My Own Words, Desmond Young [parable of the sower read online .txt] 📗

I always thought that my life was alright other than those really big potholes in the road of life, but then as I got older my wall of a alright life began to crumble all around me! Like for instance, last year (2011) I got kicked out of my moms house which all started the crumbling! I was hurt really badly emotionally and my foot hurt phsyically because of my part! My mom always said that she was guarding me from the pain, but as of here recently she's been the cause of the pain! At this point I really don't know what life is all about because at first I thought it was all about family, but everything changed, which lead me to a state of confussion!

My family, life, and world has all came to a change. Everything I once believed in has change in such a short amount of time. I have lost almost everything that meant something to me. One of the few things I still have is my love for writing. I feel like a caveman stuck in the future: all confused, scared, and disappointed. My life that I had has been gone and I would like it back, but I know that no matter what I do or say it won't come back. The wall of my success, hopes, dream, life, and many other things all went tumbling down to the ground. I don't know how all of this will affect me in the future especially since here recently I've lost my greatest friend/great grandmother. I am not the person I once was, even though I seem the same, I am not the same because there is a change forming from within me that's not for the best. I feel that my heart is becoming icy cold, bitter, sour, and not so caring. I'm losing most of the love that filled my heart and replacing it with hatred among other forms of it. I know that this isn't good, but what can I really do to change it when I don't see the way to change instead I see more and more anger/hatred.

Publication Date: 04-14-2012

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