Are you going to heaven, Elena Scully [snow like ashes series .txt] 📗

I walk the line

I walk the line between life and death

This apple's rotten, rotten to the core

Get up, get up, off your knees

Get down, get down, on your knees!

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

Between life and death

My business is a little ninjitsu

I trust so much I don't walk I merely stagger!

No you wouldn't accept & I don't blame you

No I don't blame ya!

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

Between life and death

My rent is 69 a day

I can't stand people

You know that's the price you pay

Is life all in vain?

Starts off in my arm

Opens up my brain

I'm already in the gutter -

Next stop is the grave!

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

Between life and death

Live fast, die old

Live fast, die older

I walk the line

Death

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

Between life and death

While others have been thinking about it - I've been to hell and back

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

I walk the line

Between pain and torture

I am who iam

I am a woman

Who has PTSD

But still a woman

I am a woman who

Loves art and nature

Who enjoys stargazing

I am not a self injurious

I am not a psychopath

I have big nightmares

And big emotions

Would you find emotions

In a psychopath

……No!

 

I am a woman

32, with PTSD

with hopes and dreams

Of being a

Tattoo artist

And author

I am not a serial

Nor I am suicidal

I just had some thing

Mighty crappy happen

To me

 

 

 

I am a woman

Multi racial, with PTSD

Who really hates

The news

And mosquitos

I am

Only human

Like you

 

Are you going to heaven

I have a question

And it’s a series question

I want you to think carefully

About the way you answer

Are you going to heaven

If so you may have finished

Your past lives and

Past with flying colours

Depending on

And this is the second question

What did you do for a past life

We’re you an artist

A lawyer

Police officer

Or where you a

Sinner an

War criminal

If you answered yes to war crimes

You will be denied

And will continue to be reborn

If you answered yes to the

Artist, lawyer or police officer

Then there is a 90%

Chance that you

Will you go to heaven

 

Now answer carefully

What did you do it you past life

And are you

In your opinion

Are you going to heaven

 

The girl

 

There is a girl

Who looks up at the shy

In the field

In the twilight of dusk

Waiting for the constellations

To come up

Only

To see the meaning of life

Through

Seeing the Big Dipper

One summer

Night

She realizes that god

Created this constellation

To be perfect

Instead of man being perfect

Then it dawns on her

And I bet she feels

It

That the meaning of life

And humanity

Is not to be

Perfect

That is nature’s job

Happily deranged

When ever I see the Big Dipper

I am happily deranged

As it

Reminds

Of the good parts

Of my childhood

The time when I was taught then constellations

By my father through

His wisdom

And teaching me

About DNA through jarassic park

And the planet through

Star Trek

When I see this perfect

Spoon in the sky

I am happily deranged

That I was light years before

The idiot kids in school

Who still couldn’t wash their hands

Never mind be human.

 

Piercings

I do piercing on my

Self to show my bravery and

Wisdom and knowledge

That I am flush with

I pierced my face

9 times and

Have jewels

Dripping

From my lips

In my news

And handing on the

Middle of the nose for

One reason

Culture

To show that I am

Of culture and knowledge

And of integrity

But even though

Modern

Culture sees

Me as

A nuance

Or a psychopath

They just can’t admit

That I am showing

Actual culture

And art

For the shrinking a doctors

I am do piercings

To show my iq

Which is higher than your 100

Think about it

 

The moon lie

When I got home last night from

The mail box

I saw the full moon

And was tempted

I was tempted jump to the moon

And collect its jewels

For my jewelry

Making and so

I just jumped to the moon after

I got to the mail box I  get my resin kits

I and jump to the

Moon

To get their lunar gems

And then return to earth to make stone resin

Jewelry from

The moon and Amazon

And go and give them to my friends

And my self.

This whole poem

Was a bull faced lie

Do you think I am going to go up to

An arid place for

Jewels?

No!

 

Polygraph

 

Really I didn’t want to be

An artist

But my real

Dream was to

Go to the United States

And be a polygraph examiner

For the FBI

And be the modern day Jane Edgar Hoover

And I fight crime

Like the real Edgar Hoover

But then when stupid kid

Ruined it for me

Through bullying and abuse

But I still still

Here because

Of the loving words

Fidelity.

Bravery.

Integrity.

I will make my dream

One day

But it will take some time

I wanted to let

Everyone know that

Bullying at end age is x rated.

Inappropriate for all ages

For dreams could be crushed.

WhatsApp

When I go on WhatsApp

I think of all

The worst case

Scenario from a inappropriate behaviour

To worse I stalker

I want nothing to do with chat

Apps

Or as I called them

Chat craps

If you

Have WhatsApp

Be knownthat that people on there

Are not genuine

Or caring

They are psychopathic

And just plain evil

Spiecemens

Girls do you realized

That most people on your

WhatsApp

Are men.