BitterSweet, Miss09 [good summer reads txt] 📗

to be found again.

I took a half hour shower it was long and soothing I put on PJ's I was only planning to stay home anyway to watch some Secret Circle or Vampire Dairies, they were my favorite shows every Thursday a new epidsode would be on, if I had to chose to be one of the girls I'd be Elena she had a hot boyfriend Stefan and his mysterious and kind of hot brother both wanting her at the same time on the other hand Cassie had Jake a blond hot guy who understood her he first came to kill her circle until he fell in love with her, it was the most romantic thing ever, but that was fake if only I could be a vampire or a witch or something magical, I would be alone exploring the world being in dark but very calming place it would be a dream come true.

I watched T.V for hours I felt like it was a waste I only had one life and I was doing this but I had good time it was so relaxing, I looked outside it was getting dark but it looked like a good time to go for a walk my mom and I lived partly out of town away form all the rush and the noises or at least that's what she said the town was quiet and very small barely anything to do, but I liked living out here the nature of this place was so beautiful and calm like something from a book it came second to my calmest place I'd ever been the cliff. I went and grabbed my sweater and my converse and out for a walk, as I walked it was queit I felt so at home while I was walking I heard something in the woods I went to go look what it was I know it sounded stupid to go into the woods in the dark, but I was to curious to care I walk over to the woods trying to get through some branches when I saw someone wearing black walking really fast towards me I tried to run but my hair was caught, I pulled my hair out it hurt like hell but I didn't care going to through pain as long as I got away from this creep, I ran fast like the wind I was always good at running I went race for the city when I was a little girl but came in second place, I ran for what seemed like forever but when I turned around no one was there, I felt like a fool running for so long when nothing was following me. I walked home I could already see my house. Once I got in my mom was finaly home before she could question me I said " I was home all day and went for a walk" before she could reply I ran up the stairs. when I finaly got in the room my stomach growled, I realised I never ate but I didn't care I didn't wanna face my mom after what I just did, she would wanna have a talk about my life and everything going on and I didn't wanna face it at the moment not now anyway.

I went in my room and drew pictures of the cliff the calmest place I knew suddenly I caught myself drawing Damen's warming and stunning eyes NO! stop you don't think of him that way he's nothing he's a player he probably found a new victim today with me gone and all once I go back he'll forget about me and I'll be back to what I was used to being by myself, being able to think straight and once enjoy school I only missed school 2 times through high school and now he comes and I wanna get away so bad I miss school, but it was worth it just for him to find someone else to bug Why me? int eh first place the loner in the corner personaly I blame Mr.Crane he just had to pair up people have he heard of individual work huh? has he ever? I was getting so stressed from one simple but hard day. I should just calm down and not think about because all of a sudden I have anger issues. Tonight I made sure to sleep early but it was hard but I manged to sleep around 11:30ish.

stay strong !

I woke up and was suprised I had no nightmares and I was glad I didn't they would just add stress and give me more anger issues, but as long as my planed worked and he was off with some other girl I was good. I got dressed in my white top with a black tank top under with light blue jeans and my converse writing all over designed by me and I loved them they had my name all over them litterly I straighted my hair which I never did but today I felt good about it confident and free. I grabbed my bag and a apple from a fridge wake me up more I stopped by Starbucks to get coffee, now that will wake me up for sure. When I got to school I couldn't find a parking spot anywhere finaly I parked a block from school such great luck so far. When I got to school I noticed Damon's car parked in the best spot ever in the parking spot usually Carla got it the barbie of the school you don't wanna mess with her if you do your practicaly dead!
When I walked in I went to my locker I was looking for my book I needed to hand into the library today and there I noticed Damon with his hand around Carla I felt like I got punched in the stomach and I couldn't breath he looked at me with those eyes those beautiful eyes. I didn't know why I felt so hurt I wanted this right did I really want this?

Damon looked away from me like he was ashamed of what he did I couldn't stand the look in his eyes like he was hurt to the fullest, but why was he hurting he had no right to he's the one with Carla but then again I pushed him away the one person who would talk to me and actually was interested in me I told to get away how could I? I now was annoyed with myself now I was relieved but hurt at the same time. When I got to my first class it was Pre calculas I found this class easy but when I walked in there was only one seat open next to Cam, I never talked to him once in my life and today was gonna be the day I was gonna. When I sat next to him he said "hello" I uttered "hey" he sat in complete awkward slience until he finaly he asked a question " how long have you been at this school" I felt annoyed at the thought I've been here for almost 5 months and no one, no one noticed me other than Damon until now " almost 5 months" I looked at him for the first time and his eyes could never compare to Damon's but they were green like how mine turned depending on my mood he looked shocked " uhm I'm sorry I just can't believe you been here this long and I never noticed you" I just nodded and looked away. At the end of class he ran up to me with his blond hair and green eyes with oliver skin he was cute in a way he laughed " hey once again " I now responded with courage

" aha hey you , " with a laugh

he smiled instantly it looked cute
" wanna meet after school ."

I froze up all of a sudden he was talking to me and now this I didn't know what to what to say and before I could think of something he said " I'll take that as a yes." and walked away.

The day went by fast and before I knew it it was 3:30 and I took as a long as I could at my locker I put all my books away in a order and grabbed my backpack and walk to the front doors and there he was standing there waiting I walked up to him he was smiling he had dimples and they suited him well I realized I was going to enjoy this.

" wanna go somewhere ?" he asked

"and where is this somewhere?" I said with a laugh.

" surprise you'll see when we get there."

We were walking together through the parking lot when I noticed Damon staring he looked hurt once again but more this time Carla was standing next to him holding his hand which made me feel even worse, filled with so much anger I grabbed Cam's hand he smiled and held it with a steady grip I blushed and finaly I forgot about something

" what about my car ?"

" we'll come get it later." I just looked into Damon's eyes he looked like he was in pain he just stared like a lost puppy and soon I felt regretful when I had no reason to he was with Carla now so why should I care ?

when I looked at Damon he was walking towards us when he came up to us he said " May I have a word with Scarlet for a sec? " Cam said " As long as it's okay with her. " I was shocked but all I could do was nod, I followed Damon where we were alone he said

" What's this all about?" Damon whispered

I felt so bad I said " what are you talking about." I said it so quiet I was suprised he heard me. he took my hand a pulled me towards my car he grabbed my keys and put me in the passenger seat, and went to the driver's seat I was confused to the fullest but I didn't say a word. We drove for what seemed like 30 minutes in awkward silence, but I didn't care because I had nothing to say I was mad at him I could have been with sweet Cam instead of this jerk here . " I'm no jerk!" he said with anger I was astonished I hadn't said a word since the parking lot and I realized where we were going to the clift, so I stayed quiet because this was my scared place a place where I wanted no anger.

When we got there I went sit down enjoying the view the sun looked amazing but not close to the person who shall not be named at the moment. I felt him staring at me