Yama, Aleksandr Kuprin [grave mercy TXT] 📗

The psalmist began pattering: “Holy God, Most Holy Trinity” and “Our Father” poured out like peas.

Quietly, as though confiding some deep, sad, occult mystery, the singers began in a rapid, sweet recitative: “With Thy blessed saints in glory everlasting, the soul of this Thy servant save, set at rest; preserving her in the blessed life, as Thou hast loving kindness for man.”

The psalmist distributed the candles; and they with warm, soft, living little flames, one after the other, were lit in the heavy, murky air, tenderly and transparently illuminating the faces of the women.

Harmoniously the mournful melody flowed forth, and like the sighs of aggrieved angels sounded the great words:

“Rest, oh God, this Thy servant and establish her in Heaven, wherein the faces of the just and the saints of the Lord shine like unto lights; set at rest this Thy servant who hath fallen asleep, contemning all her tresp-a-sses.”

Tamara was listening intently to the long familiar, but now long unheard words, and was smiling bitterly. The passionate, mad words of Jennka came back to her, full of such inescapable despair and unbelief⁠ ⁠… Would the all-merciful, all-gracious Lord forgive or would He not forgive her foul, fumy, embittered, unclean life? All-Knowing⁠—can it be that Thou wouldst repulse her⁠—the pitiful rebel, the involuntary libertine; a child that had uttered blasphemies against Thy radiant, holy name? Thou⁠—Benevolence, Thou⁠—our Consolation!

A dull, restrained wailing, suddenly passing into a scream, resounded in the chapel. “Oh, Jennechka!” This was Little White Manka, standing on her knees and stuffing her mouth with her handkerchief, beating about in tears. And the remaining mates, following her, also got down upon their knees; and the chapel was filled with sighs, stifled lamentations and sobbings⁠ ⁠…

“Thou alone art deathless, Who hast created and made man; out of the dust of the earth were we made, and unto the same dust shall we return; as Thou hast ordained me, creating me and saying unto me, dust thou art and unto dust shalt thou return.”

Tamara was standing motionless and with an austere face that seemed turned to stone. The light of the candle in thin gold spirals shone in her bronze-chestnut hair; while she could not tear her eyes away from the lines of Jennka’s moist, yellow forehead and the tip of her nose, which were visible to Tamara from her place.

“Dust thou art and unto dust shalt thou return⁠ ⁠…” she was mentally repeating the words of the canticles. “Could it be that that would be all; only earth alone and nothing more? And which is better: nothing, or even anything at all⁠—even the most execrable⁠—but merely to be existing?”

And the choir, as though affirming her thoughts, as though taking away from her the last consolation, was uttering forlornly:

“And all mankind may go⁠ ⁠…”

They sang “Eternal Memory” through, blew out the candles, and the little blue streams spread in the air, blue from frankincense. The priest read through the farewell prayer; and afterwards, in the general silence, scooped up some sand with the little shovel handed to him by the psalmist, and cast it crosswise upon the corpse, on top of the gauze. And at this he was uttering great words, filled with the austere, sad inevitability of a mysterious universal law: “The world is the Lord’s, and its fulfillment the universe, and all that dwelleth therein.”

The girls escorted their dead mate to the very cemetery. The road thither intersected the very entrance to Yamskaya Street. It would have been possible to turn to the left through it, and that would have been almost half as short; but dead people were not usually carried through Yamskaya.

Nevertheless, out of almost all the doors their inmates poured out towards the cross roads, in whatever they had on: in slippers upon bare feet, in night gowns, with kerchiefs upon their heads; they crossed themselves, sighed, wiped their eyes with their handkerchiefs and the edges of their jackets.

The weather cleared up⁠ ⁠… The cold sun shone brightly from a cold sky of radiant blue enamel; the last grass showed its green, the withered leaves on the trees glowed, showing their pink and gold⁠ ⁠… And in the crystal clear, cold air solemnly, and mournfully reverberated the sonorous sounds: “Holy God, Holy Almighty, Holy Everliving, have mercy upon us!” And with what flaming thirst for life, not to be satiated by aught; with what longing for the momentary joy and beauty of being⁠—transient like unto a dream; with what horror before the eternal silence of death, did the ancient refrain of John Damascene sound!

Then a brief requiem at the grave, the dull thud of the earth against the lid of the coffin⁠ ⁠… a small fresh hillock⁠ ⁠…

“And here’s the end!” said Tamara to her comrades, when they were left alone. “Oh, well, girls⁠—an hour earlier, an hour later!⁠ ⁠… I’m sorry for Jennka!⁠ ⁠… Horribly sorry!⁠ ⁠… We won’t ever find such another. And yet, my children, it’s far better for her in her pit than for us in ours⁠ ⁠… Well, let’s cross ourselves for the last time⁠—and home!⁠ ⁠…”

And when they all made the sign of the cross, Tamara suddenly uttered pensively the strange, ominous words:

“And we won’t be long together without her: soon we will be scattered, by the wind far and wide. Life is good!⁠ ⁠… Look: there’s the sun, the blue sky⁠ ⁠… How pure the air is⁠ ⁠… Cobwebs are floating⁠—it’s Indian summer⁠ ⁠… How good it is in this world!⁠ ⁠… Only we alone⁠—we wenches⁠—are wayside rubbish. And now let’s go.”

The girls started off on their journey. But suddenly from somewhere on the side, from behind a monument, a tall sturdy student detached himself. He caught up with Liubka and softly touched her sleeve. She turned around and started upon seeing Soloviev. Her face instantaneously turned pale, her eyes opened wide and her lips began to tremble.

“Go away!” she said quietly, with infinite hatred.

“Liuba⁠ ⁠… Liubochka⁠ ⁠…” Soloviev began to mumble. “I searched⁠ ⁠… searched for you⁠ ⁠… I⁠ ⁠… honest to God⁠ ⁠… I’m not like that other⁠ ⁠… like Likhonin⁠ ⁠… I’m in earnest⁠ ⁠… even