Living In Darkness, Holli Finch [chrome ebook reader .txt] 📗




Chapter One

I feel lost I’m all alone he promised to keep me safe and would never leave where is he now?
Does he even realize I’m gone. I am living in a room inside my own mind every where I turn I see death everyone I love I have lost why am I done this way? Does he even care that I am going crazy does he even know that even though I have told him over and over.
I am alone even though the voices are always there wanting me to case harm to the people that I used to care about. Here they go again don’t talk to him forget him they always say he says he cares and really likes you but then hook up with your best friend. I can’t do that I cry so I pick up my blade I know I promised not but I have to feel the rush I put the blade to my wrist I press down and slowly pull. It stings a little but I am used to it, the blood red and shiny alone with my tears it shines. I lost my two best friends they where brothers twins to be exact Justin and Dustin. Lets start from the begging so you know the who story. I’m Elizabeth Starr Andrews when I first moved up here I like Dustin a lot and I didn’t know he liked me so I started to look at him like a brother. Then I got close to Justin to close I gave my everything to him figuring we would be together then to find out he was with one of my friends Johanna I felt so used and untrue. But it went on for weeks till he went to juvie and then truth came out everything he asked me to hold I threw down I had his necklace and a few other things I threw them to Dustin. I also lost my best friend that day if I only knew it would have never happen I do not regret what I did nor my feelings but the way everything went down it was wrong. Then I cut off all contact with Justin deleted his number and changed mine always pretended he didn’t exist. Soon I found myself close to Dustin and we began to wonder if there was something there. Someone told me he liked me and someone told him I liked him. Then he began to tell me the dreams he had about us. Then he stayed over one night and we was watching a movie and chillin on the couch and we started talking and he said he wanted to kiss me and see where it went and when we kissed it wasn’t like a spark flew it was kinda a hungry thriving feeling. And thing went a long way as we grew closer we became insepratible , always together like we where dating even though we wasn’t. After a couple of months between me and Dustin grew stronger and one day I began to fill sick constantly throwing up and crapping and missed my period for 3 months and I found out I was pregnant. Then me and Dustin grew apart loosing our connection.

Chapter two

I let Justin back in only as friends we became close again I was happy to have him back he was my best friend. He helped me threw everything because Dustin acted like he didn’t even care. Then one full moon night we where both very angry. And the voices in my head was causing me a great deal of pain not including then twins I was carrying inside me. Justin had demons inside him who wished to be free and if he came out threw Justin and flayed one hand on my stomach it would all be over and the demon would take over forever. I helped Justin threw his pain even though I had my own. Then Justin’s urges came out I was sitting on the porch stairs. Justin was so close to my face I knew he was gunna kiss me I wanted but I couldn’t let it happen. And then he kissed me I sat still and let him kiss me I didn’t kiss him back just sat there like a stone cold dead person. My eyes like a burning fire he apologized and I said it was fine even though it wasn’t. he was still close to my face rubbing his check against mine. And then he kissed me again this time I couldn’t fight back I kissed back. It was a hard hungry kiss needy wanted like a starving kiss. He didn’t expect me to kiss back I couldn’t help it. Soon we was hungry for more wanted needed. He kissed me again then butterfly kisses down my neck then he bit me neck and my eyes raged like fire. I began to tease it was what came naturally to me when I was with him and everything was kinda rough.He was my dark angel. We became close again then drifted. I began to go crazy when my dad died he was my best friend. I totally lost it. I stopped talking to everyone stayed to my self then the voices came and I was pulled into the dark.Cutting my wrist to make me forget the pain I had already endured because I could control the pain in which I caused myself.

Publication Date: 06-03-2011

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