Renesmee, L.Perez [the first e reader .TXT] 📗

to sob, wishing I could take all those evil words I said back, wishing I hadn’t thrown myself at Jacob like that, just wishing I hadn’t been born. I leaned against a tree and slumped down onto the ground, still sobbing, and curled up in a wet ball and kept crying. I kept my forehead placed atop of my knees with my arms wrapped around. I sobbed and shook uncontrollably from the pouring freezing rain but didn’t move. I cried for what seemed eternity until I heard someone yell my name. Someone called for me again and again and came closer and closer until it was very close. I held my breath and stayed very still; I hadn’t had enough time to sob. “Renesmee,” I heard Jacob’s deep husky voice say. “Just leave me alone okay?” I shouted, springing up and darting through the trees, weaving in and out, running full speed ahead trying to lose him. I tried. Somehow his arms managed to constrict around my torso. I failed as much as I could and I kicked and wiggled but to no avail. Finally realizing that I wasn’t getting anywhere, I slumped into his warm arms and sobbed. He turned me around and gently stroked my hair and held my shaking body as it heaved with sobs. I hugged Jacob tightly and touched his face and just thought of how sorry I was; I knew I wasn’t going to be able to say it without sobbing even louder. Jacob leaned down and whispered “Let’s get you out of the rain,” and lifted me up into his arms as I wrapped my arms around his neck and ran. As Jacob ran, I managed to calm my sobbing into sniffles and as the sobbing lessened, I started to slip away, so tired from crying and stress. My arms started to slip from Jacob’s shoulders and he tried to put them back in place. Jacob said something but I couldn’t hear. I told myself to stay awake but my eyelids kept drooping. “Renesmee, you okay?” Jacob asked as his little red house came closer. “So…tired…” I managed to whisper. Jacob laughed and kissed my cheek and said “Sleep, it’s okay, your fine.” I tried to shake my head but it felt so heavy. “No, I messed everything up.” My words came out slurred. Jacob said nothing as the door opened and nothing as he walked into his room and set me gently on the bed. He went to the door, closed it and came back. As I watched his face, tears started to come again. I didn’t deserve Jacob; he was unselfish, kind, loving and forgiving. He sat next to my head, stroked my wet hair and whispered “What’s wrong?” I placed my hand on his face and replayed everything. He laughed and said “We had a fight, big deal.” He wipped the tears away and kissed my forehead. I touched his lips and then suddenly wondered what time it was. Jacob looked over and said “It’s only six-thirty, but you can’t go running in that storm.” I nodded and looked at my clothes; they were soaked. Jacob followed my eyes and chuckled “I don’t wanna have to argue with your mom and I don’t want you to get sick so we need to get your wet clothes off.” I nodded and sleepily got into a sitting position. I started to take my shirt off; Jacob turned around. I laughed and said “Not like you haven’t seen me without a shirt on before.” Jacob said nothing and didn’t turn but I knew he was blushing, I was too. I stood and took off my pants and said “Done,” meaning ‘I’m done so go get me some clothes’ but he didn’t understand and turned around. I yelped and helplessly tried to shield my body with my arms. Jacob’s eyes bulged as he took me in, almost completely naked. “Perv!” I shouted and jumped into the bed, covering myself with the blanket, blushing all the while. He looked at my face, completely red faced and said “Oh crap! Nessie, I’m so sorry! When you said ‘done’ I thought you meant you were dressed! Crap, I’m sorry!” Looking at his red face, wet shaggy hair, and soaked white t-shirt that clung to his every muscle, it kinda turned me on. “Why are you smiling?” Jacob asked, completely confused. I blushed, looked down, smiling even bigger and said “Nothing.” Jacob sighed and said “You are such a weird chick,” I looked up through narrowed eyes and he smiled and continued “But that’s why I love you.” I smiled. “Jacob, I’m getting cold,” I reminded him. He nodded and went into his closet and grabbed a few things and came back out with a sweat shirt, two pairs of sweats and two t-shirts. He threw me a pair of sweats, a t-shirt and the sweat shirt. I knew they were going to be much too big on me and rolled my eyes. “Turn around perv,” I said with a smile. He smiled and turned around and took off his shirt. I watched him and felt a sudden rush of pride; he was mine! YES! Ha! He turned a bit so he could look at me, still pulling down his new t-shirt and said “And I’m the perv? Ha right,” and smiled. I laughed and said “Hey? You got a free look, my turn,” and winked. I got up with the blanket wrapped tightly around me and my clothes and walked to the corner furthest from Jacob. Jacob laughed, rolled his eyes and started taking his pants off. My eyes bulged and I looked away, red faced. I heard Jacob chuckle and cleared my throat. I turned my back to Jacob but peeked over to make sure he wasn’t looking. Jacob wasn’t looking, so with a sigh I dropped the blanket. I felt completely naked but obviously I wasn’t…not really. I bent down to pick up the