WELCOME TO MY WORLD, JESSICA REETZ [novels to read in english .TXT] 📗

***WELCOME TO MY WORLD!!***
Sitting and analyzing everything around me,
Slowly avoiding all the negative surroundings.
Everything happens for a reason and sometimes it’s so hard to understand why,
Every lesson I’ve learned has made me break down and cry.
People will smile in your face and whisper as soon as you walk away,
It’s sad how everyone is so quick to betray.
Loyalty is something big in my life but yet is so hard to point out,
Trying to figure out what everyone’s truly about.
I’ve lost many friends to this game were playing day after day,
But what if I decide I know longer want to play.
I know tears and pain is something we will all have to face,
But I’m trying to separate myself because mentally I’m in a different place.
I deserve to be happy and I’ll do whatever it takes,
Been here before so there’s know room for mistakes.
I’m a woman before anything so loyalty is number one,
But fighting this war is draining me I’m just ready to be done.
I gave up on love because love continuously lets me down,
Brought me past the stars to just eventually leave me facedown.
Everyone has their story and bad things happen to us all,
Tears will flow and time and time again well fall.
We’ll lose things we love and wish we could take back mistakes,
Well love someone who doesn’t love us back this is one of many heart aches.
People will tell us were nothing and well eventually believe what they say,
Well start to beg to be different at night when we pray.
Life happens and know one will ever understand the cards that god deals,
But we know from experience that every wound heals.
Mentally im a different person then the girl I was before,
Because I finally realized life is willing to offer so much more.
Thinking about everything In my life and realizing all I have is me,
It took so much betrayal and griminess for me to finally see.
Starting to care less about how anyone feels,
The thoughts that go through my head give me the chills.
Pulling myself up from such another hard fall,
But it makes it a little easier knowing it not the first time I lost it all.
Trying to figure out where I belong,
Struggling everyday but still I stand strong.
Keeping anger and tears deep down inside,
Because my emotions are so easy to hide.
Why hold on to something that hasn’t been there for so long,
How can something feel so right bet yet be so wrong.
Pretending to be happy but deep down im so sad,
not knowing why I feel this way is what makes it so bad
Not caring about any ones opinion and not going to let anyone hold me down,
I’m a strong woman, mother and queen and I deserve to wear that crown.

This is what it is...


JUST ANOTHER THOUGHT

I sit and think to myself where would I be,
If I never experienced pain or suffered in agony?

I ask myself would I be the same woman as I’ve grown into now,
Would I be strong if I was never shown how.

Would I know how to forgive and understand people make mistakes,
Would I fight for what I wanted know matter what it takes?

Could I appreciate the little things and understand material things come and go,
And would I understand that experience is what makes us grow.

Would I appreciate life and love because I know its not promised to know one,
And would I know when enough’s enough and when to be done.

I appreciate life even though its been hard,
U never know what will happen when god deals that next card.

The skies the limit and I’m shooting for the stars,
My wounds are finally healed I’m just dealing with the scars.

These are just some more thoughts running through my head,
Just some more thoughts that need to be read.

I’m confident and ready to take the world in my hand,
Leave my name in the dirt and my foot prints in the sand.

DEAR LORD

There were nights I cried myself to sleep,
I tried to stay strong but emotionally I was weak.

I gave up on you because I thought if u loved me then why was I here,
In places in my life that I always had feared.

Then one day I realized being hurt has me feeling bad,
But I turned my hurt to faith and gave it all I had.

I cry to u because u never judge me u understand we live in a world of sin,
So u listened and seen me fall to my knees then u build me back up again.

U were there when everyone else walked away,
U told me my child ill always be here when u pray.

So many times I said how could u do this me,
But why do I blame u, maybe because it was so easy.

I sit here and think about all the times I wanted to give up and be done,
But if I do that then the devil officially won.

So when I get down and I feel like things cant get any worse,
I pray to u so you can destroy the devils curse.


Walking with you is so easy because your constantly showing me the way,
And even when the rest of the world is gone u always seem to stay.

I give my life to you because u gave yours for me,
And u gave me the strength to clear my eyes to see.

I know the battle has barely begun,
But your here to show me how this war is won.

So I stand here with integrity, strength, love and faith to tell u thank u ur my best friend,

So please forgive me for my sins thank you Jesus, amen.


EXPERIENCE IS OUR TEACHER


Everyone tells me stop writing about your past,

Dont mourn on the things that didnt last.

Dont tell people about your pain,

They want to hear about the sunshine not the rain.

Dont let people know what brings you down,

Forget about the people who arent around.

Dont talk about the ones who stabbed you in the back,

Because then they think that strength is what you lack.

Dont cry to those who care less about you,

Because the day will come that they need you to.

Dont blame yourself for love that didnt last,

Because as quick as they walked out youll find someone better just as fast.

Dont feel sorry for people who dont think twice about you,

They dont really care about what youve been through.

Dont trust friends because there the first ones to walk away,

Why count on forever know one ever really stays.

Dont be confident because then your conceited,

But the truth is when u believe it then your defeated.

Ive learned through it all why not say what your feeling inside,

Just because the truth may hurt there pride.

Why not shed a tear because they think that means your not strong,

Why do they feed me the same sad song.

Dont except changes but thats what makes us grow,

But there the lonely ones who will never really know.....

YOU LEARN FROM MISTAKES AND TEARS DO MAKE YOU STRONG,

LEARN TO LIVE WITH CONFIDENCE AND YOULL NEVER GO WRONG.

MAKE NEW FRIENDS ITS OK TO TRUST AGAIN,

ITS OK TO START FORGIVING YOULL SEE YOUR ROAD TO HAPPINESS WILL BEGIN.

SMILE MORE AND YOULL SEE THE PAIN WILL START TO FADE AWAY,

JUST TAKE YOUR TIME AND DO IT DAY BY DAY.

LEAVE PEOPLE IN THE PAST THERE NOT IN YOUR FUTURE FOR A REASON,

YOUR THE ONLY ONE YOU NEED TO WORRY ABOUT PLEASING.

MAKE CHANGES FOR YOUR SELF BECAUSE GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT,

TRUST IN GOD AND LEAVE THE REST TO FATE...


Depression


Sometimes a cry so deep can make you body go numb,

Where does a pain like this come from?


You feel so alone and you're crying so hard but not one tear rolls down you cheek,

You want to let it out so bad but there's know one there why speak?


You'd rather be by yourself its so much easier to cry,

Because know one in the whole world could ever understand why,

The brightest sun makes you feel like your walking down the darkest street,

Every time you get up it knocks you off your feet.


You don't see it coming it just catches you off guard,

And trying to climb out that hole just starts to get so hard.


Your heart gets so cold you cant catch yourself cry,

You cant run from it know matter how hard you try.


The battle feels like it can't be won,

How much I wished I could just be done.


Falling down depressions deep dark hole,

But there's know end to this fall it just eats at your soul.

Publication Date: 12-14-2009

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