The Devil's Minion, Cassidy Shay [sad books to read txt] 📗

My eyes shoot open. I am not alone. I hear a low cackle, the sound of cruelty and evil. Everyone has left the room, but I am not alone.

You were foolish to believe that all those people could make me leave you. Do you really think that I would work so hard to become part of you, only to give up my power so easily?

I shudder, but the fear soon turns to exhaustion.

I am tired from fighting this monster. I am tired from praying, tired from trying to regain power over my actions and words. My body aches from being twisted in ways that are physically impossible. My throat is raw from screaming in dozens of languages that I have no way of knowing.

My greatest fear has become reality.

I always told myself that I would be safe. My whole life, I was told that the devil was only as powerful as I let him be. That if I am not afraid, if I am confident in my faith and in my relationship with God, I can’t be harmed. I thought I was safe.

I hear the cackle again. You weren’t easy. It was so, so difficult to crack your shell, even harder to create a hole big enough to sneak through. But you, because of your faith, are my greatest accomplishment.

I haven’t been alone for months. Even when he is dormant, not controlling my movements of words, he still keeps me company with his constant thoughts. He is always reminding me of his presence.

Every once in a while, I get a moment of silence, where I used to pray. I prayed that God would set me free, that he would drive out this demon that has become a part of me.

But lately, my resolve to keep God as a part of my life has faltered. I rarely ask Him to help me anymore. This minion of the devil has not just taken control of me. He has stripped away my faith. I said earlier that this creature’s presence was my worst fear, but that was a lie. It is my isolation from the one who used to give me strength, from the only one who can save me, that is my greatest nightmare.

The cackle is different this time. I didn’t think it was possible, but this one is even more evil than it has been in the past. That nightmare came true. Because of me.

I feel him smiling as he recedes into the darkness of what’s left of my mind.

Text: Cassie Hoene
Publication Date: 07-13-2012

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