My Collection of Poems, Kitaramitsui [ebook reader below 3000 TXT] 📗

Did it hurt? When you fell from heaven?
I swear you are my gift from God himself.
You are sweet,
Caring,
Kind,
Compassionate,
You have a big heart,
A gorgeous smile.
Your voice rivals that of the ocean sirens.
It drags me into your seductive powers,
Making me want to be there with you,
Making me wish I was yours,
Making me wish I was there to sleep with you at night,
Be there with you, safe in your arms.
You have healed my shattered my heart,
Took it in your hands,
And made it whole once again.
You breathed into me the life I thought I lost.
You give me inspiration,
You give me hope,
You give me reason to keep going.
You give me the light I need to see,
You chase away the shadows of my heart,
You have changed my life for the better.
You are my fallen angel.

Dear Little One,

Please forgive me.
I extinguished your life before you even had a chance to see the world.
I brought you into this world, just to take you out a few weeks later.
It's so hard for me to find the right words to say, nothing will help.
I'm sorry we never got the chance to meet,
the chance to see your tiny body, hold your tiny hand.

I have an image of you, of what you would have looked like.
You would have Mommy's eyes,
Daddy's smile, Mommy's nose,
You would have been the picture of innocence, perfection.
The picture I shall hold and cherish forever.

Every Christmas,
Every Easter,
Every Mother's day,
Every Father's day,
Every birthday,
I'll do nothing but wish you were here.

A little boy or a little girl,
I will never know.
This love I have for you,
You shall never know.

Please forgive me.
I hate myself for letting you go.
I keep wondering if I made the right choice.
I feel so guilty that I sent you away.
I feel so guilty that we'll never meet.

No matter where you are now,
I hope you can please forgive me,
and know that no matter what,
I love you with all my heart.

Love,
Mommy

What do you do when you can't cry anymore?
What do you do when you can't love yourself anymore?
What do you do when you can't trust yourself?
What do you do when you can't trust those around you?
What do you do when you just give up?
What do you do when you just stop trying?
What do you do when you have no one to go to?
What do you do when you have no where to go?
What do you do when you find that you have no will to live?
What do you do when you find that you have no reason to live?
What do you do when you realize that you lost everything?
What do you do when you feel like your whole world is falling apart around you?
What do you do when you feel like you cant do anything right?
What do you do when you feel like you are all alone?
What do you do when you feel like no one cares?
What do you do when you don't know what to do anymore?
What do you do when you don't know who to trust?
What do you do when you don't know where to go?

There it goes again,
Can you hear it?
The sound of glass breaking?
That's the sound of my heart,
Being broken again.
My heart is a very fragile thing,
Even more so then a rose.
It has been broken and mended,
Over and over again.
All I can think is that,
I am destined to have a broken heart,
Forever.
Why did he do this to me?
Does he enjoy the feeling of breaking my heart?
Does he enjoy watching me fall apart?
If he cared, even a little, he wouldn't have ruined me.
I guess, he doesn't see how much I love and need him.
At night, while I lay in bed,
It feels like I am crying tears,
But not just any tears,
Tears of blood,
Tears of a broken heart,
While my heart screams for him to come back.
I see him the next day,
With his arms around another girl,
I go home that day and cry.
I realize, as my tears wash my face,
That the one I love will never be mine again.
I listen carefully,
And hear the sound of shattering glass,
As my heart falls apart,
Again.

Publication Date: 12-13-2011

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Dedication:
Some of these poems are dedicated to a friend on here, some are not.