A CHILDHOOD GONE, Renae Naik [websites to read books for free txt] 📗

Shaun that she wouldn't press any charges in exchange he allows her to move out peacefully. She stayed with a friend for a week and went to work from her house until she found a place for her and the kids.

One night whilst visiting the children, Shaun called Sadie to the bedroom to talk. When she got into the room he keyed the door behind him. He then pushed her onto the bed and asked if she was sure that she wanted to leave. Sadie then begins telling him all the stuff that she'd been carrying in her heart and at the end of that they both were in tears. But Shaun had a twisted mind he was going to let her leave so easily. He told her to sit up straight and he took a razor blade and set it in front of her. He then proceeds to tell her that her family is well aware that she had a habit of self-mutilating and tells her that if she doesn't slit her wrists and take her life, he will do it for her. Usually this would be easy for her to do but this time she was scared. She detested the fact that he was once again trying to control her. She threw the blade onto the floor and it was then when he pushed down and placed a pillow over her face trying to suffocate her.

Ciara heard her mother's muffled screams for air and ran out to get help, but Jayden spoke loudly while asking where she was going and Shaun heard. He quickly let go of Sadie and ran out to call Ciara in. Ciara was almost at a neighbor's house when she heard her father call her. Being as scared as she was of him she listened and came back home. During that time Sadie sent a message to a friend and that person alerted the police. She also had a voice recording of Shaun threatening to take her life. When he got back he knew he had lost this battle. The day Sadie was moving they agreed that Ciara would stay with her while Jayden will remain with Shaun and in exchange Sadie would pay his rent as he was still unemployed. He gave Sadie absolutely nothing and even took away her wedding ring. While Sadie was moving her belongings he took Jayden and went somewhere.

CHAPTER 12

After twelve years of marriage Sadie would walk out of a bond she never thought would break. Yet Shaun did everything to break her. At this point enough was enough and she was independent. She knew what she brought to the table and she wasn't afraid to eat alone. The first night in her new apartment was exciting and also a very heartbreaking time for her. She never slept away from their house before unless it was at the hospital when their kids were born. She cried and cried and she needed to because she was drowning and didn't realize it. She needed to let go of the pain inside her and focus on her new beginning. Ciara was a bit tense trying to Adjust to her new surroundings but when they slept... It was peaceful. They were no longer imprisoned with Shaun as the warden. They were free. No more cries, no more screams, no more vulgar languages and most of all... No more beatings. It had come to end.

The weekend had come and he dropped Jayden off at Sadie's place and left. Sadie made all Jayden’s favorites. She was asking him about his week when Jayden tells her " we were at daddy's girlfriend's house" it occurred to her that she was right all along and when Shaun came to pick Jayden up she told him she knew what he was doing and she was filing for a divorce. It wasn't long after when Shaun had moved in with this person and Sadie no longer felt guilty about her affair. She was happy and was living life differently. It was not even a month later and it was late at night when he brought Jayden and dropped him off with all his belongings just to be spiteful. Despite Sadie paying his rent he didn't keep up to his half of the deal. When Sadie called the police he looked at her straight in the face and denied that she had given him any money for anything. Sadie broke down.

For seven years she had worked and supported their household after he had been retrenched and till now he didn't appreciate a thing! She had limited time to find a caregiver to help with Jayden while she was at work and was lucky enough to find someone in the same complex she lived in. The children grew fond of the new person that Sadie had brought into their lives and they got along well with him. They were happy when he came by and sad when he left. The four of them would watch movies together, bake, paint and act silly. Sadie began to count all her blessings and was grateful to the new man in her life for not treating her kids badly. He was humble, kind and had a heart of gold. He accepted her with both her kids openly. While she misses many of Shaun's traits she accepted that he was now happy and she didn't regret leaving that life. Everything was peaceful and happy and she continued doing her very best for kids and herself.

