Desolation, Vai B. Charm [bts book recommendations TXT] π
- Author: Vai B. Charm
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The day I learn how to write a poem
I will go stand on the rooftop
and shout your secrets to the universe
hoping to get back some of mine.
The day I learn how to tell a Manet from a Monet
I will dance around in my room
to the tunes of Chopin and Bach.
I will dance to whatever rhythm I like.
The day my lines turn out to be artistic
I will call upon Pollock's spirit and
learn how to throw paint around,
I wish to draw you on the sky.
The day I learn the art of forgetting
I will remember you for the last time,
feeling your presence in whiffs of a perfume
and (the) weight of your lips on mine.
The day I learn to sing
I will regret all the times
you had to listen to my off-beat tunes
and remember the way you smiled.
The day I learn to master the art of dying
I will stop myself from remembering you,
jump off the ninth cloud
and reach the Earth flying.
I wake up
I wake up
to find a face staring at me
in the mirror.
I don't recognise him and we make love
till breath lasts and my body,
restless, comes to a halt.
My heart races to find him again.
Hands on my face, looking for something
like a thirsty man in a desert lingers on his stomach looking for water.
My love, I know you are waiting at the other side
but I am unable to reach
my legs twined in thorny bushes,
my eyes stuck on the fingernail of his thumb,
the slant of his chest heaving with desire.
My heart, beat slow, don't let this pass.
Longing stays, I lose the boy in the mirror
water clears my vision
I find my eyes staring into themselves
looking hard in the brown hollows,
beauty disperses as I see
hatred floating at the corners.
Oh heart, run fast and stop soon
let this go away,
existence is pain, so set me free.
A poet accuses sorrow of being slow
A poet accuses sorrow of being slow
slow but radioactive, always decaying yet staying
I accuse you of leaving, while I walk backwards
tomorrow will be same as yesterday, today is a new day
today I remember you with all the flaws
today is the day we will meet again, part again
love again, say it all again
you want to do it all again?
no, leave again, go, run again
my hands are branches cut off trees
with dried leaves still intact
rose bushes come with thorns
no beauty is without it's hazards
there hangs a sign on your collarbone, Highly Perishable
I am an installation in a corner of an art gallery
nobody stops to look at me
there a scratch on me, chipped off while being shipped from Paris
a handling defect
I am not the valuable kind
some other artwork is the centrepiece
I am the dust gatherer, one that completes the count
nobody stops to caress me
I am not a Rothko, I am not a masterpiece by Michelangelo
I am me, a superficial speck of dust on your reading glasses,
the bookmark in your unfinished novel
I am that handkerchief you forgot in a metro coach somewhere
today was the day, now tomorrow will be today in a few hours
and we are/will be strangers again, almost (at least).
stories in my head
I don't want to speak of the stories in my head,
so I will tell you other things.
A boy goes to the museum and weeps,
standing in front of the Nighthawks.
A girl cuts her long hair and
afloats them in the river.
A mother prays for somebody's father.
//Silence prevails after I have screamed,
it's still an open cage with stainless steel bars.//
(Again and again i fly back to square one,
and once again i regret my decision)
To grieve is to waste salt,
and i live on ration with an almost empty jar.
(My lungs oppose to breathe the shards of pain in)
Grief changes colours in my sleep,
and it's sunlight yellow when i wake up.
(Sun enters my house once it starts setting)
On nights sleepless i spin sheets of silk,
in the mornings I dig graves to bury dreams with the silk shroud.
(metaphors are lost on this situation,
my home is a home,
can't call it a battlefield,
nor it is the war sung of by bards)
My love is a foriegn invader
and you are a soldier in the defending army.
(My truth is the greatest threat to this sand castle,
and i am still in love with the illusion of happiness).
a dark one
Today it's a dark one, moon has eloped with half the stars
somewhere a bird calls in the middle of the night
moths and lizards sing melodies to keep the world awake
in the day when it is silent the forests fall asleep
a fire burns inside a bird and it bursts to ruin the woods
roaming around i find pieces of glass faces i used to put on
i sigh and nobody replies
the birds keep chirping
to see this world i need colour-blind eyes
this poem is slowly growing and trying to accept itself
to my brain all languages sound same, gibberish beautifully said
only that makes sense for us, which we are familiar with.
two tulips can't kiss because bees don't like it
i can be wrong but to prove it you have to understand me
it's hard though but try it you must
sometimes i am not Interesting enough
and my friend cried again because i need you to survive
to her seeking help is a sign of wrong life
i see you have the courage to counter me, but you won't come out
my depression is like the unwanted weeds in your garden of roses
pluck it out, chuck me off, it's not hard to lose me
i am the change you got after this transaction
you can easily throw me down the alley
there are many in need and I still am useful, practically.
i don't know what i am trying to say, but i am sure there was a message i wanted to convey
i lost it while digging in for the words, i shouldn't bury secrets so deep
the remaining stars play hide and seek with white clouds.
leaving the city
You can always leave the city
pack only those memories which make you smile
don't carry the cracked tumblers with you
old newspapers are only to be left behind
next year you would have new places
new faces, new hands and new laughter too
new grudges, new memories and new gifts
but the nightmares will be the same, rotten and old
you can always leave the spots behind
avoid passing by the places you loved with a zeal so wild
and again move on to new haunts to hang out at
but the air is the same, you breathe it in and out
the perfume, wherever you smell it, will bring back a touch like a sliver
it will pierce so sharply, you will end up hurting your insides
you can always do away with the remnants of past
all letters can be burnt, get rid of the names too
soon you will have voids big enough, to hide yourself into
soon you will have the new places to avoid
hurt isn't something you leave behind
hurt is something you carry with you
pain is preserved like grandmother's pickles
and it never rots, because of all the salt it gets from your eyes
too many jars of grief I seal
never am I short of it, no matter what I leave behind
you can always leave the city, but you can never run away from your mind.
Distance
Distance grows
like weeds in pots without plants
manifests the spaces we create between us
spaces where stars don't turn into constellations
but plutos are discarded now and then as per need
Loneliness creeps on you
from toe to head
like vines on trees rotting from inside
leafy stalks eating everything in their wake
loneliness eats upon you
I stretch
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