Dear, Diary, Melissa Cazarin [distant reading .txt] 📗

Dear, Diary
By: Melissa Cazarin (This is based on a true diary from me)


January 30th 2011
Hello my new Diary How do I start? Well your new I haven’t really had a Diary in my life. To me your new like a mother with a newborn baby. For the first time. that is. I don’t even know how to use one. Ha-ha my consular said I can write whatever I want but only positive things. That I can do. As you read this I’m going to tell you every possible things that is happening about my life so far. How do I start? I don’t know what I might talk about today. I should talk about my weight. I’ve been gaining a lot of pounds lately. I should be out there running. Not here on the computer like a fat blob. Today is my birthday. A fat sixteen girl old girl. But no worries because I am going to loss the weight the next year! I hate remembering the passed. When I was only eleven in forth grade my friend Ryan passed away. He was only nine. Can you believe that? Nine… no one knew for sure why he died in his room with a t-shirt around his neck. But I think I do. He was always depress. Maybe he was so depressed he had to kill him self. The last time I saw him, he was crying but smiling and waved good bye. If only I had said something like. “See you tomorrow” or “I‘ll miss you in the weekend.” but my fat mouth was shut and I didn’t say anything to him. My other friend Devon died too. On September the 19th in a car accident coming back from school. The sad part is his cousin was in the same car too. No seat belt. I wish I can go back till I was nine and predict the future. But I cant that’s life. Sad, sad life. C yea…

February 1st 2011 (2:33pm)
Today was fun at my school I met this boy in my P.E class. We talked so much I hardly took a breath. He probably thought I was annoying. I have A.D.H.D that explains everything. I showed him a video called “Techno Chicken” on my phone. He laughed and said he will show it to his friends. It made me smile I met someone funny and cool. I’m going to the store because my birthday was two days ago. I got seventy-five dollars. So I’m waiting to buy lots of awesome, extremely, beautiful things. Maybe some pills to loss weight. I’m just playing. (Smiles)

Wednesday February 2nd 2011 (4:34pm)
Right I’m sitting with my mom and taking care of my pumpkin plant we planted in our school. My friends in school are so silly. I’m glad I have friends. What can I do without them. There’s nothing really to talk about I’m sorry but I guess this is good bye.

February 3 2011 (Tuesdays)

Okay it felt pretty much like yesterday. Same things people making me laugh, learning in school, and so on. Oh I went to see “The Rite” it was a fantastic movie. Wasn’t that scary at all. I’m more into horror movies. I ate some ice cream before with my sister and my mom. But something happened after that. My sister throw away the trash and my mom asked for her credit card. She couldn’t find it. My mother said “I think you through it in the trash!” the funniest thing ever was watching them dig into the garbage. But later it became sad. Losing something important is really sad and frustrating. that’s all I have to say. Bye.

February 4th Friday (2:30pm)
This morning Fredly a friend of mine. Ran into the door. Everyone laughed. I knew it was painful because he was really angry. It was all Johnny’s fault he shut the door right through his face! All I said was if he was okay. He said no but no one wants to mess with Fredly he’s the big guy. He wanted to start violence in school. But I left and moved on. Nothing happened he left and walked away that was a good choice!

February 5th 2011 (Saturday)
My brother Carlos is yelling at his girlfriend blah, blah, blah he’s so annoying! Well, I’m going to the pawn shop my favorite store! (Later) Oh my gosh! Its like 10:48pm and I’m in the trampoline with my little causing Amy and we both saw six UFO”S not at the same time maybe every three minutes. Okay I lied they were Seattleites but then I saw a flash in the air. It couldn’t be an airplane. I think it was something else. Its amazing what’s out there. Where not alone.

February 6 2011 (Sunday)
I’m babysitting Alex. I hate babysitting for only one reason! I’m scared something might happened. But my mother always tell think positive and nothing will happened. That don’t help at all! Yay! Still can’t wait to go to the store! I’m going to buy movies and more! Wow maybe it did work after all I’m not worried no more. Thanks mom I love you!

February 8th 2011 (Tuesday)

New kid in our class his name is Jon. He’s on my bus and he told me he was gay. Not in a rude way. Nothing wrong with that. Nothing interesting happened today. Bye.

February 11th 2011 (Friday)
It’s Friday. Sorry I haven’t talk to you in like two days. Its just nothings happening so far. My mom bought me a candy bar. Yeah getting more fat! I went to Amy’s house like always. Her dad gave me a one hundred dollar bill. I don’t know what to buy anymore. We had a Barbie Q at her house. It was kind of fun chilling with the family.