CHAPTER 13

6 months later, the family had just had their dinner and Sadie, Ciara and Jayden are making invites and planning Jayden's 7th birthday party. This year he wants and Avengers theme. He was fond of cars and loved superheroes. They were up till late talking making jokes and laughing and then decided to call it a night. The next day, it's October 12th 2017 and Jayden is unable to sleep. His sleep broke around 5:15am he has a fever and is feeling unwell so Sadie calls Shaun and tells him that he needs to take Jayden to the doctor. When Jayden begins speaking to Shaun, Shaun suddenly bursts into tears and said that he was on his way. Ciara and Sadie fed Jayden yoghurt and gave him some water as he has hardly eaten anything the night before. Ciara helped dress him and shortly after Shaun arrived.

He was swearing at Sadie saying she can't look after Jayden. She explained that he should take the child and go to hospital as she needs to go to work and can't stand there arguing. To their misfortune Shaun's car breaks down and now he has to wait for other transport. Sadie kisses Jayden and gets onto the bus outside her complex. She sits next to her boyfriend and tells him that something isn't right and she has a bad feeling. It was around twenty minutes later when her phone rang, it was Shaun. She answered and he said "Jayden's gone!” and he was crying nonstop. Sadie immediately got off the bus and rushed to the clinic. When she got there some of Shaun's family members were already there, they didn't greet her or anything as they were upset the couple had split and blamed her for it. She went into the room that Jayden was in and broke into tears. She could not believe her eyes. Just yesterday they had sent out invites for his party and now there lies the lifeless body of a child she brought into this world.

A child she shared her body with for nine months and shared everyday of her life with him since then, was no more. The person who used to make her smile so much and give her the strength to keep going has now brought tears to her eyes with his departure. Although Jayden had a disability, she never thought of him as a burden. He was her everything. Even Ciara was sidelined at times because Jayden was more of a priority. From small Ciara wouldn't do things that she knew Jayden couldn't do. She didn't want him to feel left out so, being the loving big sister that she was, she would deprive herself. She wouldn't go to the play pens at restaurants or even to the park. She loved her brother and took care of him. He was all she had while Sadie was at work.

The day Sadie lost her son Shaun blamed her and told her many times that she had killed her son. Which mother would do that? but there will always be a part of Sadie that feels that this was her KARMA. Sadie loved both her children and losing one of them was the hardest. She has been through so much and survived and the last thing she wanted was to let go of Jayden. She didn't care that he couldn't walk she was just grateful that he was alive; she could hear his laugh, see his smile and witness the sparkle in his eyes. Jayden passed away exactly 2 months before his 7th birthday and since Jayden loved cars so much he took his last ride to the crematorium in a huge stylish black hummer. Three days after his cremation, Sadie and Shaun released his ashes into the sea as his wish was always to go to the beach and the family never had an opportunity to take him. They both came back home and went their separate ways. Their divorce was finalized and they now live two completely different lives with two completely different people compared to what they were used to.

Sadie really loved Shaun and she will always have a bit of love that she spent some of her childhood with. She had given him twelve selfless years of her life to him. She thought that Shaun was true love but all he did was, sell her a love story and she was a compulsive buyer. The love they shared was just not enough to make their marriage work and Shaun’s temper had a very big role to play in pushing her to the edge.

CHAPTER 14

It has been a year since the death of Jayden; he would have been 8 while Ciara is now 12. Till date Sadie is with the same partner and they have plans of being married soon.

In the 28 years that she has been around, Sadie has endured it all. She still sits and cry for her son daily as all he left her with was emptiness. She is surviving but not living. At the end of the day she still has Ciara and now is the time to make up for the times she made Ciara feel like she wasn't important. Ciara is her main focus and while Jayden is no longer with them, he is never forgotten. They recently went to put flowers for him at sea. What an emotional time for the family it was! While going there under those circumstances, Sadie had to bear in mind that Ciara hadn't been to the beach before so she had be strong and keep her head on her shoulders and while her heart was being ripped into a 1000 pieces, she had to wear her biggest smile and show her daughter a good time.

 

There is one thing that can't be taken away from her and those are his memories. His face is etched in Sadie's heart and tattooed onto her soul. He will never be forgotten. Sadie still keeps her head up despite all that she had experienced and wears her tragedies like armor, even the scar on her forehead, is a constant reminder of when life tried to get the better of her and failed. Yes, she made her fair share of mistakes but what matters is that she learnt from them. Don't do what make others happy, do