Just A Kiss (Part 2), zzmbrashear [i have read the book TXT] 📗

pointed to the star on her purple dress. I ran my fingers through her long blond curly hair. She looked up at me with her beautiful green eyes.
“Mommy?” She asked me.
“Yes.” I replied.
“Why can’t I see you more?” She asked. My heart almost broke. She is so beautiful. I hated myself for not making more time for her. “One boy said it was because you didn’t love me.” She stated. That was it. My heart shattered into a million pieces. I saw it before my eyes. Spread across the wet ground. I looked up at the tree’s above me. They were beautifully red and orange.
“Don’t! Ever! Let anyone tell you that!” I told her with tears rolling down my cheeks.
“Okay, Mommy.” She said. “Don’t cry.” I tried to dry my tears.
“So do you like James?” I asked her.
“Yeah, he’s okay. What does getting married mean?” She asked me.
“Well, sweetheart, its what happens when two people are madly in love and want to spend the rest of there life with each other.” I told her.
“So you and James love each other?” She asked.
“Very much so.” I told her.
“Oh.” She said and then took another lick of her ice cream.
“Do you like James?” I asked her.
“He’s okay.” She said.

I knew she liked Jacob more but I’m getting married to James. He’s the one I love. I love Isabelle so much but this is something I have to do for me. James came by in the car. He picked us up. When we got in the car the song Because Of You by Reba McEntire and Kelly Clarkson was playing. I thought hard about the lyrics. Its like it explained how Jake made me,

