i felt the pain, kadailia [the unexpected everything txt] 📗

having a normal life

It was the starting of summer and i woke up and saw my sister (Kesha) who was nine years old , staring at me . Then walked in my other sister (Kimesha) who was 13 Years old . its time for school what are you still doing in bed said KESHA , i turned around and look at the time i was already 8:12 am , i sprang from my bed and into the bathroom , while my sisters picked out my outfit , Lately i started dressing more like a 15 year old girl and its been a good feeling . When i was ready me and my sister ran down stairs where mom and dad was having breakfast, too bad we didn't get to eat. we always ride with dad in the morning so he droped Kesha off at her school and then droped , KIMESHA and I off at ours. when school was out we picked up KESHA and went home where we did homework and made dinner.

when things starts to change

Lately i don't know if am going crazy or if its real but i've been getting a lot of not wanted attention from my dad . he looks at me flirty
and plays around a lot , i didn't really pay much attention to it though ,until i felt someone touching me one night and when i woke up but there was no one there i thought maybe it was a dream but it didn't feel like one. the other day when i came from school dad was home it was wednesday so my sister was at their friends house . i went to give dad a kiss on his cheek when he grab my arm and started touching me , stop i said but he didn't you've been looking real good lately he said ,it sound so wrong what he was saying i , started to cry and scream he slap me in my face and told me if i ever tell anyone he would kill me. he took me up stairs to my room and raped me all i could do was cry . when he was finish he told me to go clean up and put a smile on my face. when mom and my sisters came home i was shocked that my mom didn't notice the change in my behavior but my sisters did i told them that everything was fine and that i only had a bad day.

why me

i thought after that one time every thing was going to stop but it didn't , it started happening on on regular basis like every night .
i felt sick sometimes and it was difficult for me to walk at times but i had to made it look like everything was OK i stated falling back on my school work all because i am always trying to get what was happening out of my head i thought i had to tell someone as soon as possible and my mom was the only person i could thrust so when i came hame home from school i tried to tell her and all she said was it your fault . that night when my dad came and found out that i told my mom he beat me until my face was swollen . when my sisters came to wake me up in the morning they asked what was wrong i told them i fell down the stairs but they didn't believe me so i told them what was going on and thats when KIMESKA told me that he had also been touching her only touching she said i had to make sure he didn't started raping her.

am gonna speak out

even though i was scared of my dad i had to do something about it . after school i went to the police and told them about what was going on and showed then the scars and bruses . my sister was home alone and i didn't want him to hurt her i told them . i was scared what if he is not doing anything to her , what if they don't believe me dad would kill me , i thought to myself . then i started to think about what was happening to my sister , i was thinking so many things all at once . i was told i had to go to the doctor that same afternoon and when i went backed to the police station i saw my sister sitting there , i ran closer to her and hugged her it over now she said and i started to cry we had to live wit our aunt and a few mounts later i heard that dad got 30 years in prison and mom was no where to be found . i was so happy . even though i couldn't forget the past i could move on from it.

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Publication Date: 06-30-2012

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