Song of a broken heart., A Person :) [black authors fiction txt] 📗

It breaks your heart, when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone as if they were never a huge part of your life. Your heart breaks and your head aches. And you feel like an ass for wanting them to feel the same way you do. It sucks to know that that one person is going to be fine without you, espically when you know.. you'll never be the same without them. You two used to be able to talk for hours on the phone and now you can't even look them in the god damn eye, it completely breaks your heart to know that good things change; even when you don't want them to. And what do you do when you already did everything? When you were so damn close to perfection. But it still wasn't enough. How are you supposed to react when he or she acts like nothing ever happened... When he or she treats you like you were friends. what do you do when you don't want to be friends? because it reminds you of what you used to be.. more. Why do you become the ass whole for wanting them to feel what you feel? To feel just as pathetic and anxious and confused as you do. It hurts to know you wait around all day for a text or a call or an email, hoping that they regret ending it and begging for another chance. And it kills you to know that if they did want to come back, no matter who pathetic or how stupid you feel... you would take them back in a heart beat. And the worst feeling of all is not knowing what you did to make them leave. you spend all day staring at the ceiling replaying every moment of your time together trying to catch whatever it was that you did. Even when you know it wasn't your fault. And when you do this about 3 or 4 times a day you get to the point where you can't think anymore. you pick up the phone to call him or her, but you know you just look pathetic so instead you lay back down. you bury your face in your pillow and scream your heart out. Tears start to run down your face and you think of who to call to make you feel better. But you know the only person who can make you laugh is him or her. so you cry and you cry so hard until it hurts, until you can't breath, until you cant think. And after all this you some how manage to find the strength to throw on a fake smile and stand in front of every one and be able to say i'm OK. Ill be OK. And nobody takes a second look cause no one notices. And you think you have fooled every one. but in your heart, you know the truth..that you lost someone very special, and now that person is just a hope, just a dream.. just a memory. Cause now he or she is gone. And there is nothing, absoultley nothing that you could have done to stop them. This is the last serenade of a weeping soul. This is a memory of someone special, this is the song of our conflicted minds... this is the song of a broken heart.. </3

Text: NOT FROM ME, I JUST WROTE IT IN THIS BOOK BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH..
Publication Date: 09-23-2011

All Rights Reserved

Dedication:
i can't dedicate it cause i didn't write it.. But the person who did write it dedicated it to that someone who broke they're heart...