Red Passion, icantinkofaname [most inspirational books of all time .txt] 📗

The atmosphere was cold and clammy. There was no life in the air nor inside. he layed in my arms, gently slipping away, leaving me behind to clean up the mess. I was angry, i was hurt. i was secretly dying inside myself. He cant go he has to stay and protect me, i can look after him! like he would me. i dont want him to go. "baby..can you hear me, u have to stay awake please.....ple..ase" i splurted out "you cant leave me here, u have to stay, i dont want you to go!!" i shouted.
"i have....to...go, my...time..is..up, listen..to..me, i wa..nt you to find someone else, live a ...happy life, i will always be inside you, just not in....person."
"noo!! i need you just you i dont want anyone else i need you, pleaaasse!!!! baby stay with me, its to soon, we can live together we can have everything i just need you to stay..!!!"
"i love you charlie.....i realy fucking love you! but you need to move on....i love you"
"dont say goodbye, ur not going anywhere,your staying here....with me!!".
"i cant..... i need to sleep..."

"baby, wake up, WAKE UP...JOEE!! the paramedics will be here....they'll be here......WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!" i screamed, i was a mess. he was right there, lying in my arms, i felt his body go cold, he was inanimate, silent......dead.


It had been 4 weeks since joe died, nothing could ever cheer me up again!. Mum had tried everything, but all i could think about was how he had died, how he was in my arms at that very moment. You need to get away she said, i thought that would be an idea, to lose my head for a while and thats how we ended up in tunnisia. So we packed our bags, got the passports and headed out. after a long plane journey we arrived at the hotel. mum decided on going to a few bars and meet some other people. The first one was called the 'STARLIGHT'. after the first half hour of socialising i couldnt take it, people kept asking if i had a partner and if he was 'hot'. i ran outside for fresh air, i cried and makeup ran down my face. i watched the stars apear behind the faded clouds in the the sky, the breeze was warm, and the air was stuffy. i kept going back to that moment where joe and i first met.where we first embraced, that first kiss.....and dreadfully how he died of an overdose of ketamin.Then at that moment outside the bar something happened. At first i thought i had to much to drink or that maybe someone put something in it because i swear i saw small dragon run past. I couldnt of...i mean thats crazy, im going crazy!. so i ran, ran after it, it stopped and looked at me as if it wanted me to run after it, it carried on and ran and ran, we were far away from the bar...infact away from the town, it had turned different there were trees and bushes everywhere.

Publication Date: 12-17-2010

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