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light door way came up from the ground. We pulled apart, and wiped our faces.
"When you think of me, remember, our shopping, and me teaching you the guitar, and our dinners with Lexi. Remember us dancing with Herman, and playing with Cookie. Remember everything I told you. I love you Ronan." She said pulling me in for another hug.
"I love you Jewls." i said, holding onto her.
"Remember me happy."
We pulled apart, and I nodded.
She held up her hand and I gave her A high five. We laughed. She looked at the door, and Sighed.
"Let Lexi know I love her." She gave me one last hug. "You shine so Bright, Ronan." She whispered pulling away.
She walked to the door.
"Thanks for the necklace." She said.
"Look after me."
"I will."
"Don't forget me."
"Never."
"Or Herman, Lexi or Cookie."
"Wouldn't dream of it." She laughed pulling me into a hug.
She kissed me and ran through the door. The light door faded. Jewls taught me a lot. I was heart broken to see her go. Even though Jewls had been dead for ten year, that After noon was the coldest when, for me, She died.. I fell to my knees, wrapped my arm around myself, and Cried. That night I wrote a song and Named it Jewls.
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I opened the car door and got out. I stood on the curb, with Cookie and looked at my house. I felt sick looking at it. I'd been without Jewls for three day's now, and when she left she took me with her. Mom and Dad came out of the house. Lexi hurried to them and told them something. They both looked sorry for me. I walked up the lawn.
"Get my things please." I said, passing my Mom with her open arms.
I hugged Lexi. After she promised to come get me for the summer, and spring break she left.
The next day at school, I sat on the table.
"How was everyone's break?"
Everyone yelled.
"I'm going to say something before i start. I went to my sisters for break and I met this girl. She shined like no one you ever saw. We spent a week together, I've never been close with anyone but her. Two days before I came home she was Killed."
Everyone gasped, their shoulders sagging.
"She taught me a lot of things. This song is called Jewls."
I played the guitar. Even through they weren't supposed to have them, everyone pulled out lighters.
"She wore big glasses, and hand Messy Blonde hair. Never had I seen someone so fierce. we got to know one another. It was a cold day in front of the music store when She leaned in and whispered: Don't you know everyone's different? Think about it Ronan, if we where all the same how boring would life be? You shine, I can tell. Oh I'll never understand why that man had to take Jewls. When she moved on she took my heart with her, oh I'll never be the same. I'll remember she taught me to play the guitar. She never said it, but she taught me we only have one life."
I played the guitar, looking at the end of the Neon orange dress I wore.
" It was a cold day in front of the music store when She leaned in and whispered: Don't you know everyone's different? Think about it Ronan, if we where all the same how boring would life be? You shine, I can tell. She was light, She was love, she was everything all above. the pain of losing her was something I'd never known. She always would laugh. I remember telling her, She was the most alive person I knew, Oh how her eyes shined. I'll never understand why, but I do know she's gone, now. I wear her favorite dress, and our matching necklaces to keep her close, but I wonder if it'll be enough to keep me whole. I learned how short life really was. There's so little time, we have to share. It was a cold day in front of the music store when She leaned in and whispered: Don't you know everyone's different? Think about it Ronan, if we where all the same how boring would life be? You shine, I can tell."
That song got the most cheering.
"Thanks guys. I also wanted to say that, I don't know a single one of you, But I love you all. Life is short, hold onto the ones you love. Mama loves her little freaks."
I got off of the bench, and was ambushed by hugs. First one girl with a tear streaked face, then everyone else. It was at that moment I knew, I was okay being alone. That night I was going through Pictures. The one that caught my eye was of me dancing with Herman. The best part was, you could see Jewls, laughing. I pined it to my wall. I stood back and wiped my wet face. I took a deep breath, and looked around my closet. This is me. all this is what I'm good at. I painted a canvas, and wrote Life after death? on it. I hung it above our picture.
"Ronan?"
I walked out.
"I know I've been A shity Mom."
"I won't forgive you."
"I understand. I know your hurt about your friend Jewls-"
"Please. Leave." I said, my throat swelling.
"Ronan, I want you to know I'm here for you."
"I With you told me that when I was three."
"I know you do-"
"I need to be alone." i said, shaking my head.
"I you need anything call for me." She said, as I shut the door to my bathroom.
I slid to the floor, covered my face, and cried until it was hard to breathe. I looked at the roof.
"Why'd you have to put her in my life?" I sobbed. "Don't you know I'm not strong enough for this kind of heart break?"
I got up and crawled into my bed. Cookie jumped up and layed next to me.
"We'll be fine. Jewls is watching us. That's why I can't cry anymore. I have to be strong for Jewls, and you." I said, pulling her close.
I closed my eyes and faded. The next day I didn't want to do to school. I got on my Facebook page and wrote a post.
'Sorry little freaks.the pain has consumed me. won't be in school today.'
I went to the bathroom, and then looked at my page. There was one post, that had 1,000 likes.
'Let's take a stand and not go to school today. Everyone light a candle, and put it on your window. Today we Honor the life of a Fallen Freak. R.I.P. Jewls. We all Love you.'
Of course that made me cry, even though I promised cookie I wouldn't. Good thing she was going potty. I got a blow of Captain crunch and sat at the bar. Dad patted my shoulder, I turned to him.
"Can I have a hug Daddy?" i asked.
He looked like he was fighting pain, as he held open his arms for me.
"She's in a better place." He said, softly.
"I wish she was next to me."
"Don't we all."
"I wish R.I.P meant, Return if possible."
You will get through this Ronan. You the strongest person I know."
I wiped a tear away. Even though he was a little Wacky, I still needed him. We parted as the phone rang. he answered the phone and I let Cookie in.
Dad left for work, and I finished my food.
"Aren't you supposed to be in school today?" Mom asked.
"I'm not going." I said, numbly.
"Goodbye then."
I stared out the back door, as she kissed my cheek and left. I looked at my phone as Lexi's ring tone went off. I stared at it until it stomped. I sighed, sat back, and pulled my hair into a bun. I finished off my captain crunch, some ice cream and watched movies all day. I knew it was going to take time to get through the loss of My first best friend. Shit life really sucks sometimes.
(continues in Life.)




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Publication Date: 10-11-2012

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Dedication:
Jewls taught me a lot. I was heart broken to see her go.