My Savior Alpha, Jessie Marie [book recommendations website .txt] 📗

"I'm sorry dear, I know this is hard but I need to get a blood sample. Something could be wrong—""No!" Holly yelped, my hands flying to grip the arm rests of my chair as I tried to calm myself. I could see Lisa increase her grip on my mates' wrist slightly, the action alone making my wolf come alive with a snarl but I fought him away. I couldn't lose her, if something was wrong then Lisa would know and if blood was what she needed then so be it.Glancing in their direction I could both see and smell the nervousness coming off Lisa, her eyes looking at me with question. Hating myself I nodded, looking away with my jaw clenched as Lisa nodded with confirmation."Calm down sweetie, I'll only take a second I promise" she tried to soothe, my wolf snarling inside me as I heard my mates’ pleading tone."No, I don't want to…Please…Adrian, Adrian I don't want to" she begged, the scent of her tears hitting my senses causing me to clamp my teeth together as I tried to suppress my rage.I knew something was wrong though, the worry and panic I felt at something happening to her clouding my judgment as I tried to fight against my instincts to protect my mate even though the sane part of my mind didn't recognize that it was for her own good.It was for her own good, right?"Please Holly, do this for me" I told her, knowing that I was a bastard for telling her this. "If you love me, you'll do this for me."As soon as the words were out of my mouth I regretted them instantly, her begging and pleading turning into silence almost instantly. It wasn't that what worried me though, it was the fact her previous negative emotions seemed to dull before I could barely feel anything from her.Startled I snapped my head in her direction as soon as I smelt her blood in the air, my face paling when I took note of how Holly was holding herself.Her face was pale and she was trembling as Lisa held onto her arm, my mates other clenched tightly at her side as I smelt the blood as her nails dug into the palm of her hand hard enough to draw blood. It wasn't that though that had my heart pounding though, rather the blank look in her eyes that reminded me so much of when I had first met her.Shit, I had made a mistake. I knew that as soon as I caught side of her, the fact I had told her to do something which she clearly didn't want to simply because I asked her to if she loved me was enough to have me feeling sick to the bone with myself. I was disgusted."Leave," I told Lisa, never taking my eyes off my mate.Startled Lisa looked up, staring at me only to pale herself. I had no idea what my expression must have looked like but she instantly let go of my mate with a startled expression."Leave!" I told her again, not messing around. Clearly sensing this she left rapidly collecting her things before dashing from the room quick enough to nearly trip over as she fled as quickly as she could.Turning back to my mate I didn't know what to do, taking note that even though I had sent Lisa away she didn't seem to even notice.What the hell had I been thinking?Cautiously approaching her I was once again reminded of the first time I had brought her back with me, how timid and skittish she had been that she would do something wrong. It had taken her months to get used to how things worked, how she wouldn't be beaten if she did something she thought was inappropriate and I had managed to fuck all that up with one bad decision on my part.Moving to sit on the edge of the bed I gently took her into my arms, my wolf finally calming as his growls and snarls turned into light purrs."I'm sorry," I told her as I breathed in her scent.When I didn't get a reply I looked down only to see her simply staring into space, her eyes simply staring at nothing. I was thankful she let me hold her, even if it was a few hours later until she seemed to snap out of it.Tensing I forced myself to relax, feeling her do the same as she curled her form hesitantly against my own. When she realized I wasn't going to stop her she let her whole body relax, her fingers clenching around my shirt as she buried her face against my chest. Her next words broke my heart."Are you happy with me?" she asked softly, my face falling as I fought back at how much her question affected me. My eyes grew watery as I tried to fight back tears, I hadn't cried since my parents died and I didn't want to start now."I am so, so sorry" I told her, my tone trembling. "I shouldn't have forced you to…I made a mistake" I pleaded with her, blinking rapidly as not to cry. I didn't cry!When she didn't say anything I gripped her tightly against me, simply holding her in my arms as I laid us down before burying my face in her hair. I hoped against hope that I hadn't messed this up; I couldn't live without her…

Adrian's Pov

Waking up in the morning I couldn't help but feel my wolf rise to the surface with concern for its mate, my eyes snapping open as I recalled my harsh and regretful treatment of her last night. I had no idea what I had been thinking, I had made a mistake and I hoped to god I could make it up to her.Opening my eyes I was relieved when I saw the soft features of my mate greet me, her amber eyes looking into my own and I breathed a sigh of relief when I took note that she was looking at me with concern. Why I had no idea, shouldn't she hate me right now? I knew if I was me I would be."Morning" I smiled, though I knew it probably looked forced."You look tired" she informed me, her fingers running down the side of my face as I closed my eyes and soaked up her touch. I didn't deserve her; she was too good to me."I didn't sleep well, I was worried about you" I told her, keeping my eyes closed. I didn't want to ruin the moment, I knew we needed to talk but I was terrified that she would ask for space. Space I knew I wouldn't be able to give her. She was my mate meaning unless she was by my side I didn't feel whole. Hell if it was possible I would have her near me 24/7 but I knew it wasn't exactly realistic."Why?"I winced at her confusion, turning to shift onto my side before I opened my eyes to look down at her much smaller form.How was it possible for her to look as innocent as she did?"Do you hate me?" I asked, hating how pathetic I sounded but I needed to know. I needed to know how to make this right, how to fix this. Holly seemed to tilt her head to the side, as if she was thinking back to something which had happened to make her hate me. Hate was a strong word, I knew that and I found myself praying to god that I hadn't lost my chance with her. I didn't know what I would do if I had."Why would I hate you?" she asked after a few minutes of silence, silence which seemed to feel as if it had gone on for hours rather than mere minutes."About last night…" I trailed off."I know you were only looking out of me," Holly cut me off. I was pained to see tears in her bright eyes. "But, I urm…."When she seemed to stall I didn't hesitate to pull her into my arms, my leg moving to entwine in the middle of hers as I pulled her close. I breathed in her scent, savoring it.Neither of us said anything after that, simply enjoying the feeling that being in each other's company seemed to bring.After what seemed like days had passed I heard a knock at my door, the sound hesitant and I knew it had gotten around to the pack of how I wasn't in the mood for any other company than the girl that laid currently in my arms. Being their alpha at times I knew they could sense it, sense how it would suit them better if at times they simply backed away and waited until I approached them.It was the safest option."What do you want, Ryan?" I asked my sub—beta, already having identified his scent."Urm..." he stuttered through the door."We have a problem, alpha" he confessed."Go on.""Mrs. Pennies is here, you know the mother of the two—""Yes" I cut him off, already knowing he meant Sophie and Liam. What the hell that those two done now?   "Good, well…""Spit it out, Ryan" I snarled, both pleased as well as relieved when Holly didn't so much as even stir at my harsh tone.Maybe I hadn't ruined things as I had first thought?"She wishes to apologize to you, about her last visit" he rushed out. I rolled my eyes."No.""But—""I said no" I snapped. "It does not bother me if she is present. Tell her I am busy, if she wishes to speak inform her I will visit at a more appropriate time" I ordered."If you say so, mate" Ryan agreed, and I could picture him shrugging behind the door before I heard him make his way downstairs.Shaking my head, happy that I no longer had to deal with pathetic problems, I soon found myself relaxing. If it had been serious on the other hand I would have had no choice but to step up to my alpha duties, I cared and looked out for my pack after all, but it was clear it was simply a mother who was worried about her children when there was no need to be. I rolled my eyes at the thought, knowing that even though they would be in some discomfort from not being able to shift, it was for the best. They needed to realize that if they wanted to be in my pack