touts of a girl, flajonny [best biographies to read .txt] 📗

Chapter 1


Love! Love! Love! Yeah right like does things really do happen. You see a teenage OBESSED about the football captain and she calls it “LOVE”. L.O.V.E yeah they only happen in the movies or to special people, not that am saying am not specail but hey look at me and tell me what you see. All I want his a good job and money and a family. Shit heads thinks love puts food on your table………..
I am a 3rd year nursing major student at hunter college in new york city. Having been born as an only child, you had think I had it easier in life, but nah ma parent just wants me to be the best nurse ever. Yea I knw they mean well but dude it’s a lot of science work shit and I could use a little less parent pressue. Yea right like they care or like I can tell them that to their face. My parent and I migrated to the united states form africa, well yea they did try considering the fact that I speak good english without an african accent. Yea I knw am very lucky to be here but sometimes you wounder if luck is enough. And you think the next thing to top my day is seeing two people inLOVE.
Don’t get me wrong am totally down to love and all those romance shit but I only like to read them in a book or watch them on the t.v. yea lame but its good cause I wont have to pity my loveless life, u know its just a good way for me to live. I mean have you seen me, am short, probally like 175 pounds,dark skin and short haired girl, oh yea and my big trademark, ACNE and DARK SPORTS. Men do look at me but its seems am too sexy for younger guys cause all I get is older men stare, and I do find that very creepy and disturbing……….
“hey sookietan” my name is sookie tanin but my friend call me ‘sookietan” and for the record that’s is the only thing I find cool about me.
“jamie, liliac” my only two friends in the world who always interrupt my thinking, “how re u guys doin?, thought u were bailing on class”
“yea we were going to but then u knw that prof can be a lil bitch at times and we don’t have to go shooping today since u don’t wanna come” lilac my other friend was saying, we are mostly phiscally alike but she’s got more backside than I do and she isnt shy like me.
“what are u still doing outside anywys? Knwin u, u shuld be in class” my other friend jamie, she is not shy nor too bold, she floats inbetween. “well thanks for asking, I was on my way to class”. The thing is even though they are my only friends I cant tell them some stuff I think about because I don’t like people seeing me as dominat and trying to help me. They bothe have boyfreinds and I sensed they don’t tell me much about their relationship anyways. We are all just friends for benefit, I mean apart from school, they don’t call or text me. Even when I text them, mostimes they don’t reply. i will say am more closer to jamie cause I go to her house and all dose shits but we not all that close to the point of telling me relationship stuffs. So we are in our psy class, anyways I really like psy and all but mostly cause of ma prof. He is cute and so boring, mostimes I always want to sleep, I cant believe I have to sit 3hrs for this class but u know I can always space out.
My friends jamie and lilac are nice to me but sometimes its like they only know me when they see me . I use to always call and text jamie but then I stopped, I hate to think that am forcing myself on people. Anyways I do belive in love, is just that I never think I will be lucky enough to get a guy I really like and that wants be back. You know those love and be love shit happens only to pretty girls but there is not a day I don’t pray or challenge God for my love life, hopefully one day it will happen. I remember back in my country everyguy of ma age and a little older wanted to go out with me. I was like 14 or so and I already have nice boobs and all. I remember I use to think that I was “specail” well lets just say now I understand that guys we tell you anything for your boobs.
Gosh no matter how much I hate thinking about this particular inccident, it will never leave my head. At 15 I met a douche bag, who was introduced to me by my neighbour/ trusted sister, and omg for the record he was ugly. I was 15 and young, believed all the shits guys tell me, even though I knew better that to believe them. But then he was from a trusted sister and I thought he was clean and the ONE,guess I was wrong. I mean he had a girlferind which the sister girl knew about and then he tricked me into kissing me and tried touching my boobs twice in a row. Gosh that dumd bastard, he was nut the first guy I touched lips with but he was the first guy I touged kissed and gosh its make me wanna puke. Every goddamn guy I have ever known always wants a piece of me except one…………………………….