“I will not make the same mistakes that you did.
I will not let myself cause myself so much misery.
I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard.
I’ve learned the hard way to never let it get that far.
Because of you, I’ll never stray too far from the side walk
Because of you, I’ll learn to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you, I find it hard to trust
Not only me but everyone around me,
Because of youuuu, I am afraid.
I lose my way and its not too long before you point it out
I can not cry because I know thats weakness in your eyes
I’m force to fake a smile, a laugh, everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break,
When it was never whole to start with
Because of you, I’ll never stray too far from the side walk
Because of you, I’ll learn to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you, I find it hard to trust
Not only me but everyone around me,
Because of youuuu, I am afraid.
I watched you die,
I heard you cry every night in you sleep
I was so wrong,
you should have known that you lean on me
You never thought of anyone else,
You just saw your face
And now I cry in the middle of the night,
For that same damn thinggggg
Because of you, i’ll never stray too far from the side walk
Because of you, I’ll learn to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you, I find it hard to trust
Not only me but everyone around me,
Because of youuuu, I am afraid.
Because of you
Because of you”
That song described what I felt. I was afraid that James was going to hurt me. I know he loves me and made a promise to that he wouldn’t but promises are mean’t to be broken. I guess when my Mom said “Everyone is going to hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth hurting for” she was right. I’m going to marry James and I will have a happy normal family. I looked out the window as the song faded away. James reached across the arm rest and held my hand. It made me feel good. Like he truly cared and I know he did. When we got home I unhooked Belle from her car seat and she ran inside. James put his arm around me. I turned around and looked at him.
“I love you.” I said and kissed him.
“I love you.” He said and kissed me. We kissed again and again. He picked me up.
“Woah!” I said when he held me in his arms. Even thought he put me in his arms are lips were never unlocked. We got to the door and he opened it. He was so strong. I remembered that Bella and my parents were here but I didn’t care. James and I work so much that we hardly ever have any us time. He marched up the stairs. Our lips were still locked. I was scared he was going to fall but I trusted him. When we got to my room he laid me on the bed and we undressed each other.
“Soon to be, Mrs. James Pendergrass.” He said and kissed my forehead.
“I love you.” I told him.
“I know.” He replied.
When we were done we hopped in the shower together and then went down stairs for lunch.
“So what did you do today?” My Mother asked Isabelle.
“Well, Mom and me went to the park.” She said.
“Mommy and I.” My Mother corrected her.
“Mommy and I.” Isabelle repeated.
“Mother, she’s barley six years old. Give her a break.” I told her.
“Ediquit can never start too early.” She told me. I sighed.
“Why is your hair wet?” My Mom asked me.
“Because I just got out of the shower.” I told her. She then looked at James to see his hair wet too. She put the pieces together. “Mom, were getting married.” I reminded her.
“I know, I know.” She said and graced her hand on my cheek. “But it seems like yesterday when you would so small and actually needed me. You were my baby girl.” She said.
“I’m still your baby girl, I’m just a little bigger.” I told her with a chuckle. We hugged and then she slide plates of ham sandwiches across the kitchen table.
I loved being home. It made me feel safe, like I was a innocent baby girl again. I looked across the table at Isabelle. She took a big bite out of her sandwich and smiled at me. James reached under the table and put his hand on mine which was on my thigh. I smiled at him. Everything was finally falling into place. My Gorgious baby girl gets to spend time with me. My handsome fiance truly loves me and my parents finally proud of me. Everything was perfect!
The next few weeks were rough. I never got to see Isabelle. My work hours were terrible and I only got to see her sleeping. I try so hard to change hours but nothing works. The only time James and I see each other is in bed and when we pass each other at work. I hated the distance from my family. Sunday was my first day off in weeks. I woke up at ten to get ready for church. Bella ran into James and my room and started jumping up and down on the bed.
“Okay munchkin! We’re awake!” James shouted and tackled her. She started to giggle and he tickled her. When he stopped he rolled over to me. I rolled over and faced him. Our blanket was just covering my body. He graced my cheek and pushed my hair out of the way. He gently kissed my lips.
“I love you.” He said.
“I love you too.” I told him and got up. Bella was still laying on the bed watching us. The blanket was wrapped around me. I went to out chestnut dresser in the corner and took out a pair of jeans, a tank top, and a sweat shirt and went into the bathroom to change. When I got out James was already changed. He slowly walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me. He kept walking and making me walk backwards. “I’m going to fall.” I told him giggling.
“Don’t worry. I will catch you.” He said and kissed me. He walked back so much that we hit the wall but his lips never left mine.
“Honey?” I asked.
“Yes.” He answered taking a breath.
“Isabelle’s watching.” I told him.
“She doesn’t know.” He said.
“She’s six.” I reminded him.
“Oh yeah.” He said. He kissed me one last time and then walked up to Bella. “Ready for church?”
“No, silly. I gotta go change.” She said.
“Then go, silly.” He told her. She ran off to her room. James closed the door behind her. “Now where were we?” He asked. “Oh, now I remember.” He said and kissed my cheek. I put my hand on his chest and pushed him away.
“I have to get dressed.” I pointed out.
“I can help.” He said and slowly slid off my sweatshirt. He kissed my chest and slid off my tank top. Revealing my pink bra. He kissed down stomach. He unbuttoned my jeans and slowly slid them down my legs. He kissed my thighs. He started to take off my underwear but I stopped him.
“I need those, remember?” I told him.
“Oh yeah.” He said with a giggle. He kissed my lips again.
“We have to get ready.” I told him.
“I’m better at taking things off than putting them on.” He said. I shook my head. It was hard to pull away from his warm embrace but I had to or I would have never gotten dress. I went to my closet and got out a black pair of pants and a blue blouse and threw a pair of slacks and a button up red shirt with a tie at James. After we both got dress I adjusted his tie.
“You look beautiful.” He said.
“Stop it.” I told him.
“Its true. You’re the most smart and amazing girl I’ve ever met. Thats why I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Miley. You’re beautiful and caring and you always but Bella first and I love that about you. You’re my soul mate, my true love.” He said. I looked up at his eyes that were shining from the light through the window. I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t even know if there were words.
“Were leaving!” My Mother shouted from down stairs. I turned away from him and grabbed my purse and started walking down stairs. My Mom, Dad and Isabelle was waiting.
“Sorry we took so long.” I told them. They didn’t say anything. They just walked out the door and loaded into the car. I looked across the street to see Jake walking his dog. He looked at me with these eyes. Eyes that looked into the depths of your heart. Its like they read everything you were thinking. James put his hand on my shoulder and I jumped.
“Are you okay?” He asked me.
“Fine.” I told him with a kiss. He helped me into the car and then we took off. I looked out the back window and watched as he disappeared over the hill. James but his hand on my thigh. I turned to him and smiled. When we got to the church I helped Bella out of the car. We headed in. We were relatively early. Pastor Mike walked up to me.
“Miley! I haven’t seen you since you were a little tot!” He said with