Laura, jk irving [best books to read for self improvement txt] 📗

words, “ your with child laura, how could he do this to you, you must leave him, it’ll only get wosre” she said.
I could not take in what she was saying, leave tony? The thought had never crossed my mind. “ things will get better mam” I replied.
“ I am going to tell dad about this and he will have a word with tony” mother said.
“ please mam iam begging you don’t, don’t tell anyone” I begged.
“to late I have already told tina about the last episode” she hadn’t yet got the words out of her mouth when there was a knock on the door, tina was standing there. “ I cant believe what you are going through” tina said hugging me. “ things will get better tina, tony just needs time to get used to family life, that’s all” I replied. Tina and mam both shook there heads in dismay. “ it’ll work out, it will work, ill work on it” I pleaded with them to give him one more chance. After they left I potterd about the house getting thing clean and tidy as best as possible. Every thing was spick and span, when tony walk in he couldn’t be more apologetic. of cause I forgave him, things went really well the next few months.

I was sitting on the sofa when I got an enormous pain and my warters had broke, I rang my mam and told her It was time, she was on her way. I tried too phone tony at the office but couldn’t get through, so I left a message. Mum drove me to the hospital, Iwas hopeing Tonywould be there for the birth but it was not to be, I had the baby at 4pm and was very glad it was all over, my baby girl was so beautiful I decided to name her Charly. Tony walked into the ward with handfuls of flowers and balloons, I felt so proud, he picked up our little girl and cried, he was over the moon ,he leaned over and kissed me.”she is so beautiful just like her mother, he bent over me and whispered”I am going to change I will be a model husband and father just you wait and see” Ww left the hospital and Tony was great with Charly, he changed her nappies ,fed and burped her annd soothed her when she cried.As the days went on I thought I was in heaven Tony was so attentive and adored Charly. One night my mum asked to have Charly for the night so me and Tony could have a night to ourselves. Tony was not that keen but I talked him round,we went to a lovely restaurant and had a lovely time, we were shattered so we had an early night. When we got home I was feeling a bit sexy I got into bed and Tony soon followed me I slipped my arms around him and kissed him,I waited for him to respond but he just turned over and went to sleep. I needed comforting, I had just had a baby.The next morning I got up and saw to Charly she needed feeding and changing, I was up most of the night with her crying.I was sitting on the sofa when Tony came rushing down the stairs screaming he had been kept awake all night He would not calm down, he was ranting and raving, his arms were flailing about . I stood up put Charly down and tried to pacify him but there wa no talking to him. I asked him if he wanted any breakfast and he nodded, I went into the kitchen and started to make it when suddenlyTony was behind me he lunged at me punching me in the face and stomach. Suddenly blood poured down my legs I was hemorrhaging I was panicking, he would not stop I was screaming as he kicked and punched me repeatedly he leaned against the bench I couldn’t belive his face he had no remorse “get this placed cleaned up and pull yourself together” he screamed, as he left the kitchen I managed to pull myself up and get to the bathroom, I jumped in the shower then realized there was something wrong with my face, it felt rather odd I looked in the mirror and gasped in horror, my mouth was completely to one side.
Tony left for the office and I booked an appointment for the doctors, I didn’t dare tell my mum she would have went mad, I got Charlie ready, and went to the doctors my doctor was brilliant so comforting and understanding I walked into his surgery and he looked in to my face asking what had happened, I said id woke up withit this morning =, obviously he didn’t belive me put carried on examining me he told me the ligaments in my face had snapped which occurs when someone has been screaming profusely, he gave me some tablets and sent me to see the nurse “is everything alright at home” he asked?, I nodded my head “tony isn’t violent is he laura, I hesitated and turned to him and said “of course not my husband is wonderfull”, leaving the doctors I bumped into tina, she asked what had happened. We went for a coffee and sat outside having a drink, she began picking my brains about tony, I told her everything that had happened and was she was amazed at what I had been going through “ you’ll have to leave him before he kills you” I tried to convince her now we have our baby he will calm down after all it was probably me causing it in someway, tina took some convincing but I think I managed, I left her to collect my tablets then went home.