pants and when I did, I saw Jacob peeking. I thought I would scream and jump into the open closet or something close to it but instead, I did the complete opposite; I smiled and just pulled them on. Then I grabbed the shirt and put it on, feeling Jacob watching my back and shivered. Once the freaking shirt was on, I pulled on the sweat shirt and turned around, picking up the blanket and walking toward Jacob. Jacob smiled and I smirked at him and said “I saw you peeking.” He smiled even wider and said “Well you didn’t stop me so it doesn’t matter.” Smiling, I rolled my eyes and walked over to where Jacob stood and wrapped my arms around him. He lifted me off the ground and kissed me with such intensity; we both fell onto the bed. We laughed, still kissing. I wrapped my legs around him, exhaustion completely forgotten, and pulled him closer to me. “Calm down girl,” I told myself, “This is what got you two out in the rain in the first place.” But I just couldn’t help myself! Every time Jacob kissed me, I went crazy. The kissing became even more intense, like we both were thinking the same thing. Jacobs’s lips moved from my lips to my jaw to my ear to my neck. He very lightly nibbled on my neck and my mind just went blank. My eyes rolled into the back of my head a little, and my breathing quickened. I ran my hand through Jacob’s long shaggy black hair and shivered convulsively when I felt his hot breath on my collarbone. Jacob was just starting to nibble on my neck when there was a loud knock at the window. Startled, Jacob sunk his teeth into my neck. I screamed, totally shocked. Did Jacob just BITE me? My neck throbbed painfully and stung as I felt the cold air lick at it. Even though it hurt, I thanked god that Jacob was a Werewolf and not a Vampire, because getting bitten would have been bad…very, very bad. Grandpa Carlisle searched for information on my growth after the Volturi left and Grandpa Carlisle’s efforts just weren’t getting anywhere until the Amazon coven contacted us with an emergency. (Huilen and Nahuel had grouped with the Amazons and had become a part of the Amazon coven.) Our covens met and we found out that one of Nahuels sister’s had been bitten; she died a week later, slowly and agonizingly. Grandpa Carlisle examined her body and said it was like having an overdose of drugs, except venom was much more painful. So being bitten wouldn’t be good. Jacob’s voice brought me back to reality. “Renesmee, Renesmee, you okay?” I blinked a few times and smiled. “Ouch.” He rubbed his face a few times, sighed and quickly pecked me on my lips and started to move back. When he tried to move back, I grabbed his shoulders and pulled him close to me and whispered into his ear “Even though that hurt like a bitch, I’d like for you to do it again, but this time on purpose.” He laughed into my ear and whispered back “You screamed loud as hell, why would I do it again?” I bit his neck, lightly, and heard his breath leave and whispered “Because you know you wanna.” He laughed and kissed the side of my lips and wrapped his arms around my waist. We had totally forgotten about the knock at the window when someone knocked again. We both jumped and laughed. Jacob quickly bent down to kiss wear he had bitten me and got up and went to the window. I grabbed my phone and took a picture and quickly looked at it; it wasn’t even red. Ha! I sighed heavily with relief and hopped up and off the bed and went to Jacob’s side. It was Quil, Jared, and Embry. “Hey guys,” I said. All their eyes went to me with shock, like I’d just appeared out of nowhere and back to Jacob. It was silent for two heart beats then suddenly they all laughed loudly. I looked to Jacob, whose face was redder than a ripe tomato and wondered what was going on. Quil and Embry kept chuckling, while Jared just smiled. “What?” I asked. Jared answered me. “Jacob here” -pointing to Jacob- “said he was asleep, that’s why it took him so long to open the damn window.” I stared at Jared and felt the blush fill my cheeks, making them all laugh again. I laughed too but said “Well it’s not what you guys think.” “Sssuuurrreee,” Quil said. That brought on a whole new round of laughing. I blushed and said “Shut up Quil, don’t make me bring out that time I found you sneaking out of the woods with Claire, with twigs and leaves falling out of her hair, wait oops, it just did,” and laughed with everyone. Quil jumped up and down and said “Heyy! No fair. Fine, truce,” and extended his hand to me. I shook his hand. “So what’s up?” I asked, leaning into Jacob. Jacob wrapped his arms around my waist and held my hands. “Were having a bonfire Friday night and just wanted to know if Jake here was in,” Jared said. I looked up to Jacob and said “Are we?” Jacob looked down at me shrugged and said “If you wanna.” I smiled, stretched my neck up and kissed Jacob and looked back to Jared and said “Yep, we’ll be there.” Jared nodded and said “Alright then, see you guys Friday, it starts at eight, don’t be late or there won’t be any food left,” and smiled. I smiled back and said “Hey Jared, is the whole gang gonna be there?” He nodded and said “Everyone’s coming, but only us, not the elders.” I nodded and said “Well tell Kim I said hi.” He smiled and said “I will.” Everyone exchanged some words and then