A scream in the silence, Nicole Rosa [feel good books txt] 📗

short story

In a cloudy day, a new car enters in Townsville, a country city in Colorado, it’s a new “family”, if you can call like this. Sandra, a divorced woman, unemployed, barely cares about her daughter, Effy. Effy is a 17 years old girl, with a lot of questions about your life, she is a little bit overweight and this bothers her a lot, her father lives in another state, with his new wife and he never sees Effy.

Sandra moved to Townsville for trying to find a new job and Effy had to go together, which is a very tough thing for a teenager, in the middle of high school.

Today is the first day of Effy’s new school, she woke up, put a jeans on and a sweater and went to the school. She was listening to a dark song in her headphones, looked through the car’s window and saw the rain.

When her mother stopped the car in front of the school, Effy saw a lot of teenagers, smiling, looking happy. Effy barely closed the car’s door and her mother got away, but it didn’t affected her as usual, “today is just another day, without friends or someone to talk ”she thought “I’m just a fat girl in the middle of so much prettier girls”.

She entered the school, and you know one of those moments when everybody stops what their doing and look at you? Well that happened to her, I think this happened because she was different and different things scare people. With her headphones on in the maximum volume and head down, she kept walking into the hall full of people and thought “Why all the girls use so much makeup at 7 a.m. in school?” these was one of hers frequently question about the girl’s behavior, she didn’t understand "why so much makeup?, why people pretend they’re something that they weren’t? and essentially why people pretend to be happy but in reality  they aren’t?"

Her first class was Math, the hardest subject for her, when she entered her classroom, it only had one chair empty in the back, everybody was already seated, she seated almost freezing of shame.

The first period passed and then was time for the most difficult part to a new student in a new class, the lunch time, where everybody sit with theirs groups and never let someone new and different in.

She arrived in the cafeteria, get just a salad and sit in the table alone. While she was eating, Effy started to look and think about the people there:

“I think in all schools have: the popular girls that usually are cheerleaders, the popular boys that usually are the football team, the nerd, the gothics, and a lot more of stereotypes, Why everybody have a specific type? Why can’t be all together? Why we can’t be more than one thing?”

During the lunch time she felt someone touching her, she turn around and saw one of the popular girl, staring at her. Cassie was her name, she was a rich girl and she always wanted we think that her life is perfect, but wasn’t.

Cassie was the kind of girl that were always making jokes about the people that weren’t so popular as she, what included Effy. In her group there are two more other girls, almost identical with Cassie. In these type of group (popular) no one is ever honest, they’re regularly lying to each other and gossiping.

Effy was confused, “why this girl it’s here?”, she thought, Cassie smile to her and say something that Effy will never forget, she say:

Hi my name is Cassie, but obviously you already know that, so I saw you here alone, Why don’t you come sit with us?

Clearly Effy wondered if it was a good idea go sit with her, so she decided to ignore her own questions with this being a good or a bad idea and she followed Cassie until her table.

Unfortunately for Effy this was a big mistake, because now came the worst part of her life.

The popular girls started to invite Effy to go to the mall and make some changes, but Effy had two problems: she didn’t had money and these girls were trying to change her, however those things didn’t stopped her to go.

In two weeks Effy was completely changed, her clothes were shorter, her hair was pink, she was wearing make up now. For her these was super cool and for the popular girl too, because they were trying to discover all of her secrets.

Effy didn’t realised that Cassie and her friends were laughing in her back, telling lies about her for the whole school and making jokes about her simple life.

One day she was passing in the hall and she heard Cassie saying to her friends

Look her clothes today, she think we didn’t notice that she is SUPER FAT (laughs). Pour Effy, so innocent and tacky, but she can’t imagine that we are telling all her’s secrets to everybody

 

When she said that all the other girls start laughing and Effy runned crying, thinking how these happened to her and how some people can be so mean and cruel and now she knew that she can’t trust in anyone and her life will be worst that was already.

She get home crying and went to her room, locked the door, turned off the lights and hide herself under the covered and stayed there without eat and do anything else that wasn’t cry during 3 days.

Passing those 3 days she went to school again and didn’t talk or look to anyone, but she knew that everyone was talking about her, so she make what she always did in hard moments of her life, she put her headphones on and ignored everything and everyone.

One day she was at her room, in the dark, listening to sad musics and she started to think and write, she wrote a letter to her mother that said:

 

“Dear Mama,

I know that I’m not the daughter that you wanted for yourself, I know that we were never the perfect family or something close to that. I don’t know if you notice but I left a long time ago, my soul isn’t here anymore. I can’t handle this feeling anymore, I have so many questions that I know that don’t have answers. I can’t eat anymore, I feel like my body will explode if eat something so I stopped eating, thanks to the pills that I’m taking now. Why am I telling you all of this? Because I’m gone, but I want you to know that none of this is your fault, I always loved you, in my way. Is not nobody's fault, actually was mine. I didn’t fit in these society. While you’re reading this I’m not longer with you so all I have to say know is have a good life mom.”

 

And like this Effy was gone forever.

 

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Publication Date: 04-26-2016

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