I put Charlie in her cot then made tonys tea.
In he walked with a solemn look upon his face I excpected another beating but instead he apologized for this morning,”god laura did I do that?!” “don’t worry tony its sorted I went to the doctors” “did you tell him what happened ?” he asked with a twinge of worry, @no of course no I said I woke up this morning this way” I brought out the meal and we sat at the table talking and suddenly tony said “the potatoes are a bit hard “ I apologized and he said not to worry, I reached for his hand and felt a stabbing pain in my hand, he had impaled my hand to the table with his fork, I screamed in agony he clenched his hand around mine, there was blood everywhere. “clean this up and make me a proper meal”.
It was at that moment It dawned on me what a monster he really was, it seemed he enjoyed hurting me and I couldn’t risk Charlie I couldn’t be so selfish…..I had to leave.
The next morning tony left for work this was my chance I packed our things and I left for my mothers. They were amazed not just by the fact id turned up after so long but by the sheer amount of damage to my face, my mother broke at the front door my father kept his compsure enough to usher us into the house “ill sort the bags out” he said timidly. The whole story poured out my dad was furious all he could do was threaten tony spouting insults untill he was red in the face, nothing could calm him it would seem. The phone rang, it was tony my mother just hung up after screaming never to call again, weeks went by without any contact from tony .
It was a beautifull day outside so I took Charlie to the park. I sat on the park bench watching Charlie giggling and playing with all the children I loved how happy she was ,”I thought it would not be long before tou came to the park, when I turned around it was Tony standing there,”what do you want Tony” I asked. He said he was missing me and Charly he had changed or so he said , I played along with him about going back,I told him I would meet him back at the flat when I picked up all my clothes, he said that was great, Iwas relieved he had took it all in. Ihad no intention of going back, he suddenly took hold of the buggy “What are you doing with Charly” he said he was taking her back to the flatand would meet me there later, he knew I could not stay away while he had Charly. I went back to the flat mam and dad went crazy when I told them what happened everything was ok, eventually I went to bed. He came in and began caressing me . It made me feel sick to the stomach, he must have realized because he turned over and gave up. The next day he was still here, I got up and he was in the kitchen , he turned to me and said I have two weeks off do you fancy going away for a break? I couldn’t believe what I was hearing I was looking to escape him and here he was trying to play happy familys, I dont feel to well I just want to rest I replied, well you can go out with your friends if you prefer and ill look after charly, he knew I wouldn’t leave charly, he took the baby out for a walk and I immediately got n the phone to tina I explained what had happened she said we would sort something out we have to get him back to work that will ebe the time to get you out, I waited for him to return with the intention of playing him at his own game the phone rang it was my mam offering to look after charly so tony and I could talk things through, I mentioned it to him he just scowled and said no thanks well just have a night in, he said tell your mam well have a nice couple of weeks in peace without her ringing every 2 minutes days passed and I got on living in the same house as tony my hatred growing day by day on the Friday I was cooking breakfast happy in the knowledge I only had to get through the weekend and he would be back at work, to stop him pestering me at night I was slipping two sleeping tablets in his drink before bed so he was asleep before I went up. On the Sunday I told him I was going to the supermarket, he said ill take you and wait outside with charly ok I said . I got the trolly outside and realized I didn’t have any change so I asked a man if he could give me some change he was quite polite and gave me the change with a bit small talk we walked in the shopping center I got my shopping and took it to the car, tony was more quiet than usual I remembered thinking something was wrong he just nodded at me then pulled away, we arrived back home I got charly while tony brought in our grocerys I heard him lock the door and I knew something was wrong, charly was asleep and I started unpacking the shopping. In walked tony to give me a hand .. Or so I thought but he slapped me, I turned to him and asked whats this about he pulled a face and said so you like speaking to men you slut?! Well you wont be doing that again! Something inside of him snapped he started punching and kicking I couldn’t take anymore so I reached for the