur And Struggle As If It Wronged Our
Consistency In Sorrow And Constancy In Love. The Tendency To _Heal_
Is As Universal As The Liability To _Smart_. You Always Speak Of
Change With A Sort Of Vague Horror That Surprises Me. Though All
Things Round Us Are For Ever Shifting And Altering, And Though We
Ourselves Vary And Change, There Is A Supreme Spirit Of
Steadfastness In The Midst Of This Huge Unrest, And An Abiding,
Unshaken, Immovable Principle Of Good Guiding This Vanishing World
Of Fluctuating Atoms, In Whose Eternal Permanence Of Nature We
Largely Participate, And Our Tendency Toward And Aspiration For
Whose Perfect Stability Is One Of The Very Causes Of The Progress,
And Therefore Mutability, Of Our Existence. Perhaps The Most
Painful Of All The Forms In Which Change Confronts Us Is In The
Increased Infirmities And Diminished Graces Which After Long
Absence We Observe In Those We Love; The Failure Of Power And
Vitality In The Outward Frame, The Lessened Vividness Of The
Intellect We Have Admired, Strike Us With A Sharp Surprise Of
Distress, And It Is Startling To Have Revealed Suddenly To Us, In
The Condition Of Others, How Rapidly, Powerfully, And Unobservedly
Time Has Been Dealing With Ourselves. But Those Who Believe In
Eternity Should Be Able To Accept Time, And The Ruin Of The Altar
From Which The Flame Leaps Up To Heaven Signifies Little.
Volume 1 Chapter 19 Pg 131
My Father And I Went To Visit Macdonald's Collection Of Sculpture
To-Day. I Was Very Much Pleased With Some Of The Things; There Are
Some Good Colossal Figures, And An Exquisite Statue Of A Kneeling
Girl, That Charmed Me Greatly; There Are Some Excellent Busts, Too.
How Wonderfully That Irrevocable Substance Assumes The Soft, Round
Forms Of Life! The Color In Its Passionless Purity (Absence Of
Color, I Suppose I Should Say) Is Really Harder Than The Substance
Itself Of Marble. I Could Not Fall In Love With A Statue, As The
Poor Girl In Procter's Poem Did With The Apollo Belvidere, Though I
Think I Could With A Fine Portrait: How Could One Fall In Love With
What Had No Eyes! Was It Not Thorwaldsen Who Said That The Three
Materials In Which Sculptors Worked--Clay, Plaster, And
Marble--Were Like Life, Death, And Immortality? I Thought My Own
Bust (The One Macdonald Executed In Edinburgh, You Know) Very Good;
The Marble Is Beautiful, And I Really Think My Friend Did Wonders
With His Impracticable Subject; The Shape Of The Head And Shoulders
Is Very Pretty. I Wonder What Sappho Was Like! An Ugly Woman, It Is
Said; I Do Not Know Upon What Authority, Unless Her Own; But I
Wonder What Kind Of Ugliness She Enjoyed! Among Other Heads, We Saw
One Of Brougham's Mother, A Venerable And Striking Countenance,
Very Becoming The Mother Of The Chancellor Of England. There Was A
Bust, Too, Of Poor Mr. Huskisson, Taken After Death. I Heard A
Curious Thing Of Him To-Day: It Seems That On The Night Before The
Opening Of The Railroad, As He Was Sitting With Some Friends, He
Said, "I Cannot Tell What Ails Me; I Have A Strange Weight On My
Spirits; I Am Sure Something Dreadful Will Happen To-Morrow; I Wish
It Were Over;" And That, When They Recapitulated All The
Precautions, And All The Means That Had Been Taken For Security,
Comfort, And Pleasure, All He Replied Was, "I Wish To God It Were
Over!" There Is Something Awful In These Stories Of Presentiments
That Always Impresses Me Deeply--This Warning Shadow, Projected By
No Perceptible Object, Falling Darkly And Chilly Over One; This
Indistinct Whisper Of Destiny, Of Which One Hears The Sound,
Without Distinguishing The Sense; This Muffled Tread Of Fate
Approaching Us!
Did You Read Horace Twiss's Speech On The Reform Bill? Every One
Seems To Think It Was Excellent, Whether They Agree With His
Opinions And Sentiments Or Not. I Saw By The Paper, To-Day,
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