Back in time, Alle-Marie M. [affordable ebook reader TXT] 📗

Back in time

 

With every step of her, the world becomes more colorful. She is sweet, happy, strong like a butterfly, but she doesn't know it, he also doesn't . She thought that of she comes back, everything will be like it was or better, but she was wrong.She was standing there, and with her look at him, she sent all the contempt she got abd sent to him like sunshine rays. He couldn't abstain, and killed the silence between them.

-Don't you want to talk?

-Why should we talk, and let the words hurt us?

-My words, or yours?

-Our words.

-Let's talk about love!

-Ok, what means : "to love"?

-To love, means, to be like a butterfly that lives just a day on earth, but it fully enjoys that day. To be with you.

She smiled, he smiled. She left, he stayed and watched her walk away with his eyes full of tears and shouted at her :

-I know why you don't stay, but i don't understand why you're leaving.

- I realized that i lost all my feelings for you, for us.

-Search for them. I know they're somewhere right there.

-I also believed. She took her hand at her heart, and whispered : "I thought that i'll find you somewhere in the corner of my heart, somewhere where you were standing skulking, of the drops of tears that come out of my eyes, but not" .She took her hand at her head "I thought that i'll find you in memories, but my mind doesn't have little boxes for regrets " , then she took her hand at her belly and smiled, but she hesitated.

-Did you find me there?, he smiled.

She left her head down and said : "I thought that i'll find you here, like a butterfly, who tries to give me thrills of love, but it's empty" . She started to search in her pockets and smiled ironically, and said : "I also searched for you here, but you're not here" .

-Where did you lost them?

-On the stairs, probably..

The rain got it's role, and swept all corners of the little town Covington.

"I despise the words, they light the dark, i'm afraid of dark, the secrets came out of it.. I love the rain, but i hate every single person that brought rain into my life.. it simply erased all feelings i had for that someone. I hate the time, it slipped away and took you with it, took our memories with it. But after all of these, i still love life. "

These lines were written in the powdered sugar overturned on the table in that cafe, that cafe where they were dating in the past.

-How are you? Don't you know that the sugar is for cookies?

The words that were spoken, made her flutter and smile, and finally throw herself in his arms.

-He looks for you. What did you do to him, Allison?

 -I don't play hide'n'seek, but if he looks for me, he should keep looking.

-Why don't you forgive him?

-I don't know, i don't had enoigh time to think about it.

-You remained complicated, like a lock..

-.. A lock without a key, but i will take some time, some time to think about things.

-When?

 -Someday..

-You're so mean.

-Not as mean as you are, that man is looking for you, and you don't give any sign..

-I didn't wanted to be like a cloud, and interpose between sun and the world, between you and him.

-You were wrong.

-I could've been wrong if i stayed .

-Why did you came back?

-Don't let you go wrong too.

-Not today, please, don't.

-What are you asking me?

-Let's don't talk about him.

-What do you want to talk then?

-Today i have much time for nothing, i don't want to waste it talking or thinking about what it'll be, i don't care about yesterday, what will be from now on, not even what is now. I want to listen to the silence.

-And what does silence says?

-Everything.

-I hope it is good.

-Yes, yes it is, now take me home.

-At your place, or his?

-Stefan!

-Ok, ok, i apologize to you and your silence

-Let's go now.

It's amazing how, without saying anything, you transmit everything. Or the heart, has her own voice, a voice that only the person beside you, hears. It's amazing how the person who has been by your side, is just a traveler in your life, in your world. This is your ex boyfriend,a traveler that lived his his moment and then walked away alone on the road, and you're just a world, where everyone can leave, but at the entry, they get thru a lock without a key. It's amazing how those people that were butterflies, became just "friends".

-And what have you done, since i left?

-I tried to survive.

-Survive? What's the matter with you, Allison, you have everything that someone can ever dream : beauty, career, a home, friends and family.

-But i miss something ..

-That 'something' is inside you, search for it, and you'll find it.Don't search for it in persons around you.

 -You are talking?

 -When something is not perfect at the person around you, you choose to leave. You taught me so.

-Look where we got.

-Thank you, for the ride. Kisses.

-Yeah, yeah. me too.

"Do you know how it feels to search for the hug of someone in the dark, and to be afraid about those impatient secrets come out at light. No. You don't know. I also didn't knew , but i learned . Will you learn too?”

-Hi.

-What are you doing in my house?

-I looked for you, i came to give you the key.

-So, you don't want to stay?

-You want me to stay?

-I know that i have all the reasons at handy, to tel you to stay, for you to hear all my soul has to tell you.

-But you have your vanity and..

-And i'll ask you to leave, it's better.

-Ok, have a good night.

-You're giving up too easy.

-There have been a lot of that were lost between us, that for me is the same, if i loose another thing.

-Wait.. it's not your fault.

-But you said..

-It doesn't matter what i said, or what i'll say. It's not your fault, i ...

-You changed ..

-No. I tried to be what i wasn't.At first, all was fine, your presence could make me full of happiness, but now .. the time became as a drought in August.

- Don't you think you owe me a better explanation?

- No, i don't think so.

 

 

 

         

 

       

 

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Translation: Luca Alex
Publication Date: 12-10-2013

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