Confusion, Alex James Cullen [reading fiction .txt] 📗

Welcome to my life

I sit here and wonder about
everything
Waiting and watching all that
goes about each and every day
Will my father ever stop?
Will my mother ever quit?
questions Ive asked myself every day and still
don't have an answer to..


Beatings

SMACK!
one across my back
CRACK!
another on my back
screaming doesn't help
it never does....
will my savior ever come and pull me from this hell
called my life?


Addiction

My mom does Crack Dad smokes weed
everyday its a fight to stay alive.
Will i go down the same road as my parents...
I want my dad to bring me to ball games again
I want my mom to love me again
I want not to be confused...


More Beatings

My dad sweaty from work comes home and rips off his belt
its time for my daily dose of love
YOUR GAY! he yells
(you know this i say in my head)

YOU DISGUST ME!! FAGOT!!
*smack*
no dad please! i beg
SMACK SMACK SMACK!!!
will my knight ever come and save me from this personal hell called my life?


Saves me time

I get a girlfriend just to make my dad happy
she says she loves me...
What do i tell her?
I do not love her i love someone else
someone who can pick me up and mend my broken heart...


END OF PART ONE
(sorry i cant think of anymore)

Publication Date: 10-11-2010

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