Inside My Head, Sydia Smith [recommended reading txt] 📗

                              The Future Me

This is for that little girl sitting in the corner

Whose life turned upside down

Feeling lost

And don’t know how to smile

This is for that little girl

Who’s cutting her arm

Thinking that the pain is long gone

This is for that little girl

That swallowed a lot of pills

So she won’t have a live to fulfill

This is for colored girls

Who tried to commit suicide

I just need you to know that everything is going to be all right

How do I know

Cause I am you

For years I tried to figure a way to subside the pain

But you need to know that your life wasn’t in vain

You need to accept who you are

Cause you are going to make it far

Right now you are going through a testimony

God is using you to be a witness

To help others who are dealing with this

This is only the beginning of your journey

It will get harder as well

But it is nothing compared to where you will be at

Your life is not a fairy tale

You don’t have a happily ever after

But your life will be filled with laughter

So here I am getting the definition of life

Telling you that everything is going to all right

By: Sydia Smith

Synopsis: I watched a movie call “For Colored Girls”. This movie was once a book, but I preferred watching movies than reading books. I eventually read the book to get a generally idea of the storyline and to see if it was the same as the movie. There were these poems that were said throughout the book and the movie. In AVID we had to write a poem. The poem was for at the end of the movie it says, “This is for colored girls who committed suicide but moving to their own rainbows” we were supposed to give our perspective and write a poem encourage other people dealing with struggles related in your life and the movie. I chose to write a poem call Future Me. I called it this because there are people out their suffering from what I had suffered from. Suicide. Even though I didn’t actually commit suicide I did attempted. This poem was for the people who attempted or considering it. It goes deep into the reasons I have done it and the things I have done. I haven’t cut myself but I know someone who has. I am here to help. Not like a therapist, but like you. Someone who have been there before, someone who can relate, someone who isn’t going to judge you, someone who you can call up and someone who you don’t have to pay to get advice, or just express your feelings. Someone who won’t force you to talk but will sit in silence with you until you are ready to talk.

Affirmation