I've Been Broken, but not Like This, Kktwilight [books on motivation txt] 📗

My dad left me when I was only five. He came back then left again. He left over and over again, and when he came back I felt even worse. Him trying to get back into my life.And everytime. Every single time. I let him back into my heart, he left. Each time he left fewer and fewer pieces of my heart were broken. I'm nothing like my friends. They all have full families. A father, a mother, and sometimes they have siblings. But me. All I have is a mom. A mom who to me is both a mom and a friend. For their birthdays. They got money, gift cards, stuff like that. But for my birthday. I got stupid court files. Yes, on my birthday my dad decided it would be a great present to give. Along with 5 dollars. In quarters. “Mom, do you know how ridculos and pathetic this is? He sent me court files and five bucks. He wants to gain custody over me on my birthday. Whats for Christmas? Adoption forms?” My mom just sighed and looked at me. “Child, there is no possible way for him to get custody over you. Not with him leaving you all the time. Plus all your clothes cost more than he get paid.” I shook my head. “That is sad. How is supposed to take care of me. I don't even know if has a family of his own. And what if he get tired of me and leaves me? What i'm supposed to do?” The phone rang. “I have to call your social worker and a laywer.” I sighed looking at the phone. It was my so called “father”. “Hello.....ya not such a happy birthday over here, how do you even know my birthday. You certaintly weren't there when I was born........Whatever. I hope you know you're gonna lose this case........Of course I got the stupid court files.........You thnk that it would be better for me? How?.......When has my mom EVER hurt me.If she has, it was little nothing big like the mess you casued........ Dude just hang up. Don't talk to me until we go to court.” My mom just stared at me she knows I act like this towards him but see can never get over the fact that I do. He hurt me. That's something nobody will understand.

My mom got in contact with my social worker and i got in touch with my best friend. Her name was Chantell and we practicly grew up together. When i told her what had happen she BLACKED OUT! that girl went crazy. We was worried that we might not be able to see eachother again. But somehow we knew things would work out. Chantell came over my house for dinner."Girl, if you only knew where that man lives. we would be marching up there. I'll hit grown man. Trying to take my best friend away from me." Chantell has been talking all through dinner. i've been eating my fried fish and laughing. "only if i knew his address. Mom! we can fight back. We can take all he owes us." We all laughed. "Only if we could honey. only if we could." Chantell rolled her eyes and reached for her third piece o fish. "You know imma be up in that court with you the whole time. He ain't gonna get you." I laughed. 

After dinner Chantell and I went to my room, where she was plotting to hurt the person who hurt me the most. Right in the middle of her talking crazy my phone rang. i knew who it was. Why did i answer the freaking phone again? I have know idea.(I think it was cause i wanted to yell @ him again.) "Hello?......... OMG! dude why you keep calling?....... You already know there is know way your getting custody over me, with your attitude and how long you can stay in my life......... yea, yea i know same story " I'm sorry baby, it's been hard for me to get back on my feet."..............Well it's old i don't care if it's true or not, but i no for a fact you can't be tryin to get back on your feet every other month................. Ok whatever. Just leave, again and again. Oh wait you already did that. Sorry wasn't trying to copy you, it just seems like the perfect pattern to follow.............BYE!"

Chantell looked at me. "You forgot to get the address. How do you forget bout the address? " I rolled my eyes. When i was younger my whatever he's supposed to be, did all the talking all i did was sit there with the phone on my ear saying 'yea, uhuh' But now i don't care what he thinks or says cause he will never, ever, be a man in my heart. "Chantell, i'm scared of hurting him even more than anyone can, i don't think i could risk him using it against mom." Chantell sighed." I guess we won't be able to risk that. I gotta get going. Babysitting tonight,i'll see you at school." I walked Chantell to the door, We hugged each other and she left back, alone with the only parent in my life, my mom and my best friend.

Publication Date: 09-27-2010

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