Many Lifetimes, Renate M. Kaufmann [online e book reading TXT] 📗

returning home

star shower in the sky
you dip me
into a golden rain of feelings
and awareness of myself.

star rain of bliss
i am one with you
you carry me away with your beauty
back to the source of all.

star banner of infinity
carrying me
on my way back home
to the beginning of all life.

star net of completion
i arrived
at the source of all life
in your godliness
that is living in everything and in all of us
and i recognize
how limited my existence on earth was.

now i finally arrived home
i am released
and there is nothing
that could make me happier.


believe

what is there,

to believe in during life

nothing lasts,

aside from strife,

life may perish,

life may end,

our soul we may give,

our soul we may spend,

but our love,

that eternal flame,

will never dim,

will never change,

it will forever last,

when all other lights leave,

for you light my love




magali

in every bush, in every tree
i see you

in every song, in every picture
i feel you

in every wind, in every rain
i smell you

in every thoughtful moment
i miss you

on every day of my life
i love you

thank you for the seed
you have planted in me

kiss - always -
mom


so many paths are leading back to you

so many paths are leading back to you
when i sit still, and in devotion
and gazing into the silver shimmering moon
i meet with you there, my sweetheart
telling you every thought
i had always wanted to tell just you.

so many paths are leading back to you
when i look up to the cobalt blue sky at night
and it seems that a thousand stars are shining
and the brightest one of them
brings me the most blissful joy

because i know - you are living on it
because i know - you are laughing on it
because i know - you are it.

and once i will overcome my pain of having lost you
i shall be happy to have known you at all!




before you shoot

before you shoot, look into my eyes,
can you see the same fear you feel inside?
you may see me as someone who has it all,
but i have the same fears and hesitations after all.

i know your pain and what is tearing at you,
for i have the same self- conscious feelings too.
so before you shoot look deep and you may realize
you see a lot of yourself in my eyes.

before you shoot, think and feel what would it be like,
to be on the other end of my strife.
will taking from me ease your pain?
or can we deal with this maybe some other way.

before you shoot come into my heart,
think of all your tearing apart,
my life is in your hands it’s true,
do you really want this consequence tearing away at you?

before you shoot or think that thought,
tell me of your pain and what you’ve sought.
maybe you’ll find someone you’ll treasure
you never gave me a chance to show what i have to offer.

i can only ask these things and it’s all up to you,
i have no power, which is what you wanted to do.
so now that you’ve got what you wanted to do,
please think of these things before you shoot.





i wait

i wait for you,
anxious to see your face

i stand and watch,
looking for the first sign of your arrival

i finally see you,
i take a second look to make sure you're really there

my pulse races and i crack a smile,
this is what i've been waiting for

you begin to approach,
you say, "sorry, i'm late."

i say, "no problem."
but I think to myself,
'i'd have waited forever.'


enchanting snow

it’s crazy how enchanting it is tonight
everything’s frosted and still
the whole world is holding its breath
as we crunch through the softness
hand in hand.
the purple-grey sky is a blanket
and the world sleeps underneath
with sugar-plum branches
and sugar-snow icing
that frosts everything
magical.
the powdered ice-sugar
sifts down
catching my eyelashes as I look up
the air turns your breath to frost as you lean in
and your hand is warm in mine.

it’s crazy how enchanting you are tonight
as we lay here so close and so still
i feel your touch and I’m holding my breath
as we look to the future
hand in hand.
tangled here in this blanket
wrapped tight in your arms underneath.
the touch of your skin
the scent of your breath
suddenly everything’s
magical.
your soft lips
graze mine
catching my eyelashes as I look down
the night dances with our breath as we lean in
and your heart is warm next to mine.





two hearts

two hearts,
in same heartbeat
two souls
in same flow
two minds,
in time

did find,
one space,
one love,
one aim,
two paths
the same


secret lover

come into my heart dear one,
fill it with the warmth of your love,
brighten my days with your sunny smile,
and fill my nights with unbridled passion.
lay with me under the starry skies,
whispering into my ear,
those sweet words of love,
that only we two understand,
gently caress my trembling body,
with deliberate, knowing hands,
and cover my mouth with passionate kisses,
that draw the very soul from my body.
i live to be near you,
to feel your gentleness.
my world begins and ends in your arms.
you give me such unbelievable joy and bliss.
my heart, my wonderful, but secret lover.




i see

i see right through you, right to you soul
your cocoon haven can not protect you
i see right through you, right to your heart
your barrier of lies and excuses will not work here

i have a gift for seeing truth
even rose colored glasses can not lie
i see right through you, as a friend
i will never judge or think less

so now i move on, a new journey taken
for there is nothing more i can show you
your rose colored glasses, tinted to dark
and your path is now for you to sort

i'll always be there in the background
should you need to talk
but bring the words that speak the truth
honesty from the heart
for that is how i measure true friendship

i see right through you, right to your soul
and it scares you.





untouchable

i was untouchable
my emotions roped in place
never feeling more than i wished to

i was untouchable
but this disease,
this curse,
crept into my body
silently seeping into my skin
wiggling into my veins
overtaking my organs

i was untouchable
until he told me that he loved me

i was untouchable
until i realized that i loved him

now all i want is for his touch



day by day

day by day
night by night
kiss by kiss
touch by touch
step by step
i fall in love
a love so incomprehensible
so vivid
so unique
so wild
a passion so deep
a need so necessary
a want so strong
the universe would not handle
i love you today
i’ll love you tomorrow
i’ll love you forever

Publication Date: 04-24-2009

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Dedication:
Poems & Paintings by Renate Kaufmann