Compilation, Wendell Hockaday Jr. [crime books to read .TXT] 📗

“Hungry”

Who knows what it is like to be abandoned and left to die, with no food, no family, and no tears left to cry? I do, I’m Wendell Wallace Hockaday Jr. and I’m a devastating writer; I have compassion, pain, and a burning desire. Every one has given up on me except for Jesus Christ, so when I get back on my feet how can I let those demons back in my life. No one loves me at this exact moment in time, being afraid to go to hell is the only reason I’m alive. Also my kids I know they need me and want me, but when you have no food to eat; and your wife comes to get our barbeque grill, it tends to leave a man ill. But the devil can’t have my soul, because it belongs to GOD. So eat on wife and ask me for money the next day, I don’t believe in revenge GOD will repay your way.


5/8/08 Compilation


“Patience”

I hate what I use to be, and I can understand why you’re not in love with me. But my son’s birthday really pushed me to the edge, if I had a sledge hammer I would of used it to crush my head; But it made me realize if I really want my family back, that I have to be patient and get my life back on track. I will wait for you until the end of time, even if you divorce me your heat will still be mine. I’ve never been in love with any other woman but you, I’ve made a lot of mistakes but you have too. They tell me time heals all wounds but I don’t believe them, who ever said that didn’t loose a wife and a best friend. When you read this hopefully we’ll be back together again; and you’ll be back in love with me and I’ll have back my best friend.


7/6/08


“I’m Still Here”

Push me,
And I’ll fall.
Kick me,
And I’ll crawl.
Say you don’t like me,
And I won’t care.
If you miss use me,
I’ll still be there.
If you love me,
I’ll break your heart.
If you don’t hate me,
I’ll help you start.
I can’t change the things that I’ve done,
But I can face my problems instead of run.
I’m so close to giving up on this piss poor life.
I just don’t know how I can quit on my four kids and x wife.
Everybody always looks to me for the right answer.
And for their lives I give the right answer.
But for my own life, I just can’t figure it out.
I was born on Halloween, I love Christ, but I can’t get the devil out!
I hate sin, I repent and turn away.
But I haven’t seen my kids in over a full year.
And the only thing that dulls the pain, is a lot of beer.


1/6/10


“I Miss Yal”

I miss you Leona and I’m sorry you had to go away. I miss you kids and yes I continue to pray everyday. Everything happens for a reason and I know we’ll be a family again real soon; I miss yal running around the house and breaking your mothers broom. I miss you Wendasia because when you smile you look just like me. I miss you little Wendell and when you grow up I hope you still like me. I miss you Molly because you use to love me so much. I miss you Nique and I wish you were close enough to touch. I miss you family and I’m sorry for being so selfish. I miss you Leona and I’m sorry you had to go away. I miss you family and I’ll try not to cry everyday.

5/22/08
“1/1/10”

2010.……2010.……
Can you understand,
Can you comprehend?
Do you know you’re lucky
To be my friend?
2010.……2010.……
I don’t have much
And I don’t want a lot,
I just wana be happy
And talk to my pop.
2010.……2010.…..


1/1/10


“Thanks for the Number”


Can I
Will I
Maybe I won’t
Do you
Will you
Maybe you don’t
Can I, call you
Will I pick up the phone?
Do you like me,
Will you answer if your at home?

1/1/10


“GOD is Better”

God has truly been better to me than I have been to myself. We spend all our time chasing money, but just knowing him is wealth. I was so broke this week Electricity called and said, “I want my lights back!” I didn’t have any money so I prayed, and GOD wouldn’t let him take his lights back. That was Monday, today is Friday, and I just got a letter from Electricity. He said, “You have two more weeks.” Immediately I caught the Holly Ghost and realized life is not so bleak. Thank you Jesus Christ, for you our truly Lord of my life.


4/25/08


“I”

This is a letter you won’t find in team. This is who you think about when you care about nobody but yourself. When you’re in a relationship you give up this letter for we. If you care about this letter to much you’ll find yourself by yourself. You hear this letter and the beginning of a sentence, when you’re explaining why you didn’t handle you’re business. Do you know what this letter is, and do you really know what it means? This letter is I, and you won’t find it in team.


10/10/08


“Am”


I don’t know what I am. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know how I am. Do you know what I am? Do you know who I am? Do you know how I am? What I am is pain. Who I am is a warrior. How I am is indifferent. I know what I am hoping for in the future. I know who I am in the future. I know how I want to be in the future. What am I? I am, “Am.”


10/14/08


“Free”


If you’ve had a taste of me, you’d die to have me back. You can earn me, you can buy me, but you should never take me from some one else. If you put the letters D-O-M on the end of me, it will be all to easy to envision me. What I lack in choice, I make up for in lack of cost. Many people wish to be me, but it is hard for them to seek me. If you don’t want me you like to be stuck in a cage. If you’ve never had me you better re-read this whole page. If you love me you want me, If you hate me don’t taunt me; because you want to be me. What am I you say? I am Free!


10/19/08


“A Man Needs A Woman”


There are certain things a man needs a woman for. Like when I’m walking and there is a piece of glass on the floor. I’ve stepped on that glass and it’s deep in my foot. There are certain things a man needs a woman for. I’ve tried to get it out and yes it hurts like hell. I’ve tried tweezers, needles, and now my foot is starting to swell. There are certain things a man needs a woman for. Women are more than baby makers, they are to be loved; and they are care takers.

4/25/08


“I Remember”


I remember walking to school cold with a cheap jacket. I remember going to bed hungry because we just didn’t have it. I remember being jumped and beat up because I was Handsome Hock. I remember fighting back and making the beatings stop. I remember watching my little brother and not knowing what to do. He had been burped, fed, and changed; what else could I do? I remember being left alone in the house and being really, really, scared. That’s why now I’m grown and alone, I leave the TV on and sleep in a chair. I remember my dad left when I was around 12. He might not have been a good father, but I still needed and missed him like hell!


5/21/08

Publication Date: 01-25-2010

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