February 13 (Sunday) 10”00pm
I’m so bored life can be boring sometimes. Everything boring. The fun part about today is I’m still waiting to go to the store. My mom is just to busy and my sister works all day and go’s to school at night. Just not fair. I want to drive, go anywhere I want. I just have to wait. Sorry dairy but I don’t feel like talking anymore.

March 1
Oh my gosh! You won’t believe who I saw today! I saw my best friend Troy I haven’t seen him in four years! I saw him at the end of the day and I hugged him and I walked out of the room so excited and cursing He looks much older and I look much fatter. You know what I’m really not talking good about myself I’m always talking bad about myself on how fat I am or how ugly I’ll get. I should stop and be happy the way I am. Today was the best day ever for me.

March 7
I’m sorry I haven’t talked in like about a week its just Troy. I was talking to him the whole time. I guess I’m just so happy I’m talking to him because I haven’t seen him in forever! He liked me back then when he was thirteen I kissed him befour. Now he’s my age. He changed a lot Troy isn’t the same no more. He’s doing drugs that can kill him. He already went to jai for that. that’s what I herd. I Can’t believe how the world can change. You just never know what might happened. You just have to wait and see your self how life can be so frightening.

March 10th
I got into a fight at school with this boy name Chris. He pushed me twice and I just snapped and punched him in the face. I didn’t mean too. that’s not me! I felt so bad. I wanted to say sorry. But instead I cried like a baby. After I punched him he said, “Why did you do that?” I think he said that. Teachers saw and where speechless and emotional. Speaking of fights there was an other one this morning. My friend Dylan got pushed by a boy named Stefan. Dylan pushed him back really hard and said, ”Don‘t fucking push me!” gosh I hate Wright down the F bomb makes me cramp up. I hate that word. I felt bad about Stefan he’s autistic and Dylan can’t push him back. I would just say sorry for whatever reason. Well I really know what happened Dylan was putting water on the floor for Stefan can fall. Than Stefan got into Dylan’s way and Dylan said, “watch where your going hairy potter!” And that’s what caused the fight. I know cause I was there.

Match 17th
Happy St. Patrick’s day! Gosh I never been so bored in my life! I sing really grate! I nailed that song called “Un break My Heart” by Toni Boxton I think that’s how you spell her name. I love singing. Sometimes I wish I can show the world my singing. I wish I can be famous! It’s not fair some people got famous from youtube, and they don’t even sing that good! Justin bebier and Miley Cyrus sing way better then Selena Gomez. Diary, you’re my best friend so far. No one likes talking to me anymore. Your better then my best friend Nicole I knew for six years. You listen to every word I say. I’m glad I have you. I was going to write on you everyday but I get so busy and there’s nothing to Wright about. I guess I’m done weighting for today talk to you soon. Bye.

March 18th
At last it’s spring break! I’m out of school and took pictures of Jabaree an other friend and Fredly. There nice kids I guess. I’m going to miss him! I’m going to read a text someone send me I don’t know who it is because I’m busy Righting on you, your important right now. (Later) Ya! Jon taxed me he said if I wanted to hang out with him. I really want to but my mom don’t know him that well. I said no to him and he said it was fine he understands. Honestly I didn’t really wanted to go with him. I was probably lazy. Instead I stayed home and singed “Monsoon” and “Un break My Heart” I still need to practice. I wonder if your going to last. What I mean about that is I wonder if I’m really going to Wright on you forever. I’m bored and hungry. I’m going to eat tacos. Mmm…

March 19th
I’m so tired. But the best part is I’m going to the grand buffet! (6pm) I ate sushi and stuff ahh.. I’m so bored. Going home c ya tomorrow.

March 20th (8:30pm)
Me and my mom went bike riding. I bought myself a toothbrush. Can I bring a mouth wash to school? It has alcohol. I’m not going to drink it! It’s for my teeth. I guess I’ll have to find out! Never mind I told my sister she said yeah.

March 21
I bought this stupid cheap ass thing it’s a stupid microphone that was forty-two dollars. What I waste! I’m so angry right now! Oh please make them return it. I herd that target don’t return used or open items and I did open and used it! I want my money back.

March 23
I got my money back (smiles) going to the fair on Sunday I really wish I could.