“we will pick up from here next class, please sign the attendance shit before u leave” my proffessor was saying. Wow! That was fast. “so you don’t have any class again right?” jamie asked. “come on! Lets go shooping togther three heads are better than one” lilac was saying to me. Even though we are not all that close she still always try to get me up and going. “ok missy am coming wiv ya two but u gonna hv to buy me a top and feed me too” “yea sure we will” lilac said pulling my hand towards the main gate. Arrg! I really don’t have the mind for shooping. I mean staying in a mall for more than 5mins just gets the bad part of me. Who can blame me, I spent 6years of my life in a lockdown.
Back in my country I went to one of the “finest” high schools. Yea “finest” because it really isnt, parent don’t know whats its like to just dump there kids in a boarding school, not that I have anything against boarding shools. But if you were to graduate from my high school then maybe you will have a better understanding of what am saying. My high school “prison yard” ,like we call, is really not a good choice of school. I mean it’s a missionary school and all but the religious value is more than the educational value. And its not even all that valued, I mean the religion aspect, all the teachers and principal do is ,“high service”, bunch of hyopcrites. I spent 6 years of my life in that dump yard, filled with demon- possessed, self possessed, hypocrites and all sorts of bad behaviours but there were also good ones. Few of us were the good ones, not that I am perfect but I always try to keep my pirority straight, which is keeping the good name of my family straight. I dont know what teachers do in that school but they sure arent doing nothing for the good of the student except payed by parent “bribed”. I will say my elementry school really thought me my fluent english and that’s is the only thing I was good that before coming to this country. And my high school made it worst cause the teachers don’t care if you are dumb as hell so long as the ones they get payed to guide “bribe” are doing well. My father was all the way in the united states and he is not the kind of person to pay people for child “specail treatment”. The few of us that didn’t have the privilege tried to stay average, which my father really hated. Well don’t blame me you think I rally want to be dumb? Maybe if u listen when I say my school is not worth all the praises its get you would believe me than. Lilac is asking ma a question……………
“hey! U tink u can just help me ere for a sec without loosing urself?”, not that I really care. “eh, sorri I just remebered somethings and I got lost in my head” yea so like me.
“so what do you think about this dress? I don’t know it feels somehow?” not that I don’t want to help but I really don’t like shing colors and lil loves them. They make her look fat like she has too many boobs and butt, which she has, I like hiding mine under shady colors.
“you lil u like bright colors so no matter what I say u still gonna buy it anywys” “yea I do like bright colors they bring out my goods”. Yea I do know that thanks for the info.
“jami, what do u tink?” “well I think its great, I like bright colors, so totally a yes” “atleast get something sky blue and not rocking yellow like u have on” I said “well lets see if they have any decent sky blues”
I really don’t know why you would wear a color that screams see ma boobs you wanna touch. I don’t know how people feel having eyes follow them like they are some goods to be devour. I guess my friends loves the attention, I really don’t. lil has a boyfreind anyways so why the need, who am I kidding , girls would always be girls.
So we are in this expensive shop in manhanttan, I don’t know the name and I really don’t care, but we have spent more than 30mins in here and its starting to get on my nerves.
Gosh manhanttan!anytime I come here I always have this imagination, were I meet a really cute guy who like s me and all does shit. Even though I say romance and love are bitches I still cant help to want them. To me manhattan is like a heaven on earth thigy were all you dreams come true but so far my luck as been nathing! Plan strip. Anyways who cares about me or whati want, its not like my dad will let me have a fun relationship life before marriage. Yea I know my father can be annoying sometimes, I mean he is always annoying, I am a 20 years old woman without a love life and he still don’t trust me. Sometimes I think I don’t derserve to call my self a woman. Am a christain and I do understand that we should have sex with only our husband, yea my high school sang that into my ear enough times, but people go to church less now. And even if I have a boyfreind it doesn’t mean am gonna be having sex with him, Well try telling that to my dad. People