A beautiful Lie, Ann Leverette (ESA MORENA) [story reading .txt] 📗

I want a sugar coated life, I said I can do better but the good book told me to think twice, I no longer love because I no longer feel
And you can say what you want but I refuse to believe this life is real

This twisted reality has taken my sanity twisted my faith and deliver my vanity.

I think I’m broken because I’m no longer just bent this was about the same time you decapitated my innocents I wish this world could go back to what it use to be

And I am still wondering how could you do this to me. Blocking out thoughts of you wont keep you out of my head
I feel like you could bring me back to life seeing as how I might as well be dead. I dream of the day I can redeem myself to you,

tell you what I want and how I wish we were never threw how the pictures of us dace threw my mine and how I would do any thing if only I could rewind time,

to make things right I seem to keep reliving that one un forgetful night were I drove you away even though I wanted you there

I what to tell you this but part of me thinks you wont even care.
I want to confess my heart to you but I know that is something I could never do
I’d give everything for you to see, I was trying to hurt you before you hurt me,

and that was stupid now I know, but the truth is I never wanted you to go, and I never wanted to leave, but I never was the type to have a heart on her sleeve.

But I think we both know I could never give you my hart it is already broken and I have lost the missing parts.

I still feel you holding me when I close my eyes,
I think I loved you and that thought I despised.

any where I may go I find myself wondering will you be there, truth is I started looking for you everywhere.

I think I let a good one go but you were suppose to hurt me your reputation told me so. who knew you would be the one who made me want to settle down to say I love you with out making a sound

to be that girl who falls for that guy, who knew a boy like you actually could make me cry.

It haunts me very day how did I let my life slip away, and I hope one day I could see you again I was to stupid to realize I hade a lover and a friend.
But
everything’s good till the end. So I let my feelings go truth is I don’t really want them back its better to feel nothing than something and that’s a fact.

I don’t what to cry over you it’s harder to pretend but I can do the act even if it’s tearing me apart. There nothing left in that black hole I call my hart.

I think forgiveness is key and its fair enough to blame me what I did to you was what I expected a cold hearted bitch who would have guessed it

I no you don’t believe me but this is one thing that’s true,
if you ever would take me back I’d run to you.
Why my emotions don’t work I program them that way because I had to stop living for yesterday.

And I am so sorry for the pain you may have felt.
But the way I loved you I could never love any one these else theses words are true it is because my sprit is dead and my heart will always belong to you.

You promised me you won’t hurt me you looked me clear in the eye and all love I had was built on a lie
What a beautiful lie

Publication Date: 07-09-2009

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